bad to worse...

[theoldanarchist]

I am currently as close to the end of my rope as I feel I have ever been.  I do not know how much worse things can get, but I really feel that I've had enough and can't take any more.  Kelly is afraid I am going to do something drastic, and I cannot honestly say that her fear is unfounded.  Were it not for her, I may have done it already...  I do

Comments

[seraphimsigrist]

I am sorry you are going through such
a hard time. I guess everynone who is at
all introspective comes to realize that he
is not becoming the person he set out to be,
but then that can be a step towards becoming
the person one is really meant to be...uh or
something, I know that sounds kind of heavy
and is not well put but... but the best days
surely are still ahead, with a prayer that
you can begin to see the way to them and
that circumstances pressing on you will let
up a little very soon...
+Seraphim

[theoldanarchist]

Your prayers, thoughts, and good wishes are always welcome, sir. Thank you.

[javabean]

It's so easy to lose hope in this world, but maybe life will bring better circumstances your way in the upcoming months ahead. Maybe this is a dark spot that is bringing you closer to something wholly better than you have ever been through before.

I thought tyrsalvia had good advice. Maybe the best thing is to figure out what would most make you into the person you want to be, and see if there is anything you can do from there.

Sending good vibes your way,
Jess

[theoldanarchist]

Good vibes are always appreciated.

[jevechan]

Yes...what everyone else has said very well. I have been there, too. In the meantime, try to find pleasure in little things, everyday things, tiny things. You will get through this.

[theoldanarchist]

Thanks. I will try that.

[arisbe]

There is a self higher than the one you give up on, and there is, I am convinced a God who never gives up on that higher self.

I know that this sounds pious and lame, but it is from someone who has been there. Others who have been there, some of them truly great, have found the same.

[theoldanarchist]

No, Frank, that did not sound lame---what you are saying is something I have believed in during my better moments, it is just something that is so hard to believe in right now. But, I want to believe it.

[theoldanarchist]

Thank you for your response, Mike---truly unexpected and appreciated. I had heard that you were in a similar situation, and I wish you well. You are right to point how lucky I am to have Kelly---I hope I never forget just how lucky I am!

Thanks for your good thoughts.