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[thisfalseart]

i'm so disoriented right now. i don't know what the hell just happened.

i got into a car accident tonight, my first one ever. happened on hwy 111 and country club. i was stopped at the red light, right hand lane, divya and richard were in the lane next to me, eric in the left most lane. we were all up front, right at the intersection. the light

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[youheartcaitlin]

My love... I hate to see you like this. It's so uncharacteristic of you, it reminds me of myself, and I don't want you to be like that. You don't honestly believe that you're a fuck up, do you? You're not. Not even close. You're more ready for the real world than a lot of us are, including me. If it had been me in your situation last night, I don't think I could've handled it, honestly. And everything else you've been through should tell you that you're more ready for the real world than you think. I mean... look at me, living solely off my parents, still depending on them once I graduate and leave. You've already experienced the real world simply because you have a job and have to pay your own bills. Do you see what I mean? And so much more, Alexis. You're a strong person, you'll make it. And not only will you make it, you'll excel like you always do. I don't have faith in many things, but I can honestly say that I have faith in you and your capabilities. Please don't call yourself a fuck up, please don't wanna die, please... don't

[egyptian_chick]

alexis..im so glad everyone is ok...im sorry about what happened..:(..i wish i could help but i know i cant say or do anything to make u feel..but if u ever need someone ..im always here...i love u!

and ur not a fuck up..not even close...your the most amazing person ive ever meet youve accomplished so much...i dont know how ''im a fuck up'' would ever even cross ur mind.

[beatlebitch]

Alexis i am so sorry, i think it is ridiculous that this had to happen to you. But please...please don't talk like that, about wanting to die and such. we all love you so much and it kills me to read those kinds of things, especially when you seem so serious about it. i just think that you need to get out of palm springs (which won't be much longer) and just start off completely fresh in college. like ingelson said, you are going to go so unbelievably far in life,i don't think you even know how many people (like myself) look up to you. i truly do, and clearly that is why i call you God # 2 =) so just try and make it through these next couple of months, and just know that you have so many people here for you, just think of how many shoulders to cry on that is! it has to be like hundreds of shoulders =) i love you girl

[beatlebitch]

P.S. I tried to sound as "un-cliche" as possible

[thisfalseart]

thank you guys a lot. i'm calmer now, but i'm still not so sure about me doing well. the fact that i have my parents telling me daily that i won't be make it in college or in the real world, that doesn't help me at all. i've heard it every single day of my life, and now, i'm starting to believe it's true.

[youheartcaitlin]

It's not, love. And anyway, even fuck ups make it in life. :P So if they can make it, think about how great you'll do. Or something, there was a point in there somewhere but I'm kinda weird...