Drabble # 237
Title: One in a million
Chapter: [7/?]
Authors: gabs_yuuya and yamap_oukoku
Rating: PG-13 (still???? -_-“)
Pairing: Tegoshi Yuya / Yamashita Tomohisa, Tegoshi Yuya / Kwon Jiyong
Genre: AU, romance, fluff, angst
Disclaimer: We don't own the boys as you already know, but we can't help to dream about it ^^
Summary: Yamashita Tomohisa, aka Yamapi, is a well-known bachelor of Tokyo nights, but what makes him so well known? Well it's just the simple fact that no one ever managed to get a hold of this handsome and rich young man. The few ones that dared to say they managed to get into Yamashita`s bed, are just liars or never had a chance to make it happen a second time. The only thing he really want is to find his long missed one in a million.
[Chapter 01] [Chapter 02] [Chapter 03] [Chapter 04] [Chapter 05] [Chapter 06]
Tegoshi’s words were dire and cruel, and speaking them out loud somehow hurt Tegoshi just as much as Yamapi who had to hear them. Tegoshi just wanted Yamapi to disappear out of his life forever; he seriously didn’t want to see him again because the pain he felt inside his chest whenever he looked at him would never stop. All he wanted was to get through another day without those painful encounters, even though he couldn’t forget him completely, seeing Yamapi again and again was even more torturing.
Yamapi was left rendered speechless as he watched the two men walk away hand in hand, Tegoshi’s words hurt a lot but thinking that he had also lied about not remembering him was a shock on its own. He wasn’t sure of he should be happy about the fact he did remember him, or angrier that he fooled him.
Jiyong really had not the slightest idea what that scene was all about but Tegoshi’s troubled face, really bothered him. As they walked down the busy street Jiyong gave the blonde’s hand another tight squeeze and tried to ask “Do you want to...” but he was cut off by the older man, who squeezed his hand back slightly, sighing. “Don’t want to…talk about it.”
Jiyong brought his hand around Tegoshi’s waist to hold him closer, as they walked toward Jiyong’s car that was parked close by; he had offered him a ride home before picking him up again later to go out. Out of the blue the younger man whispered into Tegoshi’s direction, “I don’t want you to go home now, come with me.”
Tegoshi stopped at the spot and turned to Jiyong. Their eyes locked and Jiyong spoke with a deep voice, “I will take your mind off things that trouble you.”
“I need to change clothes before we go anywhere.”
Jiyong pulled Tegoshi closer, “You don’t need to be vain all the time because you look good in anything.”
The older man sighed, “But…” and was cut off short. “But if you really need to, there is still a lot of really hot clothing in my suitcase for you.” Jiyong smirked, knowing that Tegoshi was hard to talk into spontaneous things, he yet believed he always had a pretty good chance of making Tegoshi accept his offers for what reason ever, he didn’t need to know really all that counted was that he had Tegoshi all over him soon.
“Ok…” Tegoshi agreed with a weak smile on his lips. He really didn’t want to go home right now, being alone would make things only worse and thinking about Jiyong taking his mind off things was pretty inviting actually.
“No pressure, just fun!” Jiyong said brightly as he wrapped his arm around Tegoshi properly again and nudge him to get moving. Having that cheerful guy beside him brought a brighter smile on his face as they walked side by side. At first Tegoshi didn’t want to Jiyong to be so caring and he didn’t want to be held close, because they weren’t going to be a couple or anything, yet he couldn’t fight back cause it felt so good to be so close to someone and Jiyong definitely seemed to know what his body wanted. Tegoshi felt like screaming at his stupid feelings that again were running wild like on a roller coaster; instead he kept silent and tried to clear his mind.
When they stopped at a crossing, Tegoshi turned to Jiyong and smiled as he watched him staring at the light’s waiting for them to change. Jiyong turned around and asked half-assed, “What?” raising a brow questioningly. Tegoshi just smirked and leaned in to press his lips against the other’s face, just below his ear. He whispered against Jiyong’s skin as he withdrew quickly, “Get ready for tonight, we’re gonna have a lot of fun.” The older man smirked and licked his lips, and watched the surprised look on Jiyong’s face bemused, before joining the crowd that already started walking past the road.
No matter how rough things seemed to go, at least he had something and someone to bring him some more exciting times in the end and he really looked forward to tonight.
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Sitting in Jiyong’s car Tegoshi waited for the younger man come back from the conbini, they had just halted in front of to get some drinks. The radio started to play a familiar melody of a song that used to be famous a few years ago, mostly in the UK and Europe though but he had been aware of most pop songs from around the world, and Japanese radio stations liked to play old strange songs like that.
“That's what I go to school for, even though it is a real bore.”
Listening to the lines of the chorus sent shivers down his spine. He wasn’t the best in English yet he knew the lyrics weren’t literally transferable since he had never been in love with his teacher, but alone that single sentence made him remember what used to be the reason for him to go to school.
Tegoshi remembered the times when he would sneak out of class to find Yamapi, who most of the times was daydreaming over a boring book, or pretending to work for the students council when he had actually been waiting for Tegoshi to ‘pick him up’ earlier. Sometimes he had also offered to help out at the student’s council office so he could carry paper for his boyfriend, staple boring reports and do a lot of annoying copies, and all just because they wanted to be together.
Tegoshi shook his head annoyed, hoping Jiyong would come back and make him forget about those things faster. His earlier excited smile had faded and looked rather dim and forced when Jiyong finally opened the door, handing Tegoshi a couple of plastic bags.
“You ok?” he asked worried once he noticed the other’s discomfort.
Tegoshi nodded and opened one of the bags curiously sticking his nose inside to see if Jiyong had brought him mitarashi dango. He sighed when he found nothing but alcoholic drinks, chips and some gum. Jiyong watched him curiously and asked “What is it?” once their eyes met and Tegoshi let out another sigh.
“No dango.”
The older man pointed out, the sound in Tegoshi’s voice almost accusingly, and took a canned drink out of the bag, opening it with a loud click.
Jiyong raised an eyebrow, “I’m sorry, I guess… You didn’t tell me you liked them.” and took one of the drinks himself, his gaze still fixated on the blonde. “But if you want I can go back and get you some.”
Tegoshi shook his head and smiled, “No need, I just felt like eating it but I’m fine without. We are almost there anyways.”
Jiyong gave him a puzzled look, “but it’s just a minute and I’ll be back with your dango, if that’s what you want.”
Tegoshi leaned forward, their eyes locked on each other, “I don’t want it anymore.” He almost whispered, and he placed his hand on Jiyong’s shoulder, “Let’s go.”
The younger man nodded and started the engine. He had been aware of Tegoshi’s mood swings and sometimes strange behavior, which mostly didn’t bother him and his little quirks were pretty cute, but nevertheless it made him feel like there was something big that Tegoshi was hiding from him and it didn’t feel so good at all.
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It was already starting to get dark as Yamapi roamed the empty corridors of his old high school. He hurried down the halls, passing his old biology lab and Tegoshi’s classroom on the way to the GYM. He could never forget the times he had been staring through the windows of that classroom, watching the younger boy for hours if you’d count it all together. Even though he didn’t want to be stuck in school again he still wished for the times to come back to him that he could just stand here and watch his best friend and boyfriend all morning.
Yamapi let out a deep sigh as he kept walking, he didn’t want to ever forget those days even though they seemed more painful to remember as time passed and he realized everything he had, they had, were simply gone and won’t return, ever.
Soon he found the place he had been looking for, and let himself sink down on the top of the school building. The open roof used to be some sort of ‘save zone’ back when he attended school and he kept on coming here after he graduated. Everything still seemed to have done its trick most of the days he needed a break, it always lifted his mood, even after Tegoshi was gone - the beautiful night scenery was simply captivating even now. Although right now it really didn’t help much, the shock that still lingered in his bones was simply too big today.
The young business man looked up into the dark sky and thought about his encounter with Tegoshi, and how much that weird red-haired freak pissed him off.
“How dare he touching my Yuya?”
Yamapi couldn’t believe Tegoshi had seriously been out on a coffee date with such snobby guy and even touched in front of his eyes.
“I bet it was that little slut that messed with his head. If I see him again I am going to crush every single bone of his skinny ass. “
Nevertheless he should be a bit more positive right now, since Tegoshi seemed to know who he was and remembered probably everything. He tried to ignore the fact that he had played him dirty but he made Jiyong responsible for his strange behavior.
“He still remembers….right, I have to give everything I have to straighten his mind again and show him that I still love him…”
He still loved him with all his heart and wanted to show him just how important he still was to him, how much he missed him and tell him how every night when he went to bed his mind was still filled with images of him and he wouldn’t ever be able to get rid of it - he didn’t want to get rid of it.
But….maybe he was wishing for too much, maybe Tegoshi had already decided to never speak to him again for sure, and maybe he really needed some kind of miracle to happen right now to change his mind.
Speaking of positive thinking and miracles, when Yamapi looked up into the almost black sky he saw a bright shooting star fall down to earth. He closed his eyes quickly and wished for something, since stars are normally not being able to be seen in Tokyo seeing a shooting star almost never ever happened either, therefore he felt this was special and he liked to think this must mean something, somehow.
The rooftop itself brought back a lot of memories, especially strong in his mind lingered the first time he had shown Tegoshi their new hideout. He had tried to get his hands on the keys to the rooftop for a long time before it actually worked, and how he did it was supposed to stay a secret because he really wasn’t allowed to open these doors.
[Flash back]
Yamapi walked through the long school corridors, carrying a bunch of papers his teacher had asked him to copy, when he saw a familiar class room. It wasn’t like he didn’t know he would pass here; he took a longer path just to pass by this particular classroom. A smile came to his lips when he looked through the class’ windows and spotted the black haired boy he wanted to see sitting at the other end of the room next to the window through which the playground could be seen.
“Yu-chan…” Yamapi whispered when he saw him sitting there looking into the sky outside, not paying attention to the teacher. He knew it wasn’t like Tegoshi was a bad student he just got bored really fast.
Yamapi stood there for a while just watching the distracted boy when suddenly Tegoshi turned around and their eyes met, making Yamapi blush because he got caught. He quickly replied Tegoshi’s wide smile with one of his own and nodded lightly at him before he continued to walk away slowly. Yamapi had to use all of his strength to not rush inside the class and grab Tegoshi and drive him into the corner to kiss him senseless. Of course he couldn’t do that, which made him sigh and shake his head. No one knew that they were actually dating, and for their own safety it should stay that way.
It was good that they managed to keep their relationship a secret until now, and sneaking around the school and home somehow had its appeal. Maybe it was the fear of getting caught that made their get together even more fun.
Tegoshi was the best in secretly sneaking around and Yamapi liked it a bit more impulsive, he would just pull Tegoshi into an empty classroom or lab and lock the door behind them. Tegoshi preferred to come up with interesting plans to get them a quiet place somewhere in the school.
---
“Did you see that last shot I did in the game?” a short brown haired boy said proudly, “The ball hit the perfect spot and the goalkeeper didn’t even see when the ball was in! Just like I had planned it to happen”
“Yeah right! If you had planned that you wouldn’t have stood there like a baka not believing you scored the goal.” Tegoshi said poking his friend by his chest.
“Hey I did not Tegoshi!” said the short boy annoyed.
“Oh Yeah you did! We had to punch you a few times to make you wake up…” a taller boy said with a grin while Tegoshi was faking giving his friend cheeks some slaps, and the entire group end up laughing.
“That was awesome Tegoshi, only you can make us laugh like this…” The taller boy said still trying to manage to stop laughing.
“I must be lucky, he won’t be make fun of me for long…” the short guy said annoyed but with a grin coming to his lips.
“Hey don’t say it like that; I wasn’t making fun of you I was just telling the truth!” Tegoshi said with his best innocent face “But why you sound like I would be going somewhere? I’m not going anywhere right now…” Tegoshi asked lifting an eyebrow to the shorter boy.
“Oh yeah you’re …” he said back pointing to the corridor behind him making all the boys turn so they could see a tall, handsome dark haired boy walking toward them, which made Tegoshi’s heart skip a beat when he recognized his friend and he had to try really hard to hide the smile that wanted to come to his lips.
“Uwahh… your Yamashita-kun is here…”
The taller boy said with a playful tone poking Tegoshi sides.
“Like always ne?” another boy said poking Tegoshi as well.
“Such a sweet couple right?” another boy added trying to poke Tegoshi as well, “Never missing to have lunch together...”
