im not suicidal, im sad. Im not desperate, im upset. Dont get it twisted.

I remember that show, "My So Called Life". I used to love that show and I can't remember why. Don't know what made me think of it. And for some reason, the show was really bittersweet and I think the title would suit the show "Daria" better. I loved that show at the time to because it was a great representation of the side of life that I was living ( Read more... )

I won't be writing for a while because you people never answer me. I write and I write and I am super duper sincere and you fuckers ignore me. You people disgusts me. It's all for you. I have other journals, people that cold relate in real life and you fucks ignore me. I'll be back one day.

I am so fucking tired. OmG. I don't rememeber how long I stayed up last night, but I remember talking to Matt, and I can't rememeber what we talked about. We had some issues yesterday, and I think they are resolved now, but I still have this empty feeling in my chest. He is so wonderdul, and I love being around him, but (for those who know), the ( Read more... )

Hey guys. Chicks too if you got the time. Just sitting down to babble for a bit. Nothing too special .I just finished talking with Matt .I know I didn't ever come back from the last entry about him, so I never really got to say too much about what is going on with me in that situation. Matt is wonderful. He is kind, and generous, and caring, and he ( Read more... )

I haven't said much about what has exactly been going on with the guy I'm seeing right now. I didn't want to make him mad or anything by putting his name all over the place, so at this point I'll leave him anonymous, even though it's already everywhere else in my journal. lol. This is a diary, my only diary right now, come to think of it, and so ( Read more... )

Yeah, it's all good right now. I stayed up last night and had an amazing conversation with Matt and I am finally after all of these weeks coming to find myself in a balanced state again. This anger that has taken over me recently was really starting to fuck with my head, and I'm glad that things are starting to look clearer. Life has been subtly ( ( Read more... )

YOU LAID ME DOWN ( Read more... )

OMG. So I totally am feeling it, I got it, it's burning and Imma let it go now and Matt wants some too. So alright he's in, I let it out, he bystands, spots my wrecking ball crash into the walls of my gifts. He's going away after that one, that awful display, of excuse me, what the fuck was that exactly again? Someone remind me, cuz if that was my ( Read more... )

First of all, it doesn't matter HOW THE FUCK I SPELL SOME SHIT AS LONG AS YOU GET THE PICTURE. Second, what the fuck is the difference whether I am in the room or not, since NOBODY IS LISTENING ANYWAY ( Read more... )