not quite as schmoopy as I meant it to be...ex_roseganyMay 18 2009, 05:26:55 UTC
He's still here. Dean blinks into the motel room, the dark tempered by the fluorescent "vacancy" light bleeding through the chintzy curtains. Sam is just a blurry lump in the other bed, but it's a Sam-shaped lump, sure enough.
Sam's still here. Sam's alive, Sam's here, Sam's with Dean again. Of all the things that've gone on in the last few days - hell, the last few years - it's hard to believe.
Really, Dean's almost afraid to believe. Faith was made to be shattered, and his has taken a beating this year. Faith in God, not so much - never had much of that, and the dude's goons have proved Dean right. Faith in himself? Never had much of that either, but there were certain things Dean prided himself on, and one had always been his brother. Raising him, protecting him, the bond between them, even stretched thin as it'd been over the years.
But now it feels like it's snapped and it's been sewn hastily back together again, the edges raw and jagged now but somehow sure. Dean is sure - Sam is here. He isn't going anywhere. Not tonight,
( ... )
Re: not quite as schmoopy as I meant it to be...concernedlilyMay 18 2009, 10:30:54 UTC
This is lovely! And plenty schmoopy *g*. I love that Dean recognises how all their issues have got so tangled up and the work it'll take to fix things, but he wants to because Sam is the one thing he can believe in.
Re: not quite as schmoopy as I meant it to be...ex_roseganyMay 19 2009, 21:33:10 UTC
Thank you! And Sam is definitely the one thing Dean can believe in, but it's faith that takes work, that isn't blind, that means seeing Sam and things with them for how they really are, and working from there...I hope they do!
Re: not quite as schmoopy as I meant it to be...ariadnes_stringMay 18 2009, 15:11:41 UTC
Oh that's great! I really like how you tie to the problem of faith, and the way that Dean has to struggle to have faith in Sam again, much as he loves him. Thank you!
Re: not quite as schmoopy as I meant it to be...crazytookMay 21 2009, 07:25:40 UTC
Oh this was really sweet. I love it. It's just so adorable to see Dean deal with something this small, and to think on how he's hurt and how he's been hurt. I really also just love the way you put Dean's issues with faith, and I love how you wrote Dean just appreciating his brother. He fights for him so much, it is lovely to see him just to be rewarded for that for like five seconds, even if he can be stupid about how he fights for Sam. Great job! kudos! -crazytook
Sam's still here. Sam's alive, Sam's here, Sam's with Dean again. Of all the things that've gone on in the last few days - hell, the last few years - it's hard to believe.
Really, Dean's almost afraid to believe. Faith was made to be shattered, and his has taken a beating this year. Faith in God, not so much - never had much of that, and the dude's goons have proved Dean right. Faith in himself? Never had much of that either, but there were certain things Dean prided himself on, and one had always been his brother. Raising him, protecting him, the bond between them, even stretched thin as it'd been over the years.
But now it feels like it's snapped and it's been sewn hastily back together again, the edges raw and jagged now but somehow sure. Dean is sure - Sam is here. He isn't going anywhere. Not tonight, ( ... )
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kudos!
-crazytook
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