8 days is agonizing. Trying to get to the source, when the source is so far away. Resolute to decide. Unable to render a decision. Thoughts running amok. Miss.
Some say weak people turn to religion. I must say; it takes guts to be religious in our society. To stick to convictions. Whether they are wrong or not.
Why? Don't ask, it doesnt matter. I got a job that pays over 50k a year. Work for freedom, aint freedom. Freedom for family. Freedom for future. Freedom. Never, but always, free.
Thinking doesn't change a thing. Nothing changes a thing. Things thought are pointless now. The time to change has come and gone. We will burn in the fury of the sun. Everyone. Death. And it doesn't matter. Laughter, and IT doesn't matter. We are all gone in the foreseeable future. Ashes to ashes, lust to dust. Poof.
If you follow, I will lead you. Where we're going, I know not. Where we'll be then, where we'll rot. Things I don't know, things don't matter, think they do, well you've been fooled, too. All of you, eyes diverted, faces downward, your guards down.
If i had to apologize to all those I've wronged, I'd be here forever. and don't you know, that'd be nice. Just to apologize. could it have changed it all? It would change nothing. Don't doubt for a second your past. It will always be. You. You're always. Always here, because when you're not, you're gone.