“Hey stop that!” Tegoshi shouted while trying to get away from his friends “You know he’s my friend and I will punch any of you that continues to make fun of it!” He said with a glare what made the boys stop because they know Tegoshi meant it.
“Hey Yu-chan!” Yamapi said when he reached the group smiling to the only one he was really paying attention to, but after a short while he turned to the others, “Hey there guys how was the game?”
“It was fine!”
“Yeah we won.”
“Oh that’s nice! Congratulations guys!” Yamapi said trying to pay attention to the other boys, but he didn’t manage for long and his gaze drifted back quickly to Tegoshi.
“Ne Yu-chan, are you ready? I want to show you something…” Yamapi asked hopefully to the younger boy while rubbing the back of his head.
“Nhowwww…” The others boys squealed playfully getting another glare from Tegoshi and a curious look from Yamapi who didn’t understand what had happened.
“Just ignore them Pi… they’re being baka like always… Let’s go.”
Tegoshi stepped closer to Yamapi and motioned for him to get going.
“If you say so…” Yamapi said while ruffling Tegoshi’s hair, which earned them another squeal from the group of boys.
“See you around, guys!”
Yamapi said and walked away next to Tegoshi.
“Bye bye Yamashita-kun!” The boys shouted in girly voices.
“What was that?”
Yamapi asked after they were further from the group.
“Nothing, they were just making fun of me… well about you and me.”
Tegoshi didn’t really care about it, but Yamapi seemed to be more curious now to know what their deal was.
“Really? Did I do something?” Yamapi asked worried. “Do you think they know?”
“No they don’t know anything; you just gave them something to play with when you said you wanted to show me something like that…” Tegoshi eyed his boyfriend, “It would have been better if you had said that we were going to miss lunch time or something, if you wanted an excuse to be alone with me…” Tegoshi winked to the taller boy.
“B…but I really want to show you something…”
“Really? It wasn’t just an excuse to leave?”
Yamapi blushed slightly and Tegoshi got excited.
“Yeah I have something you will really like…”
Yamapi shoved his hands into his pockets, looking for something. He found it and handed the small item to Tegoshi.
“Ah key? Really, Yamapi?” Tegoshi gave his boyfriend a questioning look, “Why I would want a key?”
“Hey! You should ask me which door this key opens, silly…” Yamapi said with a wicked smile.
“Eh… ok then, where can we go with this key?”
Tegoshi wondered which door in the school would be worth going through that they couldn’t without a key. They stopped walking for moment and Yamapi gazed at the younger boy, “I’m not saying though..”
“Hey ~ That’s unfair Pi!”
Tegoshi pouted sweetly but slightly annoyed when Yamapi stuck out his tongue and dragged him along down the crowded school yard.
“But I’ll show you…” Yamapi pulled Tegoshi by his hand, “Come on!” and they soon walked through the rather empty school halls and up the stairs, making Tegoshi wonder where the hell he would be led to. When they stood in front of the only door that could be seen up the highest level Tegoshi asked excited;
“The …school roof???”
He always wanted to go up there just to look down and see how the school looks from a higher place but lately he also came to think it would be the loveliest place to alone with Yamapi.
“But…Pi, no one can go to the roof!?” Tegoshi suddenly remembered that it had been forbidden for all students to set a foot on the school roof since there had been an accident a long time ago, so he was told.
“Just how the hell did you get that key?”
Tegoshi asked watching Yamapi unlock the door with a smirk on his lips.
“Well I found out that being the president of the school council makes it easy for me to use that key, just don’t ask me why or how, but I can have it.”
Seeing Tegoshi that excited made it even more excited for him as well.
“Uwahhh..awesome!!!…”
Tegoshi shouted when they stepped outside, the school wasn’t a tall building but the place where they were now was the tallest around and the boys had an amazing view of all the surroundings. They could even see parts of downtown close by, tall buildings and countless cars rushing through the streets of Tokyo.
“Look Yamapi, we can even see Tokyo Tower!”
Tegoshi shouted exited pointing to little red and white spot in the horizon.
“Does that mean you like it?”
Yamapi asked with a shy smile, and when the other boy turned around and their eyes locked, Tegoshi instantly jumped into his arms, kissing him sweetly. When he broke their lip lock he grinned to his flushed boyfriend.
“Was that good enough to show you how much I like it?”
Tegoshi snaked his arms around Yamapi’s neck and locked his fingers behind it.
“Hmmm…..maybe…” Yamapi brought his hands around Tegoshi’s waist to pull the younger boy closer, “But I would like if you showed me a little more, you know?” Yamapi grinned, “It wasn’t bad but not quite enough.”
“You’re overly greedy today don’t you think?”
The younger boy bent forward and playfully nipped at Yamapi’s lower lip.
“It isn’t my fault...” The older boy whispered against Tegoshi’s lips, “I’ve been without you the entire morning, that’s not easy you know…”
Yamapi’s words made Tegoshi blush lightly and chuckle as he withdrew his head to gaze into the other’s eyes dreamily.
“The entire morning?” Tegoshi gave his boyfriend a pitiful pouty smile, “Mouu my poor Yamapi…” he then dipped his head towards Yamapi again to place little kisses against the soft skin of his cheeks and down the side of his neck.
“Desho? When I saw you this morning in your class I wanted to instantly drag you out of that room!” Yamapi said as he traveled his hands gently up and down Tegoshi’s back.
“That would have been so subtle of you Yamapi; I bet no one would have noticed…” Tegoshi chuckled while he loosened the tie of Yamapi’s uniform, and soon the young boy let his lips travel down the new exposed skin, savoring the sweet taste of his boyfriend’s collarbones.
“I promise I will make up for all the times we didn’t kiss before.” Tegoshi said with a naughty smile as he looked back up into his boyfriend’s eyes before he pulled Yamapi closer again by his loose tie. Their lips touched gently but soon the kiss grew deeper and deeper and right then they heard the loud noise of the school’s bell, telling the students that lunch break was over.
“Dam… always that awful timing…” Yamapi cursed annoyed.
“Yeah I know…” Tegoshi reached down to fix Yamapi’s tie, “What classes you have later?”
“I think physics, history and finally PE in the gym, why?”
“No reason … I just want to know where my boyfriend will be today.”
Tegoshi whispered before giving Yamapi a chaste peck on the lips, “Lest go I don’t want to be late for literature, you know my teacher really sucks.”
Yamapi followed his boyfriend down the stairs, “I know you have something on your bratty mind, Tego-chan…”
“You will have to wait to find out if I do or not…” Tegoshi turned around and grinned at Yamapi before rushing down the other side of the hallway, “See you later handsome!”
“I bet I will find out.” Yamapi whispered, smiling to himself while he kept on walking slowly, not really wanting to go back to class.
---
Yamapi gave all he got in the last half hour of his class. They were doing a high jumping contest, and the young boy didn’t have any interest in it whatsoever. He had just managed to successfully jump over the slim bar one more time and hit the soft mattress underneath with his feet when he suddenly noticed someone standing against the back wall of the gym. First he thought he was seeing things but he wouldn’t mistake that grin or that messy black hair.
“T…Tegoshi? What…” Yamapi whispered, shocked to see him there when he should be at class right now. What he was doing in the GYM?
“Yamashita!” The teacher shouted getting Yamapi’s attention back, “Get moving already so we can keep the class going! And get back in line, boy!”
Yamapi rushed back and when he was lining up again behind his classmates, he looked back at the same spot he just had seen his boyfriend, but the place now was as empty as it should be.
“What the …”
Yamapi cursed under his breath. Had he just imagined seeing Tegoshi there? He looked around the GYM but far and wide there was no sign of the younger boy.
“Yamashita!”
The professor shouted again until he Yamapi noticed he was talking to him
“What’s wrong with you today boy? Stop daydreaming during my class and jump already!”
“I’m sorry!”
Yamapi apologized quickly and rushed down the line to do as he was told to but in the middle of the run he was distracted when he saw another glimpse of the same messy hair walking through the door of the locker room, which made Yamapi even forget to actually jump and instead he crashed against the bar he was supposed to leap over.
The entire room was silent even though was a really funny scene to watch, but all the boys in the GYM were shocked to see Yamapi fail like that, because he never failed in anything before.
“What the hell got into you today?” The professor smacked Yamapi’s head, “If you have time to daydream during my class I will let you continue as much as you want after class. You can try cleaning the GYM, and the longer you decide to fool around the longer you will stay! Now go and sit down onto the bench, I can’t have you messing around with my class any longer!”
Yamapi sighed; this had been the first time he was told to cut the class. The young boy sat there as he was told to, waiting for the class to end.
“Ok, boy’s good job, that’s it for today!” The professor shouted towards the rest of the class once it was over, allowing everyone to leave. “Yamashita!” The older man motioned for Yamapi to come toward him.
“Yes Professor!?” Yamapi said with a sad tone he just wanted to go home with the others and meet Tegoshi in front of the school so they could walk home together.
“Yamashita I never thought I would have to give you detention but you were awfully distracted today…” He patted the boy’s shoulder “I really hope it won’t happen again.”
“It won’t, Professor, I promise.” Yamapi said with a serious tone promising to himself, to try not to get this distracted over just the thought that Tegoshi was near.
“Good, well lucky for you, one of the juniors in one of my classes got himself into detention as well, so he will be helping you now.” The man looked around looking for the said junior, “He should be by the lockers. As I will leave now I’ll tell him to come inside and help you here.”
“Ok, I will start then…” Yamapi bowed as the Professor turned around and left.
“Great….now I have to spend my time with an annoying junior instead of Tegoshi…”
Yamapi let out a deep sigh as he started to pick up the bars and balls they used during class. After a while of cleaning up by himself he saw the Professor and his classmates leave the locker rooms but said junior hadn’t shown up at all and Yamapi was almost close to finished.
“Nice, it looks like I will have to finish the entire job alone then…” Yamapi said annoyed while he carried away some of the things and put them away in a closet at the back of the GYM hall.
Not long after he tidied away the balls he heard footsteps coming his way from behind, ‘Finally’ Yamapi thought.
“Tsk tsk tsk…. Such a bad boy getting detention like this…”
Yamapi noticed the familiar voice coming from behind, and he grinned to himself.
“Don’t you know that it is really bad to be distracted during class Yamashita-sempai?”
Yamapi could even recognize the smirk on the boy’s lips, and he saw he wasn’t wrong when he turned around to the watch the grinning boy that stood behind him with his arms placed against his hips.
“And you are the naughty junior that got himself into detention?”
Yamapi chuckled when his eyes locked with the younger boy.
“Yup, that’s me, Yamashita-sempai, the one and only Yuya Tegoshi at your service.”
Tegoshi bowed slowly like he saw magicians do on the TV.
“How? Why? And when?” Yamapi asked at the same time not knowing what he really wanted to know first.
“Ah it’s a long story, but you know strangely some of the balls I shot today during class decided to hit our dear teacher’s large old butt instead of the goal….and the old man thought I was doing it on purpose… why would I do something like that?”
Tegoshi smirked and gave Yamapi his angel like smile, which didn’t convince his boyfriend at all.
“Indeed... Why on earth would you do that for?” Yamapi said fully amused by his boyfriend.
“You know I wouldn’t do something like that even if I knew my boyfriend would have his last class here…” Tegoshi said with a low sexy tone in his voice as he stepped closer to Yamapi, “I wouldn’t do that even if I had known I would be in charge of the GYM key because this afternoon most of the teachers will be stuck in a long, very long meeting, right?”
Tegoshi was so close that they could feel each other’s warm breath against their skin, “Why would I do something as crazy as that?”
The young boy then pushed Yamapi over the soft mattress he had carried there a few moments ago. Yamapi was startled at first but then a grin came to his lips when he saw Tegoshi move closer to hover over him, grinning back.
“So I think you’re stuck here with me for a while now…” Tegoshi said while bending down to brush his lips against the warm skin of Yamapi’s neck.
“I guess I am...” Yamapi smiled, enjoying the sensation of Tegoshi’s damp lips sucking at his skin, “But how did you know I would get into detention as well?” the older boy asked curiously.
“I didn’t.” Tegoshi sat down comfortably on Yamapi’s lap and looked at him cheekily,
“I just thought I would have to grab you before you leave the locker room.”
They both chuckled and Tegoshi brought his hand up to cup Yamapi’s cheek, “I think I was lucky that you were overly distracted today…” he then bent down to nibble at the corner of Yamapi’s mouth.
