My world has been turned upside down these days. I don't know where my relationship is going. The funny thing is just a few days ago I really thought I knew EXACTLY where it was going. Which is where I want it to go. Eli just does not seem to get that being friends with an ex who has crossed the line is inappropriate and hurtful to me. I am ( Read more... )

So last night we all went out to paquitos and had a good time. Most everyone went. Kris, Krystal, Krystin, Salvador, Freddy, Corey, his friend Bryan and of course Eli and I. We went dancing had margaritas, shots of tequila and Coronas. Afterwards we all went to " mama's" to goof around and much on leftovers from earlier that evening. We polished ( Read more... )

So, I've been back here for at least a month and a half now. Eli and I have been sleeping on Krystin's couch. That has been fun lol NOT! Eli and I just put down our deposit on our new place! I can't wait to be in there. We get the keys sometime next week. Too bad we really don't have any furniture lol. We have my bed, computer, desk, monitor/tv and ( Read more... )

It's been too long since I've written here. My life has changed sooo dramatically. I moved home from Miami and wow what an experience. I spent some time to learn about my family and hoping I could grow close to them. I learned that my parents are just tooo different and that It's a blessing in disguise that I don't know them very well. Chelsea and ( Read more... )

You're very loved and missed...

damn, I can't believe we lost him...just this tuesday was the first time I had seen him in over 2 years...
I feel blessed to have spent time with him in his last days with us.

    So, being back in FortMyers has really put me down. I'm just not as fun and full of life like I was back in Miami. I don't have many friends here, I'm just trying to be fun and uplifting but, I need a little help. I need a little spice in my life. I was hoping this boy would be just the thing but, he seems to just be giving me mixed signals. I' ( Read more... )

So, I'm back in fucking fortmyers... Matt has pushed me out... My mom is still the same jesus freak she's always been..... and my new job blows.
..................... i keep asking myself... " why am I here again?"

I used to believe that life mimic fairy tales.. and if they didn't its because your not where your meant to be. It's hard to remind myself that, that simply isn't true nor, will it ever be true. Happiness is a choice and a gift. It's not something you get for being who you were meant to be or being who you were meant to be with. You cant obtain it ( Read more... )

God I hate those ridiculous people that are always just a buzz kill.... like those overly rude and obsessive people.. thank make you think.. " god i was having such a good day until your bitch ass ".......UGHH just leave me alone... please????

that i ever forgot about all the greatness that is ska