fic: Consumed (Star Trek AOS)

[thistlerose]

Title: Consumed
Fandom: Star Trek AOS
Rating: Adult
Characters: Kirk, Spock, McCoy
Contains: disturbing stuff (highlight to reveal) a lethal, mind-controlling parasite manipulates Jim into believing he's pregnant; involuntary (due to mind control) termination of said imagined pregnancy, including graphic description of surgery
Notes: Many thanks to

Comments

[featherxquill]

Wow. This is amazing. I have never read ST fic before, but this sounded so interesting that I couldn't resist. And wow. Scary and powerful, and I just. Yes. Blew me away.

[thistlerose]

Thank you so much! I'm so glad you liked it - and that you took a chance on it. I've never written anything like this, and it worried me.

[secondsilk]

Woah, awesome. So creepy and scary and heartbreaking.

[thistlerose]

Thank you!

Poor Jim. Poor all of them, really. Hearts and flowers next time, I swear.

[janice_lester]

This is amazing, from the title on down. Definitely a candidate for best fic I've read in the last month or two. The first third, in particular, is masterful. I love this to bits. Spectacular.

[thistlerose]

*blush* Thank you! This story worried the hell out of me, so your lovely comment is very gratifying!

[missjaneregrets]

Wow! I almost didn't read it, because how could it be good? But this was amazing!

[thistlerose]

Thank you! I ... honestly wasn't sure I could pull it off. I'm *so* glad it worked.

[mijan]

I always love your fics. This one was brilliant. I couldn't normally see Kirk being so demonstrative with his inner emotions, but being controlled by a parasite, I couldn't imagine it any other way. You hit the balance perfectly. It was intense, watching Kirk's mental process break down from the inside, and only being able to imagine what the rest of the crew was actually seeing. And having Kevin Riley's sister... that was beyond brilliant. It adds such a bittersweet layer on top of something that's already angsty beyond belief.

Aaaah, allow me to just sit here and bask in the awesomeness of your writing.

[thistlerose]

Eee, thank you *so* much! Your comment makes me very, very happy

[mijan]

Oh yes, Jim will certainly have a protective crew from now on, not that he didn't already. But maybe he'll see it more.

Shoot me for being a h/c addict, but I really wish I could peek into his recovery room to see what happens over the few days before they release him. Still emotionally gutted, guilty from letting the parasite go so far and not realizing what was actually happening to him, weak from his ordeal, tethered to a biobed for a few days while he tries to make sense of what happened. Oh Jim. *huggles him*

Oxytocin is a possibility, but who knows what alien chemicals were used. Really, it could be anything. Maybe the parasite released some chemicals, and his body was triggered to release others. It would be fascinating to map it out on a biochemical level. *grins*

Awwwww, thanks hun! *blushes* I just write what I enjoy, and hope a few other people like it, too. ♥

[thistlerose]

Poor Jim. Originally, I was going to have his conversation with McCoy take a different direction. McCoy was going to ask Jim if he still trusted him - since I see Bones being quite haunted and disturbed by what happened, even though he made the only choice he could have - and Jim was going to want to say yes, but find himself unable to say it. But I felt like that would have made it sound like McCoy was making it all about his own pain. But maybe if I write an expansion. I'd like to explore McCoy and Spock's interaction while they wait for Jim to wake up, have them wonder how they can call themselves his friends when they totally missed the signs.

As for Jim, I think he'll be deeply worried about how his crew views him now. He's starting to understand that they really love him, but I don't think he'd be comfortable with any obvious signs of protectiveness - not after the way he behaved - and he does feel guilty - and after having Bones and Spock so close. Finding the balance is going to be hard.