i have climbed the highest mountain
i have run through the fields
only to be with you
only to be with you

i have run
i have crawled
i have scaled these city walls
only to be with you

but i still haven't found what i'm looking for...my life is a never ending cycle of shit ( Read more... )

i figured i'd write a little somethin somethin in here while i'm actually on the site. plus, what the hell else is there that's better to do at 2 in the morning ( Read more... )

wow, holy shit. it's like i forgot how to have a backbone and now that i'm no longer spineless, i realize what a tool i've been ( Read more... )

i could sit here and write this completely useless entry about what's really bothering me. but what the fuck is the point, it's about my fucking boy problems. i'm so pathetic.

but the bottom line is that i can't decide between good and evil, so i'm not going to.

home is where the heart is... on the busi never really knew what that was supposed ( Read more... )

quicky fast update ( Read more... )

the past 2 days have been the worst 2 days of my life and it's all because of shaun. he's fucked me over and broken my heart for the last time. i've said this so many times before that i don't even believe myself when i say i'm done with him. but what kind of cold hearted selfish person can make their girlfriend cry on christmas and not even ( Read more... )

mother fucker i done it again
oh well might as well become what you hate

fucking grr

i'm not with shaun anymore
i'm back at my parents house
and i'm not going to school this semester

i need some time to fix myself cause i'm broke for sure

if i'm doing the right thing then why the fuck does it hurt so much?

i had to post this because it was just so accurate.

my life just keeps getting worse.

i don't want to be treated like shit anymore
but i don't want anybody else...

i haven't felt this bad in years