Grieving for lost data.  Months or years, I can not tell, lost by arrogance.  All my mind can see now is the time it will take to piece back together, and how much will never be recoverable.  Anger surges, sadness beckons, but like any loss its disturbing how fast we get back into normal life.

A return to the civilized world ( Read more... )

A friend of mine passed away a couple days ago, and its thrown my mental structure into disarray.  At the moment, its extremly helpful to write everything down, as it gives substance to the flimsy motes that are my thoughts.  That's what I ussualy end up doing in times of stress anyways, to give some order to things.  most of it ends up going into ( Read more... )

            So, over all, 2008 was an enjoyable year to be in.  I think in the end it comes down to: “Could I have completely done without that year?  Would things in my life be better if I had just skipped it?”.  And I’m going to have to go with ‘no’ on that one.  2008 was a pleasant year, lets hope the others continue in such a fashion.

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November, national novel writing month, has come and gone, and once again I’ve failed to meet the goal of a 50,000 word novel. Not that many people have succeeded mind you, and in truth I try not to think of it in such black and white terms of “Success” or “Failure”. Hell, what I’ve written this month is more than I’ve done in the previous eleven ( Read more... )

Twas a dark and stormy night. Hey, I don’t get to say that often in California :) but in this case it was true. Even rained a bit. Halloween night was esspetially gloomy this year, most appropirate ( Read more... )

Okay, I admit, I may be a bit embittered on the concept of love, but I have to admit, I do enjoy weddings. The joy that radiates off the people there, its practically palpable. That look in their eyes, like nothing from then on could ever go wrong, filled with hope and peace, as if they were in the calm eye of the chaotic storm that is life. You ( Read more... )

Saw a shooting star (or meteor) last night. Wasn’t plannning on it, there was no scheduled astroid shower or meteor swarm like that. I was just getting something from the car and I stopped to look at the sky for a few seconds and voom, there it went. It felt kinda nice, that those things still happen without forethought or effort, makes the ( Read more... )

Slightly productive day. I gained understanding of the universe, spilt the blood of my adversary, and brought light unto darkness. Okay, technically true, I just enjoy adding some color to my musings :)

Three years. I've decided three years, maybe a bit more. That's how long my memory lasts. anything past that leaves Memory and turns into Fact. I havn't figured out the exact exchange rate yet, but that's close enough. Guess it gives me motivation to write here more often ( Read more... )