What have I done...

[tenshi_no_yoru]

I haven't eatten anything since Saturday afternoon. I've barely gotten 6-8 hours of sleep over the past few days. I've been crying every day. I just spent the last hour sobbing, yelling, and screaming into the pillow she used to sleep on. I've missed her more in the past few days than I've missed anyone or anything ever. I'd do anything if she

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[inkchou]

I don't really understand, I thought this was a mutual seperation? It seemed to me that you were handling it well in your last entry and that you both had decided to take a break. What happened that you two just can't get back together?

[tenshi_no_yoru]

I can see how one might not understand. I realized I had made a terrible mistake.

Like I said, she's apparently moved on and is trying to find what she has with this other guy. I don't really know why she won't take me back. She'll barely speak to me.

[tenshi_no_yoru]

To be more specific, I had spent a lot of time thinking about our relationship. I saw that I could spend a long time with her. Get our own place,maybe get married some day, maybe one day have kids. I guess the thought of something that permanent scared me and I panicked. So, I asked for the break up. Now, I really wish I had talked it through with her like my counselor suggested I do.