i wish it were possible that when you moved, if you wanted, all of the memories and all of the facts of your life from the place youre leaving, could be left behind. if you can leave the place, why cant you leave the pain?

/// two of us sitting alone again in silence wondering what your eyes might see me as this time sometimes i wish you thought out loud it's so much different now you and i meeting again another circle better than nothing at all i'm glad we came sometimes i wish that we could change and make it past this somehow and all along i never thought we were ( Read more... )

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because i have nothing really to do this evening other than homework. and because i am not in the greatest of moods, and because i really want some attention right now and im not getting it, i am forced to be spoiled and think about how truley unhappy i am right now. and this i do not like.

i had to give my frist disciplinary anything at work last night. i had to give a girl a verbal. i hate making people feel bad, but when you deserve it , you deserve it i guess. last night was so stressful i could have just cried from it all. i nfact, i did today. ive been in such a pisspoor mood all day today, i couldtn really tell you why though. ( Read more... )

i was at work until twelve-thirty last night. thats a sign its catering season again. i havent been that late in a very , very long time. my job is changing again, by the people that work with me now, to new store policies... blah blah blah. im not sure how much i like the atmosphere anymore. one thing i have noticed about this store is that it ( Read more... )

these last few weeks have been rather strange. for some reason i havent been working as much, and my classes have been easier than ever, but yet, im more tired than i have been in quite some time. its all that i can do some mornings to pull myself from bed, shower, and go on about my day as if i am bright eyed. maybe its the anticipation of moving ( Read more... )

do you ever have those days where you feel like everything will be just wonderful, yet, your day ends up being the total opposite? yeah? i dont feel so alone then.

alot of my time has been spent my by myself. i think it has been much needed. ive realized how over the past few months ive been focusing on alot of trite things. i shoudlnt worry about how i come across to others. there is no need for me to im press anyone. i have become so self absorbed. i am ashamed of it. i shoudlnt care so much what i look ( Read more... )

i have been having the most morbid thoughts lately. i keep thinking of people around me dying - especially old men that i know. a customer came in the other day. he was old and chattered to me the whole time he was eating his ham and cheese potato. he had sores all over his face. he claimed they were from when he fought in korea. something about ( Read more... )