sometimes i wish i had the ability to just let shit go. but i can't. i can't stand that i let you get to me. i can't stand that i have to spout off when you do. i used to actually hope that you were happy, that you understood, that you were actually sorry. but those emotions just will never be a part of you. i left the fucking state and you are ( Read more... )

my mom called at 8 am. my cousin josh a talented athelete, and successful 22 yr old who worked for a financial company, was killed by a semi truck this morning around 3 am. he was just minutes from home. it is so unexpected for this news to come just days before christmas, and my first christmas away from my hometown. it is also the second ( Read more... )

you know, i don't for a second regret all the bridges i have burned.  i took myself out of what i felt were several toxic relationships, and traded them for a life of my own choosing. however, there is still love in my heart for all those that i have walked away from.  i hope they they are proud of me.  i hope that they know it wasn't their fault. ( Read more... )

Comment and I'll do the following ( Read more... )

things i want to write about:

1. radical feminism and how it is not true feminism. how it denies women the right to choose to embrace their womanhood. i.e the ability to produce children, wearing skirts and makeup, having a beautiful body.

...okay well i thought i had more than one thing, but i guess i lost the list in my head haha...i'm sure i'll ( Read more... )

i'm taking my road test tomorrow, and getting an '08 focus on October 22.
i will be 20 years old on October 27.
zach and i will be celebrating 9 months on October 15.
he may or may not be moving to florida in january, just after his 21st birthday.

my life is moving so fast right now.
it would be nice to slow down.

so i just put it all on paper...and if i want to graduate by winter semester next year (2009), i definetely have to take spring/summer classes this year. kind of lame...but i need to graduate so i can get out of this stupid state. and there is no way anyone can do 54 credit hours in 3 semesters.

bah. 

i had a dream last night about breastfeeding. don't ask me why ( Read more... )

donald trump acts like a twelve year old. seriously. he's like a preteen gossipy teenage girl. is it really too much for him to just say "no comment"?

-shrug-

zach is my boyfriend.

♥

so let's see...i just suck at updating don't i ( Read more... )