“And whose fault do you think this was?” Yamapi let out a whimpering sound as Tegoshi’s other hand found its way underneath his white sports shirt. “I kept seeing glimpses of that messy hair of yours walking around the hallway, how can I not get distracted?”
“Hey my hair isn’t messy!”
Tegoshi moved back to glare at his boyfriend.
“No it’s not… it’s always sweetly styled in that bed hairstyle you seem to love!” Yamapi mocked but when he saw that Tegoshi was about to snap back at him, he pulled him down and kissed the younger boy’s slightly parted lips in a smooth manner.
“Hey don’t think you can get away that easily…” Tegoshi whispered against Yamapi’s lips.
“I think I can!” the older boy murmured, swiping his tongue across Tegoshi’s damp lips before capturing his mouth in a deeper kiss, playfully biting and sucking at each other’s lips. In his mind Yamapi felt the boy’s happiness as he held him close, his hands traveling up the other’s chest.
The younger boy moved his lips against Yamapi’s longingly, his hands cupping his cheeks tightly. Tegoshi felt his mouth open with a soft moan as Yamapi tasted him with his tongue, passion and desire made his skin burn to his touch.
"I love you, Yuya"
Yamapi breathed raggedly when they finally broke apart.
[/Flash back]
“Back then you would say you loved me back, right Yuya?” Yamapi whispered into the dark sky, “You truly loved me back then, we loved each other with all our hearts… but now you just…you just…”
Yamapi couldn’t say the words out loud, because it felt like if he did they would become stronger and he hated the fact that he couldn’t change anything about it.
“I just…I just want to know why…You know who I’m, you remember me, yet you treat me like I’m a stranger…”
Yamapi sighed as he braced himself up from the spot he sat for almost an hour, knowing that if he would keep sitting around he would end up with another hundreds of questions that wouldn’t let him sleep at all tonight.
“Yosh!” he shook his head and looked up into the night one last time before turning around. “This isn’t the time to waste with thinking like an idiot here! I’m not going to give up, do you hear me!? No skinny red punk is going to take you away from me!”
---
Roughly ten minutes after they drove off from the conbini, Jiyong found an empty spot at a car park close to the club and they started walking toward their desired destination.
“I thought we would get here too early but it seems it is already really busy, ne?”
Jiyong looked around the area in amazement once they reached the small dark club.
“Yeah it seems strangely crowded… ”
Tegoshi said as he eyed the crowd, that moved toward the building, curiously.
“I wonder how it will be inside…” Tegoshi turned to Jiyong who walked a few steps behind him. “Do we need to buy the tickets?” he asked as he turned to a group of young people that passed by; they looked like they were bursting with excitement for the party.
When Jiyong didn’t reply Tegoshi turned back glaring at the younger man, straightening his tight shirt.
“Hey, are you listening?”
“Sorry… I am.” Jiyong smirked, “And no, we don't need to buy tickets because I already got us some.”
Jiyong waved a pair of tickets at the older man before running his fingers through his copper hair and fixing his big sunglasses over his head.
“Good, but why did it take you so long to answer?”
Tegoshi asked slightly irritated and walked towards the younger man, fumbling with the silver necklace around his neck, playing with the small half moon pendant unconsciously.
“Guess you caught me thinking that you really rock my clothes, even though I’m slightly taller than you.” An ‘I’m-up-to-no-good’ smile sneaked up on Jiyong’s lips as he observed the man in front of him with hungry eyes.
“You said I look good in anything,” Tegoshi smiled amused, “I guess you weren’t lying …”
The young man observed his reflection in the window of a ramen shop and smirked sexily, he found himself damn good looking in Jiyong’s clothes, with his blond strands of smooth hair almost entirely covered by the hood of a fitting blue sleeveless shirt and his bum squeezed into a pair of stylish tight dark jeans. It wasn’t anything really special nor designer clothes, but he felt really good in them.
"You don’t look so bad yourself you know?"
Tegoshi turned to face Jiyong and grinned widely. He liked the silken black and pink shirt that Jiyong wore, half buttoned to show off his well defined collar bones. ‘Those clothes love to tease just like their owner...’ Tegoshi thought.
Jiyong grinned and pulled Tegoshi closer by his waist, “You should rather say that I look totally hot."
His words made Tegoshi chuckle and he stuck out his tongue childishly. Jiyong started to feel more and more exited seeing Tegoshi fooling around and so he didn’t lose much time reach out for the older man and pulled him into a heated kiss, their lips and tongues moving against each other’s passionately.
"Let's go pretty boy" Tegoshi said when they broke apart, "We have got a party to attend!" He smiled and pulled Jiyong along down the road by his hand.
As they stepped inside the dark club they noticed how wrong they were, this place wasn’t just busy, it resembled Shibuya Station during rush hour, almost. Tegoshi had been to a couple of raves and he knew they usually were big, but he hadn’t been expecting for Jiyong to bring him to one of those really crowded ones.
"Black Sheep?"
Tegoshi turned around curiously as they just passed a few stickers and signs with the name of the club; mainly it was about a small black cartoon sheep in sunglasses, holding a sign with the club's name.
"I guess most of those crazy people that come to this place are some sort of black sheep, right??"
Jiyong walked as close to Tegoshi as he could manage, holding on to his arm as they got closer into the busy inside of the venue.
“I’m not crazy!"
The older man pouted slightly, turning to lock his gaze with Jiyong.
"Oh babe, if you're not crazy yet, I will make you go insane tonight!"
Jiyong grinned down at Tegoshi while he gave his butt a squeeze, making the older man yelp. Tegoshi could feel his blood race unevenly and his body started to move as soon as they were dragged along by the jumping crowd, the music intense and mind blowing loud. All the dancing, the music and the drinks made it hard for him to think about anything at all, which was nice for a change and he didn’t even mind all the colorful drinks Jiyong passed him right from the start.
Probably neither of them had the slightest idea what the content of any of these drinks were but since they seemed to be strong by how they made their throats burn it did not really matter. Like that the night started off very nice and just like they had imagined, more or less. After a few more drinks Tegoshi let his head drift off into a state of bliss where nothing really happened or mattered, with his mind working too fast to process his surroundings properly.
Tegoshi thought he was getting really wasted but he didn’t mind, he only wanted to let go of everything that bothered him recently a.k.a. the man called Yamashita Tomohisa, who kept occupying his mind over and over again. He couldn’t help but wonder how he managed to find him. He was sure that someone had opened their big mouth, but he wondered who, since he had just moved here not many people actually knew anything about him. Tegoshi sighed, why can’t people just mind their own fucking business?
Why did Yamapi keep coming after him now?
A part of his heart wanted to feel happy that the older man found him, or that he had found Yamapi, or however you want to put it. Nevertheless it was too late now, and he mostly just felt angry and desperate to find peace of his mind.
“Fuck it!” Tegoshi cursed out loud, not that it could be heard with all the loud music blasting through the speakers around them, nevertheless Jiyong noticed the angered look on his face. Worried as he always was he mouthed him an, ‘You ok?’ and Tegoshi in reply only shook his head and pulled at Jiyong’s silken shirt to capture his lips in a forceful and almost desperate kiss. But neither of them minded and soon their lips and tongues moved against each other’s in countless deep and utterly sweet, slow and passion filled kisses.
Tegoshi had come to this party for just one reason, and that was not to have his mind occupied with Yamapi once more, and there was no better way to do so then fill up his mind with Jiyong.
With Jiyong’s slim but always strong arms wrapped around his waist and pulled close to his amazing body, he always made Tegoshi feel so many sensations at the same time. Only he could make him feel secure, wanted and actually made him want someone else madly and somehow desperately. He felt l like he couldn’t ever let go and escape from his hold, and not that he actually minded or wanted, for it just felt to incredibly good.
It felt too good how their bodies moved against each other’s, with their lips locked and their hands and legs entangled in a sweet mess that promised to get even sweeter and messier as time ticked away and the music filled their ears.
What he wanted and needed right now was to feel the younger man’s hands travel up and down his arms, and sneak under his shirt to caress his back and front shamelessly. Everything that he could feel and register right now made Tegoshi’s knees tremble, his heart shake and his skin burn with each and every touch.
He couldn’t get enough of Jiyong’s soft lips; the natural sweet taste was simply addicting and reminded Tegoshi just how dangerous it was to be with Jiyong, he always completely lost himself in him. This sweet and passionate boy had something that made Tegoshi feel addicted to, something that was crazy, mysterious and too delicious to be true.
When they finally broke apart Tegoshi placed his arms around Jiyong neck, “Is this your way to make me go crazy?” he asked breathlessly against Jiyong’s ear.
“Is it working?” The younger man almost shouted back against Tegoshi to win the fight against the loud music that surrounded them.
Tegoshi grinned, “I think it is a nice start!” he replied before he brought his lips toward Jiyong’s ear, and nibbled at the sensitive lobe, electing a soft moan from his lover. The younger man buried his face in Tegoshi’s shoulder, kissing his shoulder blade softly, with his greedy hands traveling down the older man’s side and around his back before Jiyong let them slip into the back pockets of Tegoshi tight pants. They moved together without caring about the pace or if they were following the music that was still blasting through the club speakers.
Tegoshi ‘s hands locked behind Jiyong’s neck once more, and he covered the other’s flawless skin with sweet and damp kissed, licking down his jaw line and up again to meet those delicious lips all over again, kissing him heatedly with lips licking and sucking.
Tegoshi was getting hot, too hot and the same spoke for Jiyong. Their lower parts started to ache, filled with pressure their needs painfully throbbed against the tight clothing. Jiyong withdrew his hands and head, “I’m going to find the bathroom, and when I am back maybe we can find a spot more comfortable for us as well.” He winked and Tegoshi nodded eagerly and soon found himself dancing alone and sipping on a drink that appeared out of nowhere; maybe Jiyong had given it to him but he didn’t really remember.
Suddenly the entire club fell in a deathly silence and the lights went out in a blink, when people started to think a black out hit them a computer-like almost electronic sounding voice came through the speakers, singing familiar lines of an old song everyone seemed to recognize from the start.
“How do I ever… ever survive?”
“What the fuck?” Tegoshi cursed out loud, when the fast beats of the electronic music reached the speakers once again and again. Tegoshi decided to ignore it, but somehow the English lines managed to bury themselves into his blurry mind.
“Baby I don't know what I would do, I'd be lost if I lost you….If you ever leave baby,~
You would take away everything real in my life”
“Heee…seriously, what the fuck is this? How can they turn such a mushy song into a dance tune?”
Tegoshi’s annoyance level quickly rose to a new high, because he really hated cheesy songs like this, and especially if it was sung in English but he actually managed to understand some parts of it, at least the most important lines he thought. He wasn’t all too happy about it because it just made his stomach feel sick, really sick.
“Without you…there'd be no sun in my sky, there would be no love in my life, there would be no world left for me”
“No, no, stop this fucking song already!”
Tegoshi shouted but no one could hear his angry voice, he was being overtrumped and the rest of the club fell into a mess of people jumping and dancing and singing along like before.
“If you ever leave, baby you would take away everything,
Need you with me baby, ‘coz you know that you're everything good in my life”
“Son of a bitch!!” Tegoshi cursed and started to walk fast through the club, trying to find someplace safe, some spot where he wouldn’t hear this song anymore. “This DJ should be fucking shot!”
“And tell me now, how do I live without you, I want to know.”
Tegoshi used to really like love songs, and he used to write them when he was young, but now he couldn’t bear to listen to one, it filled his heart with so much anger he was afraid it would rip it apart.
Tegoshi walked around the building, trying to find someplace safe from those lines, which seemed as if they were haunting him wherever he walked. He could feel the tears forming in his eyes; tears he didn’t want to share because he knew the feelings those would bring.
“How do I breathe without you, if you ever go.
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, How do I..”
Oh how Tegoshi hated those lines, he hated them with his entire heart because they were so true, and he knew it. He had asked himself those same lines during the darkest days of his life, over and over but it was no use at all. Blindly Tegoshi managed to find stairs that lead to the roof of the club, and he simply followed them as far as they would lead him.
“Oh how do I live, how do I live without you~
How do I live without you baby”
The lines managed to follow him as he stepped onto the empty roof, and being hit instantly by the cold night wind only made his tears run down fast. Tegoshi closed the door harshly behind him and let his body crash against the wall, slowly dropping down onto his knees. The shut door tuned down the volume of the music, but it hardly even matter anymore because the feelings Tegoshi wanted to hold back were slowly but surely drowning him in that familiar pool of misery again.
