"And I'll borrow words from all my favorite paragraphs ( Read more... )

Everyday I open my eyes in the morning and dread my day ahead cause I fear the longness of it all, and I dread how my mind runs. And through the day all I wanna do is to head back to hide in bed and sleep early so I will not have consciousness. The only other time that I look forward to is to brush my teeth where everything just feels.. quiet, and ( Read more... )

5 steps forward and 10 steps back

I have gone off the grid. There are so many things i wna say and express but then i step back and ask myself what my point is. And then i stop. I then realise aside frm whatever point there is, i cant even begin to describe how this feels. Havent felt this crumbled and broken for a long time. All i wna do is to understand and walk away but i cant ( Read more... )

"Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
Only time, only time"

When you try your best and your best isn't good enough, then how?

I am impressed I'm fighting and I'm damn impressed I haven't given up. This might be the hardest fight I have ever fought. This must also be the longest I have hung onto. 

For a moment there, I almost got tricked into doubting myself and my life and all the wrongs I have done, and nope, not gonna happen with me. No regrets. Everything happened for a reason and I won't be able to get everyone to agree with all the life choices I have ever made. I might have done a million bad things, but I must have done tons of good ( Read more... )

SO FUCKING SICK OF HEARING THAT LINE EVERY FUCKING DAY

You seem to have your routine going, youve got everything going for you, now where do i fit in?

I'm feeling it again; I once asked F if he has ever felt like he has the world to talk to, or at least someone reliable he can fall back on, but at the same time, feel loneliness like he doesn't have anyone to talk to, or like no one would understand.

It's here again. This sucks.