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i got a haircut
more make up
and im still not happy, stupid fucking body

i started IOP (intensive outpatient program) on wednseday, it was so fucking lame. and they make me eat dinner and everything sucks ass there.

It has been hard for me to talk lately, like ill start talking and nothing will come out cuz I feel like I'm gonna choke on my own spite. It is weird

My body isn’t as fucked up as one might think, all of these things happen at different times.

I finally got my medicine back. Oh how happy I am. i know how my life can be without it and all these ( Read more... )

it honestly feels like my stomach is going to explode
i fucking start to feel it bubbling inside, like it already ruptured. i am a little worried, it is painful

( I wanna meet this girl and thank her for giving me a hair cut I like…mine still doesn't look as good  )

i fucking got arrested yesterday. and had no other choice but to tell lynn and carrie, cuz it was at woodfield on my early leave, and they needed the car.
dj started fucking screaming at me. and i thought i was pregnant. all of this and i felt like shit. whatever

good playdate with avel
his friend was kinda awkward though....

everytime i look at her
i wonder how
i live this lie
thinking i can really live up to what i want
what she has already become

somedays i will live without...
nothing changes in this make up
of what we call skin.
sleep saturates my body
i could really live without....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TRICIA DEAREST!!!!!

I <3 YOU