The horrible feeling of being left alone when you most wanted, when you most needed someone to hold on to were things Tegoshi would never forget. He never wished to feel hopeless and alone and right now, without understanding the one and only thing Tegoshi wanted most, was to have back his old and safe life.
His life when he was young, carefree and with Yamapi, his life when he would always have a strong shoulder to cry on.
“Why did you have to be gone in the first place?” Tegoshi sobbed hard into his wrists, “You know, I was waiting for you! You .. you.. son of a bitch! Yamashita jerk Tomohisa I waited for you!” Tegoshi shouted into the dark sky, not caring if someone would hear him or understanding why he did so.
Not that he was back, it hurt so much. His heart was badly wounded after being abandoned by the person, who showed him what love, was until he took everything from him in one single night.
“How do I live? Now, tell me how do I fucking live right now?”
Tegoshi sobbed once more, his voice half cracking and tired. The young man rubbed his wet cheeks with the back of his hand, drying his reddened skin carefully as he looked up into the starless sky.
“I don’t have the slightest idea, damnit!”
Tegoshi shouted as he hit the cold floor with his fist, pain struck his joints and he yelped out breathlessly sobbing into his hands again. Once more he lifted his head and looked into the dark night, wishing he could see the stars like he used to sometimes when he was a kid, but he knew that you couldn’t see stars in Tokyo.
“You, up there! Yes you….” Tegoshi whispered because he felt too tired to actually raise his voice once more, “…If you want something from me, give me an answer at least! How the goddamn fuck am I supposed to live on in this shit what you call life? Everything is a fucking mess and you don’t give a shit, right?” Tegoshi kept staring into the sky, searching for something but all he saw was blackened darkness surrounding him. He then let out a low chuckle at his silliness, knowing the one who was the problem was he himself, he should get a grip and get his life together somehow.
“What I’m doing?” Tegoshi shook his head in disbelief, and slightly in anger that those promising drinks weren’t actually keeping him drunk. When he about to get up and turnaround he gave the heavens a quick last glance and he saw flashing light in the far corner of his eye. He fully turned to see the bright flash of light cut through the dark sky.
“A …shooting star?” Tegoshi asked “You must be kidding me right…” But even if on the outside Tegoshi looked like he didn’t believe in this kind of stuff, deep inside his heart he was wishing this star would help him to change things in his life from now own.
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Tegoshi slowly made his way down the stairs of the filled night club, drying his stinging eyes with the back of his hands, yet he knew it would show that he had cried and but he couldn’t care less. All he wanted right now was to leave and go home; he wasn’t in the mood for any party anymore. He suddenly remembered Jiyong and how he must be still somewhere around here, or so he thought but it was hard to find him right now, with all these people still jumping around like mad.
Tegoshi tried to look around for a moment but quickly gave up because he couldn’t really focus and thought the younger would probably have found someone else to take his place tonight. Tegoshi sighed as he passed a couple of strange looking guys that tried to talk to him but he ignored them kindly and almost made it through the exit when suddenly a pair of strong hands stopped him by his shoulders. Tegoshi turned around displeased and a shiver ran down his back when a pair of very familiar and worried eyes looked down at him.
“Where are you going? And where the fuck, have you been?” Jiyong yelled at him in anger as he pulled him to the side, gently but firm pushing Tegoshi against the wall. “I have been looking for you like an idiot inside! Can you even imagine how many people there are?” Jiyong hardly managed to hide his frustration when he finally found Tegoshi and he actually wanted to run off just like that.
Tegoshi couldn’t respond just on the spot and remained silent as Jiyong went on rambling without breaking for air, “And why do you look like shit? Don’t tell me you have you been crying? Did someone hit you? Molest you? Tell me and I’m making him wish he never been born!!”
Tegoshi managed to stop Jiyong from going crazy, he gently placed his hands at the other’s chest, “Hey stop asking me so many things at the same time!” he slightly shouted and shook his head, “I..I am alright, and I only went to the roof! …If you would have looked better for me, you would have found me easily!”
The older man suddenly accused Jiyong, snapping at him because somehow he really didn’t want to deal with Jiyong right now, and on top of that he felt suddenly so much more annoyed because of a starting headache.
“What the fuck Yuya, the roof? Are you insane? What were you doing up there?” Jiyong could hardly hold back his anger but stopped himself from shouting at Tegoshi.
“Damn, I was going crazy here thinking something had happen to you, you know? Damnit Yuya! Can’t you stop thinking about only yourself for once?”
“Shut up Jiyong! You don’t know shit! And why are you freaking out like this? I wasn’t gone for long and I’m not a kid anymore, for heaven’s sake!”
Tegoshi on the contrary couldn’t hold back and yelled once again.
“Why am I freaking out?” Jiyong stepped closer, raising his eyebrows. “Because I fucking care! Damnit Yuya, you were gone for almost an hour!”
“An hour?” Tegoshi swallowed, “ ...Whatever…” he replied looking like he didn’t care he felt quite bad now, because he hadn’t know he was gone for so long.
“Yes one long hour, can you imagine how much longer it can seem when you’re looking for someone you care about in a place like this? It’s mad here if you haven’t noticed. What were you thinking?” Jiyong spoke in a low voice, fighting the urge to wrap his arms around Tegoshi and hold him close. Fighting the need to embrace him in a tight hug and never let go again.
“Let’s just go home Ji, where is your car? I think I’m gonna be sick…”
Tegoshi turned around to avoid eye contact because he realized how much of a jerk he had been today again; he didn’t want to look at Jiyong right now, not at all.
"You know what,” Jiyong cursed under his breath, “I am really starting to get sick too, sick of your mood swings and all that shit….damnit Yuya, don’t make it so hard for me. We wanted to enjoy the party right? ….and now just look at the mess we are in again!”
Jiyong lowered his head as he wrapped his arm around Tegoshi’s waist to lead him outside and toward the parking spaces.
“You know Yuya, for once I should be a jerk and let you go home by yourself and let you be as sick as you want.”
Tegoshi lifted his head to look at Jiyong’s annoyed and saddened expression, his deep brown eyes looking back at him, “But I won’t. And I’m not driving; I’m getting us a fucking cab.”
His words and the look on Jiyong’s face made Tegoshi regret his actions tonight once more, and he was angrier than ever that he Yamapi take over his mind and actions once again, even though he wasn’t there.
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Jiyong shoved Tegoshi into the next taxi and said he would let him be dropped off first but once they halted in front of his apartment Tegoshi didn’t get out.
“What are you waiting for? We are here.”
Jiyong mumbled slightly annoyed, mostly because Tegoshi had been acting so damn bothersome the whole night and now decided to make a scene? What was wrong with him? Jiyong thought puzzled.
Tegoshi pulled Jiyong by his sleeve, “Pay already, will you?”
The younger man eyed him closely, “What the…? I told you to drop you off here so get out.”
“Not without you.” Tegoshi all of a sudden showed the sweetest pouty smile he had, feeling guilty for being such a pain earlier, but mostly just wanted to keep Jiyong at his place tonight. “So stop being a pain and get your butt out of here before it’s getting light outside.”
Jiyong didn’t know what Tegoshi’s problem was and how he always changed his mind like the weather but of course he gave in and paid the cab driver before letting Tegoshi pull him along. He was just too damn weak when it came to the older man that he didn’t even mind if he sometimes looked like a wimp next to him.
Once inside Tegoshi’s apartment Jiyong stood around like all dressed up and with nowhere to go, while Tegoshi roamed the kitchen as if searching for something long gone.
“What is your deal today anyways?”
Jiyong asked into the room while walking up toward the big sofa. He was caught up by Tegoshi before he reached it though. The older man grabbed him by his wrist and pulled him toward his chest in a harsh but effective manner. Jiyong was startled but quickly eased into the other’s embrace, and before he realized his lips were caught in a forceful manner by Tegoshi’s.
“Sorry for being a pain but I decided that I am not letting you go before we finish what we started.”
Tegoshi’s hands eagerly roamed the lithe body in front of him, unbuttoning Jiyong’s shirt while his lips and tongue trailed down his neck and chest. Jiyong was left rendered slightly speechless before he realized that Tegoshi was totally and completely up for it and he knew he shouldn’t question any move he made in the first place but lately his actions had left him wondering.
Tegoshi roughly pulled Jiyong’s silken black and pink shirt out of those tight grey pants and slipped it over his shoulders, before he instantly traveled his slick tongue down his chest and ran his hands along Jiyong’s strong arms.
Jiyong gasped, “I guess I won’t raise any objections-,” and Tegoshi kept on dancing his tongue along his abs as he opened his pants and pulled them down with ease.
“Oo-…ah..Yuya…“ Jiyong moaned, and his hands found its way in Tegoshi’s blonde hair, playing with his soft strands teasingly. The younger man enjoyed Tegoshi’s skilful tongue and lips all over his stomach, tensing slightly at the very touch of his slick mouth against his heated skin.
He wanted to feel more though with his own lips and tongue and soon pulled Tegoshi up by his arms and off his knees until they were face to face. Tegoshi smirked, his fingers slipped inside Jiyong’s underwear and the pure look on his face made Jiyong crush their lips together forcefully. Their kiss was rough with need, but full of passion. Jiyong placed his hands at the back of Tegoshi’s neck, deepening the kiss by pulling the elder closer to him, their bodies pressed on one another needily. Tegoshi returned his kiss full measure, their mouths together felt again intoxicating like an incredibly powerful pull towards one another, and their tongues roamed each other’s opened mouths in a teasing and playful manner.
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TBC - soon.
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Riina: I want to say something quick to everyone who started to read this fic and everyone who is still reading and looking forward to the future chapters. Yeh I guess there are a few more to come! ^^
This is a Tegopi fanfic and it will end as a Tegopi fanfic, so everyone who dislikes the fact of our Tegoji pairing, please don’t worry…even if there will be more Tegoji moments coming, if it’s still interesting enough please keep reading, and looking forward to more Tegopi.
We are sorry if the story got annoying to some of you but we like it and we think it’s important to the storyline in the end, somehow.
Well, then a big thanks for reading! ^^
We are very happy that the fic reached up to 800 views on a day, it’s just a bit sad that hardly 20 people commented. U_U’ I wonder if everyone who actually clicked, also read it XD
We don’t want to hear 800 ‘thank you’s’ but a note of how you liked or disliked it would help and be nice to read. In order to that we can keep writing better and maybe even a bit differently.
Nevertheless, we will continue because it still is a lot of fun to us two busy writers =p and we’ll still be very happy if you continue reading. Itsumo arigatou.
Author’s talk:
Riina: Arigatou for reading another chapter! *hands out tegocookies*
Gabby: I want some! *angel face* puh-leeze~
Riina: Mouu weren’t you the one who made Tego become all sad again!? *pokes*
Gabby: gomen nasai U________U ~ but but we need that right?
Riina: Of course ^_^ But I wonder if it won’t get too much lately?
Gabby: What do you mean? Too much angst? Too much sad Tegoshi?
Riina: Yeah, mostly too much sad Tegoshi T_____T *heart breaks*
Gabby: True.. but-, hey! What about Pichan? -_-“
Riina: Aww right, gomen. Poor Pichan too! *cuddles with Pi*
But then don’t forget poor Ji too! *pokes*
Gabby: Ok ok, they are all very poor ... xD *hugs all boys*
Riina: Mouu *sniff* I guess so… *sniff*
Gabby: Hey, don’t get everything wet here! *picks up papers and pens*
Riina: GO~ME~NNNN… *sniff* *sob* *cry*
Gabby: by the way….YOU are STILL wearing your TEGOJI shirt? °____°;;;;;
Riina: ^___________^
Gabby: Mooou, can this story really end nicely? *wonders*
Riina: Let’s see… *smirk*
Gabby: -_-“
Riina: Hey .. it’s not entirely my fault, weren’t you the one who actually thought of Ji supporting Tegochan?
Gabby: I was? *scratching her head* well, um... I might have... but you can’t stop messing about with them …XD *remembers next chapter’s scenes…* Uwah! You really should warn people right now! °.°”
Riina: I won’t ~ *smile* and you loved it ~ *double smile*
Gabby: *blush*
Riina: ^__^
Gabby: Hey, what about my Tegocookie? O.o
Riina: haha … change of topic? ^.^
*hands Gabbychan a handful of tegochococookies*
Gabby: *eats* that’s better ~ *eat*
Riina: So, everyone now wants happier Tego n Pi soon? Yeah?
