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Realizing, Today
I want a son so bad I can taste it. I don't even know what that means, I just want a little boy. I don't want to have kids, I just want to have a son.
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Fun Facts About Skin
Yesterday I sewed up the thickest line on my leg, with very thin fishing wire. It was kinda fun, and weird. Here is what I learned: it didn't hurt nearly as much as I thought it was going to, in fact, barely at all. Pushing the needle in the first side, I couldn't even feel it. Out the other side hurt, for whatever reason, and a few times it was a ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
You're in Germany.
I'm sitting on the edge of the bathtub cutting myself.
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Boys
Yesterday was your 18-month "birthday." I can't believe I missed that ( Read more... ) -
Wait.
Here's what sucks: I feel like Hades and the rest of the world, my family and even my friends, the girls, they're all going on like nothing's wrong. According to how they're acting, everything is just *perfectly* *peaches* and *cupcakes*, cheers!! I know that it's not happening to them and so they don't feel remotely like I do and have no reason to ( Read more... ) -
(why do I keep caring when you're so awful?)
I can't do this. I don't want to do this. Actually, the reason this sucks so much is because I'm not doing anything. Something is just happening to me and I am just sitting here, waiting for it to happen. It's creeping closer and closer and I'm not ready for it (I'll never be ready for it) and there's nothing I can do to stop it or even slow it ( Read more... ) -
In Reference to Adam Rose: The End, Again
Ohh god!
You have really taken my brain and my heart and my soul and squeezed them really tight with both hands and twisted. -
Nashville Makes Me Think Too Much
12 - 18 Months: Intellectual Development: says 8-20 words you can understand
Here's another thing I can't imagine. I can imagine the size, the hair color, the toddle down the hallway, but I have no idea what you would be saying right now. I don't know enough about you for that one, because you don't exist.
Sigh. I've been thinking about your daddy a ( Read more... ) -
Your Results May Vary
I feel weird. So weird. I feel so detached from the life that's going on around me. I'm afraid I might disappear, or that I'll still think I'm hear but nobody else will be able to take notice of me anymore. I'm afraid I might start screaming and no one will be able to hear me. Then, of course, I'm afraid my mental problems are so much worse than ( Read more... ) -
Of Zygotes, Affairs, and a Neurotic Woman
My period was four days late and an extra day long ( Read more... )