Tormented by a ghost, my transparent demon. ELUDED AGAIN.

And what is he to me,
a word on a page
a statue uncarved
a story unwritten

(AM I AUTHOR OR CHARACTER?)

Mirage or reality? This sandstorm is so unforgiving
but I fear I've created it myself.

"I surrender."

Prove your worth with stethoscope headphones.

Search out the rhythm, seek the underlying life.

If you find only silence, you have no meaning to me.

Hungry dirt, thirsty Earth, and she was the food and drink. She settled, she swayed, she rooted as does a tree. But the Land rejected her still.
She cried out to Her then, and her tears fed the seeds buried deep beneath her. Such was her purpose. She kept Her whole for eternity upon eternity.

Leaves and stems and flowers and fruit.
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Here marks the cessation of our struggling.

A n d   n o w   t h e   t r u t h   I s   e x p e l l e d   a s   f I r e   a n d   l I f e   a n d   a l l   t h a t   g o e s   u n s e e n   I n   a   
n o t I c e a b l e   f a s h I o n.

I   c a n ’ t   e v e n   s a y   y o u   l I e d .

You quoted me.

[ I wish I understood the context ]

What ribbons of obscure dreams flowed through you that night?  I couldn’t possibly be your saving voice.

But I could hope, I could hope.

Send these critics to hell with the rest of them.

We’ll press our bodies together and we'll call it love.

I won’t cry for you anymore.

I’m finished

With you.

Now Leave my head and leave my heart and leave me intact.

Because

there is nothing for you in me that isn’t in her. Search in me no longer.

Fuck this disease, this ache!  I’ve tired of your games.  It’s my turn to deal the cards and I will

follow no rules.