Gabby: *nods* *eats*
Riina: Ok, I made a note ... XD
Both: Thanks for reading ^~^
Chapter: [7/?]
Authors: gabs_yuuya and yamap_oukoku
Rating: PG-13 (still???? -_-“)
Pairing: Tegoshi Yuya / Yamashita Tomohisa, Tegoshi Yuya / Kwon Jiyong
Genre: AU, romance, fluff, angst
Disclaimer: We don't own the boys as you already know, but we can't help to dream about it ^^
Summary: Yamashita Tomohisa, aka Yamapi, is a well-known bachelor of Tokyo nights, but what makes him so well known? Well it's just the simple fact that no one ever managed to get a hold of this handsome and rich young man. The few ones that dared to say they managed to get into Yamashita`s bed, are just liars or never had a chance to make it happen a second time. The only thing he really want is to find his long missed one in a million.
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Tegoshi’s words were dire and cruel, and speaking them out loud somehow hurt Tegoshi just as much as Yamapi who had to hear them. Tegoshi just wanted Yamapi to disappear out of his life forever; he seriously didn’t want to see him again because the pain he felt inside his chest whenever he looked at him would never stop. All he wanted was to get through another day without those painful encounters, even though he couldn’t forget him completely, seeing Yamapi again and again was even more torturing.
Yamapi was left rendered speechless as he watched the two men walk away hand in hand, Tegoshi’s words hurt a lot but thinking that he had also lied about not remembering him was a shock on its own. He wasn’t sure of he should be happy about the fact he did remember him, or angrier that he fooled him.
Jiyong really had not the slightest idea what that scene was all about but Tegoshi’s troubled face, really bothered him. As they walked down the busy street Jiyong gave the blonde’s hand another tight squeeze and tried to ask “Do you want to...” but he was cut off by the older man, who squeezed his hand back slightly, sighing. “Don’t want to…talk about it.”
Jiyong brought his hand around Tegoshi’s waist to hold him closer, as they walked toward Jiyong’s car that was parked close by; he had offered him a ride home before picking him up again later to go out. Out of the blue the younger man whispered into Tegoshi’s direction, “I don’t want you to go home now, come with me.”
Tegoshi stopped at the spot and turned to Jiyong. Their eyes locked and Jiyong spoke with a deep voice, “I will take your mind off things that trouble you.”
“I need to change clothes before we go anywhere.”
Jiyong pulled Tegoshi closer, “You don’t need to be vain all the time because you look good in anything.”
The older man sighed, “But…” and was cut off short. “But if you really need to, there is still a lot of really hot clothing in my suitcase for you.” Jiyong smirked, knowing that Tegoshi was hard to talk into spontaneous things, he yet believed he always had a pretty good chance of making Tegoshi accept his offers for what reason ever, he didn’t need to know really all that counted was that he had Tegoshi all over him soon.
“Ok…” Tegoshi agreed with a weak smile on his lips. He really didn’t want to go home right now, being alone would make things only worse and thinking about Jiyong taking his mind off things was pretty inviting actually.
“No pressure, just fun!” Jiyong said brightly as he wrapped his arm around Tegoshi properly again and nudge him to get moving. Having that cheerful guy beside him brought a brighter smile on his face as they walked side by side. At first Tegoshi didn’t want to Jiyong to be so caring and he didn’t want to be held close, because they weren’t going to be a couple or anything, yet he couldn’t fight back cause it felt so good to be so close to someone and Jiyong definitely seemed to know what his body wanted. Tegoshi felt like screaming at his stupid feelings that again were running wild like on a roller coaster; instead he kept silent and tried to clear his mind.
When they stopped at a crossing, Tegoshi turned to Jiyong and smiled as he watched him staring at the light’s waiting for them to change. Jiyong turned around and asked half-assed, “What?” raising a brow questioningly. Tegoshi just smirked and leaned in to press his lips against the other’s face, just below his ear. He whispered against Jiyong’s skin as he withdrew quickly, “Get ready for tonight, we’re gonna have a lot of fun.” The older man smirked and licked his lips, and watched the surprised look on Jiyong’s face bemused, before joining the crowd that already started walking past the road.
No matter how rough things seemed to go, at least he had something and someone to bring him some more exciting times in the end and he really looked forward to tonight.
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Sitting in Jiyong’s car Tegoshi waited for the younger man come back from the conbini, they had just halted in front of to get some drinks. The radio started to play a familiar melody of a song that used to be famous a few years ago, mostly in the UK and Europe though but he had been aware of most pop songs from around the world, and Japanese radio stations liked to play old strange songs like that.
“That's what I go to school for, even though it is a real bore.”
Listening to the lines of the chorus sent shivers down his spine. He wasn’t the best in English yet he knew the lyrics weren’t literally transferable since he had never been in love with his teacher, but alone that single sentence made him remember what used to be the reason for him to go to school.
Tegoshi remembered the times when he would sneak out of class to find Yamapi, who most of the times was daydreaming over a boring book, or pretending to work for the students council when he had actually been waiting for Tegoshi to ‘pick him up’ earlier. Sometimes he had also offered to help out at the student’s council office so he could carry paper for his boyfriend, staple boring reports and do a lot of annoying copies, and all just because they wanted to be together.
Tegoshi shook his head annoyed, hoping Jiyong would come back and make him forget about those things faster. His earlier excited smile had faded and looked rather dim and forced when Jiyong finally opened the door, handing Tegoshi a couple of plastic bags.
“You ok?” he asked worried once he noticed the other’s discomfort.
Tegoshi nodded and opened one of the bags curiously sticking his nose inside to see if Jiyong had brought him mitarashi dango. He sighed when he found nothing but alcoholic drinks, chips and some gum. Jiyong watched him curiously and asked “What is it?” once their eyes met and Tegoshi let out another sigh.
“No dango.”
The older man pointed out, the sound in Tegoshi’s voice almost accusingly, and took a canned drink out of the bag, opening it with a loud click.
Jiyong raised an eyebrow, “I’m sorry, I guess… You didn’t tell me you liked them.” and took one of the drinks himself, his gaze still fixated on the blonde. “But if you want I can go back and get you some.”
Tegoshi shook his head and smiled, “No need, I just felt like eating it but I’m fine without. We are almost there anyways.”
Jiyong gave him a puzzled look, “but it’s just a minute and I’ll be back with your dango, if that’s what you want.”
Tegoshi leaned forward, their eyes locked on each other, “I don’t want it anymore.” He almost whispered, and he placed his hand on Jiyong’s shoulder, “Let’s go.”
The younger man nodded and started the engine. He had been aware of Tegoshi’s mood swings and sometimes strange behavior, which mostly didn’t bother him and his little quirks were pretty cute, but nevertheless it made him feel like there was something big that Tegoshi was hiding from him and it didn’t feel so good at all.
---
It was already starting to get dark as Yamapi roamed the empty corridors of his old high school. He hurried down the halls, passing his old biology lab and Tegoshi’s classroom on the way to the GYM. He could never forget the times he had been staring through the windows of that classroom, watching the younger boy for hours if you’d count it all together. Even though he didn’t want to be stuck in school again he still wished for the times to come back to him that he could just stand here and watch his best friend and boyfriend all morning.
Yamapi let out a deep sigh as he kept walking, he didn’t want to ever forget those days even though they seemed more painful to remember as time passed and he realized everything he had, they had, were simply gone and won’t return, ever.
Soon he found the place he had been looking for, and let himself sink down on the top of the school building. The open roof used to be some sort of ‘save zone’ back when he attended school and he kept on coming here after he graduated. Everything still seemed to have done its trick most of the days he needed a break, it always lifted his mood, even after Tegoshi was gone - the beautiful night scenery was simply captivating even now. Although right now it really didn’t help much, the shock that still lingered in his bones was simply too big today.
The young business man looked up into the dark sky and thought about his encounter with Tegoshi, and how much that weird red-haired freak pissed him off.
“How dare he touching my Yuya?”
Yamapi couldn’t believe Tegoshi had seriously been out on a coffee date with such snobby guy and even touched in front of his eyes.
“I bet it was that little slut that messed with his head. If I see him again I am going to crush every single bone of his skinny ass. “
Nevertheless he should be a bit more positive right now, since Tegoshi seemed to know who he was and remembered probably everything. He tried to ignore the fact that he had played him dirty but he made Jiyong responsible for his strange behavior.
“He still remembers….right, I have to give everything I have to straighten his mind again and show him that I still love him…”
He still loved him with all his heart and wanted to show him just how important he still was to him, how much he missed him and tell him how every night when he went to bed his mind was still filled with images of him and he wouldn’t ever be able to get rid of it - he didn’t want to get rid of it.
But….maybe he was wishing for too much, maybe Tegoshi had already decided to never speak to him again for sure, and maybe he really needed some kind of miracle to happen right now to change his mind.
Speaking of positive thinking and miracles, when Yamapi looked up into the almost black sky he saw a bright shooting star fall down to earth. He closed his eyes quickly and wished for something, since stars are normally not being able to be seen in Tokyo seeing a shooting star almost never ever happened either, therefore he felt this was special and he liked to think this must mean something, somehow.
The rooftop itself brought back a lot of memories, especially strong in his mind lingered the first time he had shown Tegoshi their new hideout. He had tried to get his hands on the keys to the rooftop for a long time before it actually worked, and how he did it was supposed to stay a secret because he really wasn’t allowed to open these doors.
[Flash back]
Yamapi walked through the long school corridors, carrying a bunch of papers his teacher had asked him to copy, when he saw a familiar class room. It wasn’t like he didn’t know he would pass here; he took a longer path just to pass by this particular classroom. A smile came to his lips when he looked through the class’ windows and spotted the black haired boy he wanted to see sitting at the other end of the room next to the window through which the playground could be seen.
“Yu-chan…” Yamapi whispered when he saw him sitting there looking into the sky outside, not paying attention to the teacher. He knew it wasn’t like Tegoshi was a bad student he just got bored really fast.
Yamapi stood there for a while just watching the distracted boy when suddenly Tegoshi turned around and their eyes met, making Yamapi blush because he got caught. He quickly replied Tegoshi’s wide smile with one of his own and nodded lightly at him before he continued to walk away slowly. Yamapi had to use all of his strength to not rush inside the class and grab Tegoshi and drive him into the corner to kiss him senseless. Of course he couldn’t do that, which made him sigh and shake his head. No one knew that they were actually dating, and for their own safety it should stay that way.
It was good that they managed to keep their relationship a secret until now, and sneaking around the school and home somehow had its appeal. Maybe it was the fear of getting caught that made their get together even more fun.
Tegoshi was the best in secretly sneaking around and Yamapi liked it a bit more impulsive, he would just pull Tegoshi into an empty classroom or lab and lock the door behind them. Tegoshi preferred to come up with interesting plans to get them a quiet place somewhere in the school.
---
“Did you see that last shot I did in the game?” a short brown haired boy said proudly, “The ball hit the perfect spot and the goalkeeper didn’t even see when the ball was in! Just like I had planned it to happen”
“Yeah right! If you had planned that you wouldn’t have stood there like a baka not believing you scored the goal.” Tegoshi said poking his friend by his chest.
“Hey I did not Tegoshi!” said the short boy annoyed.
“Oh Yeah you did! We had to punch you a few times to make you wake up…” a taller boy said with a grin while Tegoshi was faking giving his friend cheeks some slaps, and the entire group end up laughing.
“That was awesome Tegoshi, only you can make us laugh like this…” The taller boy said still trying to manage to stop laughing.
“I must be lucky, he won’t be make fun of me for long…” the short guy said annoyed but with a grin coming to his lips.
“Hey don’t say it like that; I wasn’t making fun of you I was just telling the truth!” Tegoshi said with his best innocent face “But why you sound like I would be going somewhere? I’m not going anywhere right now…” Tegoshi asked lifting an eyebrow to the shorter boy.
“Oh yeah you’re …” he said back pointing to the corridor behind him making all the boys turn so they could see a tall, handsome dark haired boy walking toward them, which made Tegoshi’s heart skip a beat when he recognized his friend and he had to try really hard to hide the smile that wanted to come to his lips.
“Uwahh… your Yamashita-kun is here…”
The taller boy said with a playful tone poking Tegoshi sides.
“Like always ne?” another boy said poking Tegoshi as well.
“Such a sweet couple right?” another boy added trying to poke Tegoshi as well, “Never missing to have lunch together...”
“Hey stop that!” Tegoshi shouted while trying to get away from his friends “You know he’s my friend and I will punch any of you that continues to make fun of it!” He said with a glare what made the boys stop because they know Tegoshi meant it.
