“Please take a seat outside of courtroom 1B. The commissioner will be with you shortly,” the woman behind the sleek, black desk says, offering you a brief smile while slipping your civil notice back into your hands. You nod, give her a shaky smile in return, and turn on your heel.
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Courtroom 1B. )
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And I hope so, too. I can't deal with the panic and anxiety very well, and it was really impacting my mood, having it resurface after her messages.
Hopefully it'll be seen that way, and not as me being a huge asshole. *sigh*
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But the upside is that you now know you do NOT have to feel that way, and these quandries are not examples of a "difficult personality" on your part. They're perfectly normal.
Finding your way back to that, after years of gaslighting, doesn't happen overnight. But you're moving in the right direction.
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You know, Dr A commented on Tuesday that I wasn't doing my usual self-doubt thing whenever I have to assert myself in order to protect my needs. I guess that was because I didn't have Evelyn contacting me at all, heh.
Which is still a step in the right direction, yes. :) of course, now Evelyn is trying to put pressure on me via the only part of the pfa that she can use against me (visitation schedule), if her texts earlier today are any indication. Sigh.
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It's cool that you put up with me. <3
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Just remember,I probably still wouldn't be here if it weren't for you. =p
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Can you find someone to go with you? I would even call a women's advocacy and see if they had anyone who could, not to mention the court should.
You are strong, as for Sarah, true friends tell you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear.
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I thought you might hate me for what I said, though. I'm glad you don't, even though I hate myself for it a little. As someone who grew up with an emotional abuser, I know "the truth" is not an excuse to be hurtful. But I don't always do a good job of speaking it without coming off uglier than I need to. I would like to believe that someday I'll learn.
We can kick Ev's ass together. I've offered a few times.
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I can look into it, but I don't really know if I'll find anything out in time. I also don't know if I can have anyone go with me -- but ignoring her is easy enough, honestly. No eye contact and focus all of my attention on my notebook.
I know. :) that's why I didn't stay mad at her for very long.
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Sometimes, you just have to be a hard ass, and when it comes to support, that is perfectly fine. Take it from someone whose father turned out to be a total deadbeat to all of his kids.
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I keep telling myself that my divorce is not going to be like my mom and my dad's divorce. They are role model divorcees, I swear. My dad was never late with payment, frequently paid extra if my mother needed it, was involved with us as children...
If only, right? lol
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