He was stricken with an overwhelming nostalgia suddenly, while listening to music of his soul and the spirit of his friends, and he started to realize that he was feeling all those emotions they said they felt without feeling but knew that one day soon they would have to bear- and no tears fell, but his heart began to tear along the arteries and it ( Read more... )

I ran over an opossum today. At least, I think it was an opossum. It was whitish. I tried to avoid it, but the road was only one lane each way, and the road was slick. I hit it. The underside of my car jolted a loud crack through my spine, causing me to curse and then go limp. I didn't get out of the car. I only slowed nearly to a stop, looked in ( Read more... )

Today was... wonderful.

I cleared 11 feet in practice.

My cousin had a baby girl.

I felt myself in love for the first time.

The weather was storybook-sweet.

I love this life.
(and by the way, Bernie gets the school an insane amount of bank.)

-Me

Today was just strange.

And I ate about 8k calories. 5 krispy kreme donuts, milk, juice, a cookie, two huge-ass salads with various other food groups tossed in, and various miscellaneous snacks.

I almost crushed someone today.

My stomach still shows signs of severe overeating. Ass.

I guess I'll update with some substance. For your bones. Because milk is good for you. So drink some ( Read more... )

Whee, I'm a fuck up!

My mom asked me late one night, "Why do you do this to yourself?"

I didn't have an answer.

Me = Jedi Poodoo.

Sitting here, staring at my blurred-doubled reflection on the window - light flared and foreshadowed - feeling as if I've lost myself to some degradation of self and finding only cold blackness separated by an inch of synthesized silicon dioxide polymer-touched machination, I realize that it's not so bad. There's a light on in the house far away - ( Read more... )

Anyone know how I can get my shit straight and change my life?

Why is it so hard for me to overcome my feelings? Acceptance- been there, done that. Change?

I despise certain parts of myself.