“Hey Yu-chan!” Yamapi said when he reached the group smiling to the only one he was really paying attention to, but after a short while he turned to the others, “Hey there guys how was the game?”
“It was fine!”
“Yeah we won.”
“Oh that’s nice! Congratulations guys!” Yamapi said trying to pay attention to the other boys, but he didn’t manage for long and his gaze drifted back quickly to Tegoshi.
“Ne Yu-chan, are you ready? I want to show you something…” Yamapi asked hopefully to the younger boy while rubbing the back of his head.
“Nhowwww…” The others boys squealed playfully getting another glare from Tegoshi and a curious look from Yamapi who didn’t understand what had happened.
“Just ignore them Pi… they’re being baka like always… Let’s go.”
Tegoshi stepped closer to Yamapi and motioned for him to get going.
“If you say so…” Yamapi said while ruffling Tegoshi’s hair, which earned them another squeal from the group of boys.
“See you around, guys!”
Yamapi said and walked away next to Tegoshi.
“Bye bye Yamashita-kun!” The boys shouted in girly voices.
“What was that?”
Yamapi asked after they were further from the group.
“Nothing, they were just making fun of me… well about you and me.”
Tegoshi didn’t really care about it, but Yamapi seemed to be more curious now to know what their deal was.
“Really? Did I do something?” Yamapi asked worried. “Do you think they know?”
“No they don’t know anything; you just gave them something to play with when you said you wanted to show me something like that…” Tegoshi eyed his boyfriend, “It would have been better if you had said that we were going to miss lunch time or something, if you wanted an excuse to be alone with me…” Tegoshi winked to the taller boy.
“B…but I really want to show you something…”
“Really? It wasn’t just an excuse to leave?”
Yamapi blushed slightly and Tegoshi got excited.
“Yeah I have something you will really like…”
Yamapi shoved his hands into his pockets, looking for something. He found it and handed the small item to Tegoshi.
“Ah key? Really, Yamapi?” Tegoshi gave his boyfriend a questioning look, “Why I would want a key?”
“Hey! You should ask me which door this key opens, silly…” Yamapi said with a wicked smile.
“Eh… ok then, where can we go with this key?”
Tegoshi wondered which door in the school would be worth going through that they couldn’t without a key. They stopped walking for moment and Yamapi gazed at the younger boy, “I’m not saying though..”
“Hey ~ That’s unfair Pi!”
Tegoshi pouted sweetly but slightly annoyed when Yamapi stuck out his tongue and dragged him along down the crowded school yard.
“But I’ll show you…” Yamapi pulled Tegoshi by his hand, “Come on!” and they soon walked through the rather empty school halls and up the stairs, making Tegoshi wonder where the hell he would be led to. When they stood in front of the only door that could be seen up the highest level Tegoshi asked excited;
“The …school roof???”
He always wanted to go up there just to look down and see how the school looks from a higher place but lately he also came to think it would be the loveliest place to alone with Yamapi.
“But…Pi, no one can go to the roof!?” Tegoshi suddenly remembered that it had been forbidden for all students to set a foot on the school roof since there had been an accident a long time ago, so he was told.
“Just how the hell did you get that key?”
Tegoshi asked watching Yamapi unlock the door with a smirk on his lips.
“Well I found out that being the president of the school council makes it easy for me to use that key, just don’t ask me why or how, but I can have it.”
Seeing Tegoshi that excited made it even more excited for him as well.
“Uwahhh..awesome!!!…”
Tegoshi shouted when they stepped outside, the school wasn’t a tall building but the place where they were now was the tallest around and the boys had an amazing view of all the surroundings. They could even see parts of downtown close by, tall buildings and countless cars rushing through the streets of Tokyo.
“Look Yamapi, we can even see Tokyo Tower!”
Tegoshi shouted exited pointing to little red and white spot in the horizon.
“Does that mean you like it?”
Yamapi asked with a shy smile, and when the other boy turned around and their eyes locked, Tegoshi instantly jumped into his arms, kissing him sweetly. When he broke their lip lock he grinned to his flushed boyfriend.
“Was that good enough to show you how much I like it?”
Tegoshi snaked his arms around Yamapi’s neck and locked his fingers behind it.
“Hmmm…..maybe…” Yamapi brought his hands around Tegoshi’s waist to pull the younger boy closer, “But I would like if you showed me a little more, you know?” Yamapi grinned, “It wasn’t bad but not quite enough.”
“You’re overly greedy today don’t you think?”
The younger boy bent forward and playfully nipped at Yamapi’s lower lip.
“It isn’t my fault...” The older boy whispered against Tegoshi’s lips, “I’ve been without you the entire morning, that’s not easy you know…”
Yamapi’s words made Tegoshi blush lightly and chuckle as he withdrew his head to gaze into the other’s eyes dreamily.
“The entire morning?” Tegoshi gave his boyfriend a pitiful pouty smile, “Mouu my poor Yamapi…” he then dipped his head towards Yamapi again to place little kisses against the soft skin of his cheeks and down the side of his neck.
“Desho? When I saw you this morning in your class I wanted to instantly drag you out of that room!” Yamapi said as he traveled his hands gently up and down Tegoshi’s back.
“That would have been so subtle of you Yamapi; I bet no one would have noticed…” Tegoshi chuckled while he loosened the tie of Yamapi’s uniform, and soon the young boy let his lips travel down the new exposed skin, savoring the sweet taste of his boyfriend’s collarbones.
“I promise I will make up for all the times we didn’t kiss before.” Tegoshi said with a naughty smile as he looked back up into his boyfriend’s eyes before he pulled Yamapi closer again by his loose tie. Their lips touched gently but soon the kiss grew deeper and deeper and right then they heard the loud noise of the school’s bell, telling the students that lunch break was over.
“Dam… always that awful timing…” Yamapi cursed annoyed.
“Yeah I know…” Tegoshi reached down to fix Yamapi’s tie, “What classes you have later?”
“I think physics, history and finally PE in the gym, why?”
“No reason … I just want to know where my boyfriend will be today.”
Tegoshi whispered before giving Yamapi a chaste peck on the lips, “Lest go I don’t want to be late for literature, you know my teacher really sucks.”
Yamapi followed his boyfriend down the stairs, “I know you have something on your bratty mind, Tego-chan…”
“You will have to wait to find out if I do or not…” Tegoshi turned around and grinned at Yamapi before rushing down the other side of the hallway, “See you later handsome!”
“I bet I will find out.” Yamapi whispered, smiling to himself while he kept on walking slowly, not really wanting to go back to class.
---
Yamapi gave all he got in the last half hour of his class. They were doing a high jumping contest, and the young boy didn’t have any interest in it whatsoever. He had just managed to successfully jump over the slim bar one more time and hit the soft mattress underneath with his feet when he suddenly noticed someone standing against the back wall of the gym. First he thought he was seeing things but he wouldn’t mistake that grin or that messy black hair.
“T…Tegoshi? What…” Yamapi whispered, shocked to see him there when he should be at class right now. What he was doing in the GYM?
“Yamashita!” The teacher shouted getting Yamapi’s attention back, “Get moving already so we can keep the class going! And get back in line, boy!”
Yamapi rushed back and when he was lining up again behind his classmates, he looked back at the same spot he just had seen his boyfriend, but the place now was as empty as it should be.
“What the …”
Yamapi cursed under his breath. Had he just imagined seeing Tegoshi there? He looked around the GYM but far and wide there was no sign of the younger boy.
“Yamashita!”
The professor shouted again until he Yamapi noticed he was talking to him
“What’s wrong with you today boy? Stop daydreaming during my class and jump already!”
“I’m sorry!”
Yamapi apologized quickly and rushed down the line to do as he was told to but in the middle of the run he was distracted when he saw another glimpse of the same messy hair walking through the door of the locker room, which made Yamapi even forget to actually jump and instead he crashed against the bar he was supposed to leap over.
The entire room was silent even though was a really funny scene to watch, but all the boys in the GYM were shocked to see Yamapi fail like that, because he never failed in anything before.
“What the hell got into you today?” The professor smacked Yamapi’s head, “If you have time to daydream during my class I will let you continue as much as you want after class. You can try cleaning the GYM, and the longer you decide to fool around the longer you will stay! Now go and sit down onto the bench, I can’t have you messing around with my class any longer!”
Yamapi sighed; this had been the first time he was told to cut the class. The young boy sat there as he was told to, waiting for the class to end.
“Ok, boy’s good job, that’s it for today!” The professor shouted towards the rest of the class once it was over, allowing everyone to leave. “Yamashita!” The older man motioned for Yamapi to come toward him.
“Yes Professor!?” Yamapi said with a sad tone he just wanted to go home with the others and meet Tegoshi in front of the school so they could walk home together.
“Yamashita I never thought I would have to give you detention but you were awfully distracted today…” He patted the boy’s shoulder “I really hope it won’t happen again.”
“It won’t, Professor, I promise.” Yamapi said with a serious tone promising to himself, to try not to get this distracted over just the thought that Tegoshi was near.
“Good, well lucky for you, one of the juniors in one of my classes got himself into detention as well, so he will be helping you now.” The man looked around looking for the said junior, “He should be by the lockers. As I will leave now I’ll tell him to come inside and help you here.”
“Ok, I will start then…” Yamapi bowed as the Professor turned around and left.
“Great….now I have to spend my time with an annoying junior instead of Tegoshi…”
Yamapi let out a deep sigh as he started to pick up the bars and balls they used during class. After a while of cleaning up by himself he saw the Professor and his classmates leave the locker rooms but said junior hadn’t shown up at all and Yamapi was almost close to finished.
“Nice, it looks like I will have to finish the entire job alone then…” Yamapi said annoyed while he carried away some of the things and put them away in a closet at the back of the GYM hall.
Not long after he tidied away the balls he heard footsteps coming his way from behind, ‘Finally’ Yamapi thought.
“Tsk tsk tsk…. Such a bad boy getting detention like this…”
Yamapi noticed the familiar voice coming from behind, and he grinned to himself.
“Don’t you know that it is really bad to be distracted during class Yamashita-sempai?”
Yamapi could even recognize the smirk on the boy’s lips, and he saw he wasn’t wrong when he turned around to the watch the grinning boy that stood behind him with his arms placed against his hips.
“And you are the naughty junior that got himself into detention?”
Yamapi chuckled when his eyes locked with the younger boy.
“Yup, that’s me, Yamashita-sempai, the one and only Yuya Tegoshi at your service.”
Tegoshi bowed slowly like he saw magicians do on the TV.
“How? Why? And when?” Yamapi asked at the same time not knowing what he really wanted to know first.
“Ah it’s a long story, but you know strangely some of the balls I shot today during class decided to hit our dear teacher’s large old butt instead of the goal….and the old man thought I was doing it on purpose… why would I do something like that?”
Tegoshi smirked and gave Yamapi his angel like smile, which didn’t convince his boyfriend at all.
“Indeed... Why on earth would you do that for?” Yamapi said fully amused by his boyfriend.
“You know I wouldn’t do something like that even if I knew my boyfriend would have his last class here…” Tegoshi said with a low sexy tone in his voice as he stepped closer to Yamapi, “I wouldn’t do that even if I had known I would be in charge of the GYM key because this afternoon most of the teachers will be stuck in a long, very long meeting, right?”
Tegoshi was so close that they could feel each other’s warm breath against their skin, “Why would I do something as crazy as that?”
The young boy then pushed Yamapi over the soft mattress he had carried there a few moments ago. Yamapi was startled at first but then a grin came to his lips when he saw Tegoshi move closer to hover over him, grinning back.
“So I think you’re stuck here with me for a while now…” Tegoshi said while bending down to brush his lips against the warm skin of Yamapi’s neck.
“I guess I am...” Yamapi smiled, enjoying the sensation of Tegoshi’s damp lips sucking at his skin, “But how did you know I would get into detention as well?” the older boy asked curiously.
“I didn’t.” Tegoshi sat down comfortably on Yamapi’s lap and looked at him cheekily,
“I just thought I would have to grab you before you leave the locker room.”
They both chuckled and Tegoshi brought his hand up to cup Yamapi’s cheek, “I think I was lucky that you were overly distracted today…” he then bent down to nibble at the corner of Yamapi’s mouth.
“And whose fault do you think this was?” Yamapi let out a whimpering sound as Tegoshi’s other hand found its way underneath his white sports shirt. “I kept seeing glimpses of that messy hair of yours walking around the hallway, how can I not get distracted?”
