OMG how could i be so fuckin stupid. I love Clay. I really do. He makes me laugh he makes me smile, he's never done anything wrong to me. Yet, here i am fucking up like always. UGH why the fuck can't i just keep my mouth shut and grow up. I do need to grow up. If anyone knows a fast way of growing up let me know. I'd really love to know. I'm so ( Read more... )

Guys, i've done the stupidest thing possible. I messed up a great thing. Clay met Jason and Jason told him some things that were true. Some that weren't but since the others were true Clay believes Jason. Clay, i'm really really sorry. I don't know what i was thinking. I'm sorry i lied to you about talking to Jason. I'm sorry i hurt you. I love you ( Read more... )

MMMMK so today started off pretty well, i went to work, made a bunch of money and got off early. Then i called Clay and it wasn't good. He says if he finds out that i've been talking to Jason again, then we're over. I feel really bad, cause i love Clay a lot. Clay makes me happy and he makes my life complete. He's smart, and funny, and always keeps ( Read more... )

I should be headed into work right now. But i really don't want to go, but if we have extra waiters today i should go and be the first one there that way if we do i can be the one to leave. I'm soooo freakin tired. I seriously wish that i didn't have bills to pay and that i wasn't in debt and that i had all the money in the world. Cause if i did i ( Read more... )

DUDE i met Dennis Quaid last night, and got to serve him and shit. He's freakin tiny. I expected him to be a least 7 inches taller than he was. He was like 5'5" and has a tiny body. He was real sweet though. He called me "sweetheart" *blush* It was way cool, cause i wasn't even spost to be helping with the private party last night, but the owners ( Read more... )

Ok it's freakin 8:30 and Clay still hasn't called me. I'm freakin worried cause i have no way of getting ahold of him. His cell phone has been turned off, and i don't know his house number and i called the warehouse and no one's picking up. I'm getting really worried. Ya'll know me always thinkin the worst. It's just really weird, i usually have ( Read more... )

So today was my first day off in about a while. My grandparents are coming over tomorrow night, i have to take them to the airport Thursday morning. Not really sure what that has to do with my day off but oh well. I went to lunch with Cassie, it was a lot of fun. David was our waiter. He's such a sweetie. I like the benefits that come from ( Read more... )

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Dude i'm like talking to one of my sister's guyfriends and he's supposedly into me or whatever, and i'm totally fuckin with him. He's like making all the sexual advances towards me, it's really freakin funny. It's like the highlight of my day. ANyways, i was on my own today on the floor. Dude, the computers like totally went down today. And i had ( Read more... )

I work all day today with hopefully at least a 2 hour break. Last night i totally kicked ass at Pool. I beat Thomas 3x and then i beat Ashley 3x and then Thomas beat me. But at least i wasn't raped. I told Clay and now he doesn't want to play me in pool. He's skurred. LOL anyways, i'm almost done with training and i'm almost out of debt which is ( Read more... )