I don't know if I could fathom ever getting married. The idea of being with someone for the rest of my life as more than a boyfriend, with a LEGALLY BINDING CONTRACT is so preposterous to me right now. But then again, I'm only 22

It simply wasn't there.

The idea of growing up is truly frightening.

I remember everything,
Racing you across the bridge.
I was rolling, I was swimming, I was falling.
And then you kissed me, it was crazy.

But that was yesterday,
That was not today.

I did not want to let you go,
but I knew I had to.

And I'll always miss you.

I can't believe I let myself wrap around his finger as I did.

It's time to move on, I am a human being and I have feelings and I have greatly matured through this entire ordeal.

I'm so much better than this.

I have forgotten what it was like to have you be here.

I miss you and everything more than one can fathom.

I've never felt like this. I just want everything to work out.

Someday soon I'll realize it won't and I've got to keep walking.

Finals week is nearing to an end and I'll be back in Pittsburgh soon. Hopefully a month without academic obligations will help me be productive in other ways. I am excited to go home but also not. There's a lot of stress involved with being there but I believe soon that stress will cease to exist ( Read more... )

"Once the vase is broken, you can put it back together but it will never be the same."

But you said your vows, and you closed the door ( Read more... )