“Hey my hair isn’t messy!”
Tegoshi moved back to glare at his boyfriend.
“No it’s not… it’s always sweetly styled in that bed hairstyle you seem to love!” Yamapi mocked but when he saw that Tegoshi was about to snap back at him, he pulled him down and kissed the younger boy’s slightly parted lips in a smooth manner.
“Hey don’t think you can get away that easily…” Tegoshi whispered against Yamapi’s lips.
“I think I can!” the older boy murmured, swiping his tongue across Tegoshi’s damp lips before capturing his mouth in a deeper kiss, playfully biting and sucking at each other’s lips. In his mind Yamapi felt the boy’s happiness as he held him close, his hands traveling up the other’s chest.
The younger boy moved his lips against Yamapi’s longingly, his hands cupping his cheeks tightly. Tegoshi felt his mouth open with a soft moan as Yamapi tasted him with his tongue, passion and desire made his skin burn to his touch.
"I love you, Yuya"
Yamapi breathed raggedly when they finally broke apart.
[/Flash back]
“Back then you would say you loved me back, right Yuya?” Yamapi whispered into the dark sky, “You truly loved me back then, we loved each other with all our hearts… but now you just…you just…”
Yamapi couldn’t say the words out loud, because it felt like if he did they would become stronger and he hated the fact that he couldn’t change anything about it.
“I just…I just want to know why…You know who I’m, you remember me, yet you treat me like I’m a stranger…”
Yamapi sighed as he braced himself up from the spot he sat for almost an hour, knowing that if he would keep sitting around he would end up with another hundreds of questions that wouldn’t let him sleep at all tonight.
“Yosh!” he shook his head and looked up into the night one last time before turning around. “This isn’t the time to waste with thinking like an idiot here! I’m not going to give up, do you hear me!? No skinny red punk is going to take you away from me!”
---
Roughly ten minutes after they drove off from the conbini, Jiyong found an empty spot at a car park close to the club and they started walking toward their desired destination.
“I thought we would get here too early but it seems it is already really busy, ne?”
Jiyong looked around the area in amazement once they reached the small dark club.
“Yeah it seems strangely crowded… ”
Tegoshi said as he eyed the crowd, that moved toward the building, curiously.
“I wonder how it will be inside…” Tegoshi turned to Jiyong who walked a few steps behind him. “Do we need to buy the tickets?” he asked as he turned to a group of young people that passed by; they looked like they were bursting with excitement for the party.
When Jiyong didn’t reply Tegoshi turned back glaring at the younger man, straightening his tight shirt.
“Hey, are you listening?”
“Sorry… I am.” Jiyong smirked, “And no, we don't need to buy tickets because I already got us some.”
Jiyong waved a pair of tickets at the older man before running his fingers through his copper hair and fixing his big sunglasses over his head.
“Good, but why did it take you so long to answer?”
Tegoshi asked slightly irritated and walked towards the younger man, fumbling with the silver necklace around his neck, playing with the small half moon pendant unconsciously.
“Guess you caught me thinking that you really rock my clothes, even though I’m slightly taller than you.” An ‘I’m-up-to-no-good’ smile sneaked up on Jiyong’s lips as he observed the man in front of him with hungry eyes.
“You said I look good in anything,” Tegoshi smiled amused, “I guess you weren’t lying …”
The young man observed his reflection in the window of a ramen shop and smirked sexily, he found himself damn good looking in Jiyong’s clothes, with his blond strands of smooth hair almost entirely covered by the hood of a fitting blue sleeveless shirt and his bum squeezed into a pair of stylish tight dark jeans. It wasn’t anything really special nor designer clothes, but he felt really good in them.
"You don’t look so bad yourself you know?"
Tegoshi turned to face Jiyong and grinned widely. He liked the silken black and pink shirt that Jiyong wore, half buttoned to show off his well defined collar bones. ‘Those clothes love to tease just like their owner...’ Tegoshi thought.
Jiyong grinned and pulled Tegoshi closer by his waist, “You should rather say that I look totally hot."
His words made Tegoshi chuckle and he stuck out his tongue childishly. Jiyong started to feel more and more exited seeing Tegoshi fooling around and so he didn’t lose much time reach out for the older man and pulled him into a heated kiss, their lips and tongues moving against each other’s passionately.
"Let's go pretty boy" Tegoshi said when they broke apart, "We have got a party to attend!" He smiled and pulled Jiyong along down the road by his hand.
As they stepped inside the dark club they noticed how wrong they were, this place wasn’t just busy, it resembled Shibuya Station during rush hour, almost. Tegoshi had been to a couple of raves and he knew they usually were big, but he hadn’t been expecting for Jiyong to bring him to one of those really crowded ones.
"Black Sheep?"
Tegoshi turned around curiously as they just passed a few stickers and signs with the name of the club; mainly it was about a small black cartoon sheep in sunglasses, holding a sign with the club's name.
"I guess most of those crazy people that come to this place are some sort of black sheep, right??"
Jiyong walked as close to Tegoshi as he could manage, holding on to his arm as they got closer into the busy inside of the venue.
“I’m not crazy!"
The older man pouted slightly, turning to lock his gaze with Jiyong.
"Oh babe, if you're not crazy yet, I will make you go insane tonight!"
Jiyong grinned down at Tegoshi while he gave his butt a squeeze, making the older man yelp. Tegoshi could feel his blood race unevenly and his body started to move as soon as they were dragged along by the jumping crowd, the music intense and mind blowing loud. All the dancing, the music and the drinks made it hard for him to think about anything at all, which was nice for a change and he didn’t even mind all the colorful drinks Jiyong passed him right from the start.
Probably neither of them had the slightest idea what the content of any of these drinks were but since they seemed to be strong by how they made their throats burn it did not really matter. Like that the night started off very nice and just like they had imagined, more or less. After a few more drinks Tegoshi let his head drift off into a state of bliss where nothing really happened or mattered, with his mind working too fast to process his surroundings properly.
Tegoshi thought he was getting really wasted but he didn’t mind, he only wanted to let go of everything that bothered him recently a.k.a. the man called Yamashita Tomohisa, who kept occupying his mind over and over again. He couldn’t help but wonder how he managed to find him. He was sure that someone had opened their big mouth, but he wondered who, since he had just moved here not many people actually knew anything about him. Tegoshi sighed, why can’t people just mind their own fucking business?
Why did Yamapi keep coming after him now?
A part of his heart wanted to feel happy that the older man found him, or that he had found Yamapi, or however you want to put it. Nevertheless it was too late now, and he mostly just felt angry and desperate to find peace of his mind.
“Fuck it!” Tegoshi cursed out loud, not that it could be heard with all the loud music blasting through the speakers around them, nevertheless Jiyong noticed the angered look on his face. Worried as he always was he mouthed him an, ‘You ok?’ and Tegoshi in reply only shook his head and pulled at Jiyong’s silken shirt to capture his lips in a forceful and almost desperate kiss. But neither of them minded and soon their lips and tongues moved against each other’s in countless deep and utterly sweet, slow and passion filled kisses.
Tegoshi had come to this party for just one reason, and that was not to have his mind occupied with Yamapi once more, and there was no better way to do so then fill up his mind with Jiyong.
With Jiyong’s slim but always strong arms wrapped around his waist and pulled close to his amazing body, he always made Tegoshi feel so many sensations at the same time. Only he could make him feel secure, wanted and actually made him want someone else madly and somehow desperately. He felt l like he couldn’t ever let go and escape from his hold, and not that he actually minded or wanted, for it just felt to incredibly good.
It felt too good how their bodies moved against each other’s, with their lips locked and their hands and legs entangled in a sweet mess that promised to get even sweeter and messier as time ticked away and the music filled their ears.
What he wanted and needed right now was to feel the younger man’s hands travel up and down his arms, and sneak under his shirt to caress his back and front shamelessly. Everything that he could feel and register right now made Tegoshi’s knees tremble, his heart shake and his skin burn with each and every touch.
He couldn’t get enough of Jiyong’s soft lips; the natural sweet taste was simply addicting and reminded Tegoshi just how dangerous it was to be with Jiyong, he always completely lost himself in him. This sweet and passionate boy had something that made Tegoshi feel addicted to, something that was crazy, mysterious and too delicious to be true.
When they finally broke apart Tegoshi placed his arms around Jiyong neck, “Is this your way to make me go crazy?” he asked breathlessly against Jiyong’s ear.
“Is it working?” The younger man almost shouted back against Tegoshi to win the fight against the loud music that surrounded them.
Tegoshi grinned, “I think it is a nice start!” he replied before he brought his lips toward Jiyong’s ear, and nibbled at the sensitive lobe, electing a soft moan from his lover. The younger man buried his face in Tegoshi’s shoulder, kissing his shoulder blade softly, with his greedy hands traveling down the older man’s side and around his back before Jiyong let them slip into the back pockets of Tegoshi tight pants. They moved together without caring about the pace or if they were following the music that was still blasting through the club speakers.
Tegoshi ‘s hands locked behind Jiyong’s neck once more, and he covered the other’s flawless skin with sweet and damp kissed, licking down his jaw line and up again to meet those delicious lips all over again, kissing him heatedly with lips licking and sucking.
Tegoshi was getting hot, too hot and the same spoke for Jiyong. Their lower parts started to ache, filled with pressure their needs painfully throbbed against the tight clothing. Jiyong withdrew his hands and head, “I’m going to find the bathroom, and when I am back maybe we can find a spot more comfortable for us as well.” He winked and Tegoshi nodded eagerly and soon found himself dancing alone and sipping on a drink that appeared out of nowhere; maybe Jiyong had given it to him but he didn’t really remember.
Suddenly the entire club fell in a deathly silence and the lights went out in a blink, when people started to think a black out hit them a computer-like almost electronic sounding voice came through the speakers, singing familiar lines of an old song everyone seemed to recognize from the start.
“How do I ever… ever survive?”
“What the fuck?” Tegoshi cursed out loud, when the fast beats of the electronic music reached the speakers once again and again. Tegoshi decided to ignore it, but somehow the English lines managed to bury themselves into his blurry mind.
“Baby I don't know what I would do, I'd be lost if I lost you….If you ever leave baby,~
You would take away everything real in my life”
“Heee…seriously, what the fuck is this? How can they turn such a mushy song into a dance tune?”
Tegoshi’s annoyance level quickly rose to a new high, because he really hated cheesy songs like this, and especially if it was sung in English but he actually managed to understand some parts of it, at least the most important lines he thought. He wasn’t all too happy about it because it just made his stomach feel sick, really sick.
“Without you…there'd be no sun in my sky, there would be no love in my life, there would be no world left for me”
“No, no, stop this fucking song already!”
Tegoshi shouted but no one could hear his angry voice, he was being overtrumped and the rest of the club fell into a mess of people jumping and dancing and singing along like before.
“If you ever leave, baby you would take away everything,
Need you with me baby, ‘coz you know that you're everything good in my life”
“Son of a bitch!!” Tegoshi cursed and started to walk fast through the club, trying to find someplace safe, some spot where he wouldn’t hear this song anymore. “This DJ should be fucking shot!”
“And tell me now, how do I live without you, I want to know.”
Tegoshi used to really like love songs, and he used to write them when he was young, but now he couldn’t bear to listen to one, it filled his heart with so much anger he was afraid it would rip it apart.
Tegoshi walked around the building, trying to find someplace safe from those lines, which seemed as if they were haunting him wherever he walked. He could feel the tears forming in his eyes; tears he didn’t want to share because he knew the feelings those would bring.
“How do I breathe without you, if you ever go.
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, How do I..”
Oh how Tegoshi hated those lines, he hated them with his entire heart because they were so true, and he knew it. He had asked himself those same lines during the darkest days of his life, over and over but it was no use at all. Blindly Tegoshi managed to find stairs that lead to the roof of the club, and he simply followed them as far as they would lead him.
“Oh how do I live, how do I live without you~
How do I live without you baby”
The lines managed to follow him as he stepped onto the empty roof, and being hit instantly by the cold night wind only made his tears run down fast. Tegoshi closed the door harshly behind him and let his body crash against the wall, slowly dropping down onto his knees. The shut door tuned down the volume of the music, but it hardly even matter anymore because the feelings Tegoshi wanted to hold back were slowly but surely drowning him in that familiar pool of misery again.
