Life is to suffer, but to suffer is like stress

some of it is good, some of it is bad

Currently im suffering immensely, but in probably the best way possible - a love like no other even conceivable by the human mind. SO mind boggling that I dont even understand it.

But lately, ive been wondering, what is life? every now and then ill get high and take ( Read more... )

I dont know why, even though i know what was said to me, but how i comprehended it is what my problem is.. how i feel about it all.

Today, i talked to her like any other day, and she had told me she plans to stay home for a year, work and all that.. but she also said she didnt know if she could handle living with me and my family (a family she ( Read more... )

Seems like all those ambitions, and all those promises and put-offs for "tomorrow" are finally on their way out, that is to say, are here now.

All the "ill stop/doing it/later/start" tomorrow's are over. Ive been promising the future for a long time, and now i feel ready (arguably, not as ready as ive ever felt) to finally put the "Future" to rest, ( Read more... )

The things you learn over time, through experiences, trial, error and with general age-wisdom.

its insurmountably wealthy and rich.

Youth truly is wasted on the young. Watching those younger than I - not even by a lot- flounder like hapless fish in the wind is especially aggravating, because you know better, and they do not, yet they will not listen

( Read more... )

 So lets update

Within the next 2 weeks i have a lot of important things happening, namely my 2 board board exams, with my MCQ being on Friday, and then the OSCE itself on Tuesday

Studying has become a trying task, and i often find myself in front of the tv, not quite sure how i got there in the first place

sigh, at least i know im capable of teaching ( Read more... )

 Today is the day i used my last supplemental examination
today is the day i spent the last 100 $ i have to my name (on said exam)

Today is the day where i passed this exam (kinesiology)

and thusly, today is the day i am able to graduate!

after 3 years of this school, i can finally put it to rest in just a few more weeks..

i really have no words to ( Read more... )

So, today was a good day.. until ( Read more... )

 Turns out I have no conviction what so ever..
she calls, shes sad, shes lonely, shes ANYTHING

and i will be there for her

its true that even the strongest of men, with the hardest of will's will concede to his true love, without question

oh well, im not bothered by this
i just know how that I cant deprive myself of her willingly

In other news, UBUNTU!

i ( Read more... )

 con·vic·tion   
[kuhn-vik-shuhn]
-noun
1.
a fixed or firm belief.

I've decided that im going to take that hiatus i said i would from everyone
every time ive had finals in the past, something had come up to emotionally wreck me

i was given a taste of possibilities, and its bitterly familiar so im not going to chance it
so, im simply going to bow out ( Read more... )

 I dont regret my decision but, much less, after this past week or so, and find myself hoping she "gives up" and just wants to be very good friends. After dating someone like her, a best friend position seems completely feasible.. but of course, we will definitely need time to make sure that sexual tension dissipates completely, if not almost ( Read more... )