I'm completely exhausted.

New Journal:

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Sleepnow.

The chorus trip is over. The city got me sick with all its pollution and flashing lights. Or maybe it was Newark that did it. Or maybe I really have been wearing myself too thin with all my late nights. I don't know. Either way, I stayed home today because school has dropped far down on my list of priorities.

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Last night I forced Raf to stumble down the path from house to car with me and insisted on going first, even though my feet are one of the least trustworthy parts of my body. My brain being the true least and my eyes being the most. We talked for a long time and thinking back I might've wanted a cigarette, but I'm still going to back out on my ( Read more... )

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I can pinpoint the problem, but it's below the surface and won't come out. All my stress about college and the question marks after summer has worked its way beneath my skin and sits there, filling me up with anxiety. I want to be happy and move freely and not get bogged down at the strangest times, but it just happens and before I even know it I ( Read more... )

Rejected from Wesleyan ( Read more... )

I am drowsy, but content ( Read more... )

I got rejected from Brown.

I'm tired. I still have to hear from everywhere else. I feel useless and stupid and the tingling of confirmation that I shot too high.

Good job.

Also. I am tired of bullshit, but can't seem to drag myself up out of it.

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