i said "i'll trade you one for two nightmares of mine.
i have some where i die.
i have some where we all die."

"poison oak ( Read more... )

i'd like to feel a real emotion for once. something tangible. something that grips me, demanding my attention at all hours. i wouldn't even mind the sleep loss, or lack of focus, or anything. even if it was real sadness. i think i'd be overjoyed to experience something beyond material and mimicry, even if that 'elation' conflicts with whatever ( Read more... )

so i'm not getting kicked out. whoop-dee-doo. apparently, right after the accident, my mom thought i was dead. so she kind of took it all back. so don't fret.

that's all.

as of midnight, january 7th, 2005, i will be homeless. my mother and to-be stepfather gave me a standard 'residential agreement,' in which i forfeit my beloved personal freedoms in exchange for a roof over my head. such charity around the holidays ( Read more... )

i think i just got evicted. kicked out. made homeless. so fuck my bitch mom and her self-righteous dictum.

it's probably just one of her fucking spats, but if there's no update on my situation by tomorrow night, expect that i'm without a place to stay. if anyone feels like offering me sanctuary for a night, free sex for them. or money.

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for the next 24 hours, i feel like being blood-soakingly honest. until 10.25 pm saturday, ask me anything and i'll answer with all the honesty one man can muster. here or in person or over IM. or over the phone.

if all goes well, i may just adopt the policy permanently.

last night, into this morning, i had a number of dreams relating to nothing in particular. they were all tied together, with people dying as a profession, but i kept changing places and ages and whatnot. in a few i was some spy or something, going places and killing people, and seeing other people killing people and dying. there was something ( Read more... )

by sara's count, there's 13 days left til christmas. i dont have any money, and if i did i'd spend it on myself, so don't expect tangible gifts from me. sorry ( Read more... )