i feel so blah. like i dont care about anything. i could sleep forever and not care.

i really dislike christmas.

man o man. im so exhausted from working so much. my body is seriously about to give up. one month since ive smoked a cigarette. insane. i never thought that i could actually do it. im so nervous because tomorrow i gotta present my report on viacom for economics. i need to write shit on notecards. i know that my voice is gonna be all shakey though ( Read more... )

so yeah i got my hair dyed. i like it a lot. its really different and i need different. im at the parents house doing laundry of course. i swear it seems like i dont do anything else but laundry on my day off. kinda sad. and i gotta work on my stats test and my fucking economics project. i was gonna do it on viacom but i cant seem to find a whole ( Read more... )

i still havent had a cigarette. god i am so proud of myself. some days i just want to fucking go crazy and others i dont really think about them ot crave it. so weird. i think that i was having withdraws for a little bit there but it went away. i just want to be able to make it for my grandma.

im done with typing for now

i cannot believe that i am on my 6th day without a cigarette. it really isnt all that hard. wait. who am i kidding? earlier i thought that i was gonna commit suicide. but im gonna make it through this. i swear. im gonna start exercising more also to keep myself busy ( Read more... )

man i am so tired. a whole bunch of mexicans are working on my roof in my apartments and they started at like 6:30. god so i woke up to pounding and foot steps on the roof. so annoying. plus im sick so i need to get my sleep. i keep coughing and it tastes so bad. sorry to be vulgar. i havent had a cigarette today or yesterday. im really gonna quit ( Read more... )

man im so glad that my vote really did count. phew. i cant even believe that minimum wage went up. are people fucking brainless? i guess so.

well yeah im gonna go see my brothers band play tonight maybe. im tired and i dont feel like doing much of anything right now.

yay. me nick and chandy move in dec 9th. hell yeah!

its so weird that justin wrage came into firehouse. god weird. but i gave him amys number without even thinking because we were in the middle of lunch rush. he asked for it and i gave it to him. i didnt think it was a big deal. i guess to her it was. god and then she made me feel like i was in the middle of high school drama again. but i got over ( Read more... )

"My plan my plan"... what the fuck is your plan john kerry? where is the money gonna come from?