Today was a good day I got my medicines changed today, thank god that propranolol has been making me feel like a Zombie.  Now I can go through the days knowing what is going on arround me.  The Dr. also just put me back on Serequel, Im wondering why they even took me off of it in the first place, It what was helping me with the dreams in the first ( Read more... )

Two weeks ago when I filled out an application for a job I never expected to recieve anything back from the company.  They called me on thursday to tell me that they wanted to talk to me.  So today the man is going to speak to me.  This job as a virtual assistant can be exactly what I am looking for.  Of course I just went through all of the hard ( Read more... )

Today I started this mourning by going outside and playing with the dogs.  I then went around the yard and picked up sticks I then came inside to watch Nascar raceday.  My name is Tim Radzicki Im in a safe place Im in the present and not the past Im at home and the date is March 29 2009

Life is mine right now I will continue to challenge this every moment I have.  Im starting to feel more comfortable with my life by the positive choices I've decided to make in the past week.  There is something out there for me I just need to continue to build myself up.  Im not going to let my past like my nightmares hamper my life, those dreams ( Read more... )

On Thursday March 26th I had an epiphany come to my mind.  I wanted to finally lose my virginity to the person I most cared about.  I have waited this long in my life because I never met anyone that met anything to me, until right now.  I told this person that I wanted to have sex with her and she told me no.  If only she cared to trully know me on ( Read more... )

I am sitting here at the computer and Im so glad I have family support around me.  I still feel nautious on a daily basis but I am getting better.  Thanks for being my friend Cami.  I will continue to push forward.

Every day is a challenge for me.  Yesterday I had thought of driving my car infront of live traffic, I glad I didn't do it.  It doesn't solve anything trying to kill my self.  I know that is easy for me to say but I know living is more special than not.  and If I do hurt myself it will be all over, final, dead end, there will be nothing left Im not ( Read more... )

This week was a kind of sad but uplifting week I finished my partial hospitalization program and I was able to get some good talks with my family.  My dog really wants to spend alot of time with me she obviously has an intuition about wanting to make sure Im ok..  I will next pass on to the next phase of my life and that will include me taking the ( Read more... )

I have currently been in the partial hospitalization program at CMC Radolph for a total of 2 weeks I have met alot of great people while I have been in that program.  One person that I will miss very is a person by the name is Cami.  Even when I thought alot of what I told her was weird she still said that it was normal.  I still have my suicidal ( Read more... )

The words I type on this journal of mine are only important to myself.  I will continue to live and to love.  I just ran Gracie Ginny and Jinx on the bike outside.  Gracie continues to keep here strong running no matter what it doesn't seem like anything seems to depress or slow her down.  Gracie is a beautiful dog to me and she will always be.  I ( Read more... )