This song is probably the most important song to me personally.   That is to say, this song means more to me than an other I've heard.   I think I first heard it live when Isaw NIN atthe Hollywood bowl, and yes I got teary (though I get teary at lotsa live concerts; it's the energy) this one spoke to me.  Not to my face , but to my feelings.  It ( Read more... )

Amazing how much hs happened in that time

Life is incredible, and sometimes I forget that.  Gotta work on that shit.

My friends are the most incredible people in the world.  I'm crying right now just thinking about it.  I was thinking about some shit and started to tear a little when I was hanging out with some people and Ash just started singing to me and playing guitar, she was just making up a song off the top of her head asking me not to cry and then when i ( Read more... )

with each and every one of my friends.  Oh my god, what an unbelievable group of people.  I feel so honored to know any of them, to laugh with them, to listen to music or drink with them; each and every minute with them is like a gift they've given me ( Read more... )

Holy crap I am so thoroughly screwed it's unbelievable.  How did I let this happen ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in my room drinking Pabst and watching "She's All That" and crying.  I think I'm suffering from a horrible case of "infatuation."

::sigh::  Why why why oh WHY.

Fuckit, I'm moving on to vodka.

Why do people keep bothering me?  Can't really say no but I can't really deal with people right now either.  I just don't wanna talk to anybody.  I've got nothing to say and so everyone kinda fucking irritates me right now.  People just fucking feed off each other like goddamn leeches.  When people wanna hang out, it's because they need something ( Read more... )

I am expected to leave my house and go socialize.  Why oh why must I deal with people every fucking night (my high school self is shitting herself right now hearing me say that because that's her dream come true).  Just, I'm not in the mood.  Probably because it's so fucking cold in my house (in Southern California in spring, wtf!?).  Course, I ( Read more... )

Why do strings feel so fucking good under my fingers?  And even when I'm in a bad mood, the way my fingers fly over the strings and frets just a little faster and easier than they did last month is enough to make me smile; to make my heart soar ( Read more... )