The horrible feeling of being left alone when you most wanted, when you most needed someone to hold on to were things Tegoshi would never forget. He never wished to feel hopeless and alone and right now, without understanding the one and only thing Tegoshi wanted most, was to have back his old and safe life.
His life when he was young, carefree and with Yamapi, his life when he would always have a strong shoulder to cry on.
“Why did you have to be gone in the first place?” Tegoshi sobbed hard into his wrists, “You know, I was waiting for you! You .. you.. son of a bitch! Yamashita jerk Tomohisa I waited for you!” Tegoshi shouted into the dark sky, not caring if someone would hear him or understanding why he did so.
Not that he was back, it hurt so much. His heart was badly wounded after being abandoned by the person, who showed him what love, was until he took everything from him in one single night.
“How do I live? Now, tell me how do I fucking live right now?”
Tegoshi sobbed once more, his voice half cracking and tired. The young man rubbed his wet cheeks with the back of his hand, drying his reddened skin carefully as he looked up into the starless sky.
“I don’t have the slightest idea, damnit!”
Tegoshi shouted as he hit the cold floor with his fist, pain struck his joints and he yelped out breathlessly sobbing into his hands again. Once more he lifted his head and looked into the dark night, wishing he could see the stars like he used to sometimes when he was a kid, but he knew that you couldn’t see stars in Tokyo.
“You, up there! Yes you….” Tegoshi whispered because he felt too tired to actually raise his voice once more, “…If you want something from me, give me an answer at least! How the goddamn fuck am I supposed to live on in this shit what you call life? Everything is a fucking mess and you don’t give a shit, right?” Tegoshi kept staring into the sky, searching for something but all he saw was blackened darkness surrounding him. He then let out a low chuckle at his silliness, knowing the one who was the problem was he himself, he should get a grip and get his life together somehow.
“What I’m doing?” Tegoshi shook his head in disbelief, and slightly in anger that those promising drinks weren’t actually keeping him drunk. When he about to get up and turnaround he gave the heavens a quick last glance and he saw flashing light in the far corner of his eye. He fully turned to see the bright flash of light cut through the dark sky.
“A …shooting star?” Tegoshi asked “You must be kidding me right…” But even if on the outside Tegoshi looked like he didn’t believe in this kind of stuff, deep inside his heart he was wishing this star would help him to change things in his life from now own.
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Tegoshi slowly made his way down the stairs of the filled night club, drying his stinging eyes with the back of his hands, yet he knew it would show that he had cried and but he couldn’t care less. All he wanted right now was to leave and go home; he wasn’t in the mood for any party anymore. He suddenly remembered Jiyong and how he must be still somewhere around here, or so he thought but it was hard to find him right now, with all these people still jumping around like mad.
Tegoshi tried to look around for a moment but quickly gave up because he couldn’t really focus and thought the younger would probably have found someone else to take his place tonight. Tegoshi sighed as he passed a couple of strange looking guys that tried to talk to him but he ignored them kindly and almost made it through the exit when suddenly a pair of strong hands stopped him by his shoulders. Tegoshi turned around displeased and a shiver ran down his back when a pair of very familiar and worried eyes looked down at him.
“Where are you going? And where the fuck, have you been?” Jiyong yelled at him in anger as he pulled him to the side, gently but firm pushing Tegoshi against the wall. “I have been looking for you like an idiot inside! Can you even imagine how many people there are?” Jiyong hardly managed to hide his frustration when he finally found Tegoshi and he actually wanted to run off just like that.
Tegoshi couldn’t respond just on the spot and remained silent as Jiyong went on rambling without breaking for air, “And why do you look like shit? Don’t tell me you have you been crying? Did someone hit you? Molest you? Tell me and I’m making him wish he never been born!!”
Tegoshi managed to stop Jiyong from going crazy, he gently placed his hands at the other’s chest, “Hey stop asking me so many things at the same time!” he slightly shouted and shook his head, “I..I am alright, and I only went to the roof! …If you would have looked better for me, you would have found me easily!”
The older man suddenly accused Jiyong, snapping at him because somehow he really didn’t want to deal with Jiyong right now, and on top of that he felt suddenly so much more annoyed because of a starting headache.
“What the fuck Yuya, the roof? Are you insane? What were you doing up there?” Jiyong could hardly hold back his anger but stopped himself from shouting at Tegoshi.
“Damn, I was going crazy here thinking something had happen to you, you know? Damnit Yuya! Can’t you stop thinking about only yourself for once?”
“Shut up Jiyong! You don’t know shit! And why are you freaking out like this? I wasn’t gone for long and I’m not a kid anymore, for heaven’s sake!”
Tegoshi on the contrary couldn’t hold back and yelled once again.
“Why am I freaking out?” Jiyong stepped closer, raising his eyebrows. “Because I fucking care! Damnit Yuya, you were gone for almost an hour!”
“An hour?” Tegoshi swallowed, “ ...Whatever…” he replied looking like he didn’t care he felt quite bad now, because he hadn’t know he was gone for so long.
“Yes one long hour, can you imagine how much longer it can seem when you’re looking for someone you care about in a place like this? It’s mad here if you haven’t noticed. What were you thinking?” Jiyong spoke in a low voice, fighting the urge to wrap his arms around Tegoshi and hold him close. Fighting the need to embrace him in a tight hug and never let go again.
“Let’s just go home Ji, where is your car? I think I’m gonna be sick…”
Tegoshi turned around to avoid eye contact because he realized how much of a jerk he had been today again; he didn’t want to look at Jiyong right now, not at all.
"You know what,” Jiyong cursed under his breath, “I am really starting to get sick too, sick of your mood swings and all that shit….damnit Yuya, don’t make it so hard for me. We wanted to enjoy the party right? ….and now just look at the mess we are in again!”
Jiyong lowered his head as he wrapped his arm around Tegoshi’s waist to lead him outside and toward the parking spaces.
“You know Yuya, for once I should be a jerk and let you go home by yourself and let you be as sick as you want.”
Tegoshi lifted his head to look at Jiyong’s annoyed and saddened expression, his deep brown eyes looking back at him, “But I won’t. And I’m not driving; I’m getting us a fucking cab.”
His words and the look on Jiyong’s face made Tegoshi regret his actions tonight once more, and he was angrier than ever that he Yamapi take over his mind and actions once again, even though he wasn’t there.
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Jiyong shoved Tegoshi into the next taxi and said he would let him be dropped off first but once they halted in front of his apartment Tegoshi didn’t get out.
“What are you waiting for? We are here.”
Jiyong mumbled slightly annoyed, mostly because Tegoshi had been acting so damn bothersome the whole night and now decided to make a scene? What was wrong with him? Jiyong thought puzzled.
Tegoshi pulled Jiyong by his sleeve, “Pay already, will you?”
The younger man eyed him closely, “What the…? I told you to drop you off here so get out.”
“Not without you.” Tegoshi all of a sudden showed the sweetest pouty smile he had, feeling guilty for being such a pain earlier, but mostly just wanted to keep Jiyong at his place tonight. “So stop being a pain and get your butt out of here before it’s getting light outside.”
Jiyong didn’t know what Tegoshi’s problem was and how he always changed his mind like the weather but of course he gave in and paid the cab driver before letting Tegoshi pull him along. He was just too damn weak when it came to the older man that he didn’t even mind if he sometimes looked like a wimp next to him.
Once inside Tegoshi’s apartment Jiyong stood around like all dressed up and with nowhere to go, while Tegoshi roamed the kitchen as if searching for something long gone.
“What is your deal today anyways?”
Jiyong asked into the room while walking up toward the big sofa. He was caught up by Tegoshi before he reached it though. The older man grabbed him by his wrist and pulled him toward his chest in a harsh but effective manner. Jiyong was startled but quickly eased into the other’s embrace, and before he realized his lips were caught in a forceful manner by Tegoshi’s.
“Sorry for being a pain but I decided that I am not letting you go before we finish what we started.”
Tegoshi’s hands eagerly roamed the lithe body in front of him, unbuttoning Jiyong’s shirt while his lips and tongue trailed down his neck and chest. Jiyong was left rendered slightly speechless before he realized that Tegoshi was totally and completely up for it and he knew he shouldn’t question any move he made in the first place but lately his actions had left him wondering.
Tegoshi roughly pulled Jiyong’s silken black and pink shirt out of those tight grey pants and slipped it over his shoulders, before he instantly traveled his slick tongue down his chest and ran his hands along Jiyong’s strong arms.
Jiyong gasped, “I guess I won’t raise any objections-,” and Tegoshi kept on dancing his tongue along his abs as he opened his pants and pulled them down with ease.
“Oo-…ah..Yuya…“ Jiyong moaned, and his hands found its way in Tegoshi’s blonde hair, playing with his soft strands teasingly. The younger man enjoyed Tegoshi’s skilful tongue and lips all over his stomach, tensing slightly at the very touch of his slick mouth against his heated skin.
He wanted to feel more though with his own lips and tongue and soon pulled Tegoshi up by his arms and off his knees until they were face to face. Tegoshi smirked, his fingers slipped inside Jiyong’s underwear and the pure look on his face made Jiyong crush their lips together forcefully. Their kiss was rough with need, but full of passion. Jiyong placed his hands at the back of Tegoshi’s neck, deepening the kiss by pulling the elder closer to him, their bodies pressed on one another needily. Tegoshi returned his kiss full measure, their mouths together felt again intoxicating like an incredibly powerful pull towards one another, and their tongues roamed each other’s opened mouths in a teasing and playful manner.
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TBC - soon.
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Riina: I want to say something quick to everyone who started to read this fic and everyone who is still reading and looking forward to the future chapters. Yeh I guess there are a few more to come! ^^
This is a Tegopi fanfic and it will end as a Tegopi fanfic, so everyone who dislikes the fact of our Tegoji pairing, please don’t worry…even if there will be more Tegoji moments coming, if it’s still interesting enough please keep reading, and looking forward to more Tegopi.
We are sorry if the story got annoying to some of you but we like it and we think it’s important to the storyline in the end, somehow.
Well, then a big thanks for reading! ^^
We are very happy that the fic reached up to 800 views on a day, it’s just a bit sad that hardly 20 people commented. U_U’ I wonder if everyone who actually clicked, also read it XD
We don’t want to hear 800 ‘thank you’s’ but a note of how you liked or disliked it would help and be nice to read. In order to that we can keep writing better and maybe even a bit differently.
Nevertheless, we will continue because it still is a lot of fun to us two busy writers =p and we’ll still be very happy if you continue reading. Itsumo arigatou.
Author’s talk:
Riina: Arigatou for reading another chapter! *hands out tegocookies*
Gabby: I want some! *angel face* puh-leeze~
Riina: Mouu weren’t you the one who made Tego become all sad again!? *pokes*
Gabby: gomen nasai U________U ~ but but we need that right?
Riina: Of course ^_^ But I wonder if it won’t get too much lately?
Gabby: What do you mean? Too much angst? Too much sad Tegoshi?
Riina: Yeah, mostly too much sad Tegoshi T_____T *heart breaks*
Gabby: True.. but-, hey! What about Pichan? -_-“
Riina: Aww right, gomen. Poor Pichan too! *cuddles with Pi*
But then don’t forget poor Ji too! *pokes*
Gabby: Ok ok, they are all very poor ... xD *hugs all boys*
Riina: Mouu *sniff* I guess so… *sniff*
Gabby: Hey, don’t get everything wet here! *picks up papers and pens*
Riina: GO~ME~NNNN… *sniff* *sob* *cry*
Gabby: by the way….YOU are STILL wearing your TEGOJI shirt? °____°;;;;;
Riina: ^___________^
Gabby: Mooou, can this story really end nicely? *wonders*
Riina: Let’s see… *smirk*
Gabby: -_-“
Riina: Hey .. it’s not entirely my fault, weren’t you the one who actually thought of Ji supporting Tegochan?
Gabby: I was? *scratching her head* well, um... I might have... but you can’t stop messing about with them …XD *remembers next chapter’s scenes…* Uwah! You really should warn people right now! °.°”
Riina: I won’t ~ *smile* and you loved it ~ *double smile*
Gabby: *blush*
Riina: ^__^
Gabby: Hey, what about my Tegocookie? O.o
Riina: haha … change of topic? ^.^
*hands Gabbychan a handful of tegochococookies*
Gabby: *eats* that’s better ~ *eat*
Riina: So, everyone now wants happier Tego n Pi soon? Yeah?
Gabby: *nods* *eats*
Riina: Ok, I made a note ... XD
Both: Thanks for reading ^~^