this is utterly heartbreaking! I am still hoping they will find a way to be together. Michael is right though, Orlando needs to be honest about being gay to his close friends and family, it won't work if he can't.
The logical fear of being found out, risking his career was turning into a more innate panic at how to make it through the next hour, a day, how to go on as if nothing had ever happened when if felt as if his life had just stopped. His feelings had all been denied, his longings restrained and his hopes crushed by reality and fear. Never again would he be with Michael, never be held, kissed or made love to and the pain was almost too overwhelming to keep inside. The knowledge that he had hurt Michael, had let down the one person he most wanted to see happy was even more unbearable and made him fight just to keep the tears away. This part totally killed me. It's so real, the feeling that you'll never be able to function properly again. And though it's definitely Orli's fault this time I feel for him too
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If Orli's being a fame whore prick, I'll love you Michael,I'm not very feminine honest!!!!!!!!!
LOL. Right, well I'll mention that possibility to Michael but I'm not sure he'll buy the idea... Actually, he's crashing at IDLESLOTH's place at the moment so maybe she could tell him.
I didn't have the final chapter number listed before but unfortunately, no, it doesn't mean it's finished to any great extent and that I can post quicker :( Just means I now have a rough layout on a piece of paper telling me it should be 6 more chapters... Only, I have a sneaky feeling it could end up a bit more but for now I hope to stick to the planned length.
Thanks so much for this lovely, great comment - I'm glad to hear people don't blame Orli too much; or at least understand him... But I'm also glad that people stand on Michael's side as well (it really isn't easy for either of them... But I agree, it is very tough on Michael - bad timing indeed as he was just beginning to hope/believe/open up *sigh*.
There's been a lot of fics where the characters have to deal with the coming out problems, but this sounds so realistic, and that's why it moved me so much. There are no easy solutions, and the fact that Orlando realized fully the consequences of his coming out and decided that he couldn't do it makes me like him even more as a character, because he is honest with himself.
I'm glad you don't dislike Orlando after this - I really don't mean to make him the 'bad guy' or anything... Some things are just hard and don't have an easy solution.
Thanks so much for commenting... it makes me happy :)
Not sure why I've not read any of this before (maybe because it's OMC instead of Viggo) but I started it yesterday and couldn't stop until I was caught up.
I'm completely captivated. And more than that, I'm absolutely "gutted" with the state things are right now. Please update soon, and with something happier.
I love the way you make me see things from both their perspectives. I love the two of them.
Oh, nice to hear I have a new reader onboard :)and thank you very much for the positive feedback; I'm very glad you like.
And I know the OMC thing tends to scare people off - I understand most people have a favourite pairing which they primarily stick with. I'm a little strange - I don't really have a fav. It just HAS to have Orlando, then the other guy doesn't much matter to me!
Yeah, I like Orlando with quite a few other people, just have never gotten into original characters.
I saw your fic on a req journal, missread the header, and kind of started reading it by mistake. It took me about 3 chapters to realize Viggo wasn't going to be showing up anytime soon. But by then I was hooked by "not quite gay yet" Orlando. And in a couple more chapters I'd fallen for Michael too.
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The logical fear of being found out, risking his career was turning into a more innate panic at how to make it through the next hour, a day, how to go on as if nothing had ever happened when if felt as if his life had just stopped.
His feelings had all been denied, his longings restrained and his hopes crushed by reality and fear. Never again would he be with Michael, never be held, kissed or made love to and the pain was almost too overwhelming to keep inside. The knowledge that he had hurt Michael, had let down the one person he most wanted to see happy was even more unbearable and made him fight just to keep the tears away. This part totally killed me. It's so real, the feeling that you'll never be able to function properly again. And though it's definitely Orli's fault this time I feel for him too ( ... )
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LOL. Right, well I'll mention that possibility to Michael but I'm not sure he'll buy the idea... Actually, he's crashing at IDLESLOTH's place at the moment so maybe she could tell him.
I didn't have the final chapter number listed before but unfortunately, no, it doesn't mean it's finished to any great extent and that I can post quicker :( Just means I now have a rough layout on a piece of paper telling me it should be 6 more chapters... Only, I have a sneaky feeling it could end up a bit more but for now I hope to stick to the planned length.
Thanks so much for this lovely, great comment - I'm glad to hear people don't blame Orli too much; or at least understand him... But I'm also glad that people stand on Michael's side as well (it really isn't easy for either of them... But I agree, it is very tough on Michael - bad timing indeed as he was just beginning to hope/believe/open up *sigh*.
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I very much enjoyed the last two chapters!
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Thanks so much for commenting... it makes me happy :)
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I'm completely captivated. And more than that, I'm absolutely "gutted" with the state things are right now. Please update soon, and with something happier.
I love the way you make me see things from both their perspectives. I love the two of them.
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And I know the OMC thing tends to scare people off - I understand most people have a favourite pairing which they primarily stick with. I'm a little strange - I don't really have a fav. It just HAS to have Orlando, then the other guy doesn't much matter to me!
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I saw your fic on a req journal, missread the header, and kind of started reading it by mistake. It took me about 3 chapters to realize Viggo wasn't going to be showing up anytime soon. But by then I was hooked by "not quite gay yet" Orlando. And in a couple more chapters I'd fallen for Michael too.
I'm so glad I started reading!
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It took me about 3 chapters to realize Viggo wasn't going to be showing up anytime soon. But by then I was hooked by "not quite gay yet" Orlando
LOL, Not-Quite-Gay-Yet. And, no Viggo isn't showing up - though he sort of makes a few guest apperances in Orlando's thoughts :)
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