Fic. Watch Me Fall Apart (1/1)

[tardismate]

Author's Notes: Third in the 'Chasing the Demons' series. This is quite possibly the darkest fic I have ever written, or ever hope to write, come to that. It battled to be written, and I'm very nervous about posting it, knowing that some people on my flist have had personal experience of these issues. I hope you'll forgive me.

Comments

[doctorsdiva]

This is not in my experience but I recently told someone something that no one else knows. That sharing was very liberating and felt exactly as you described for Rose - without the added bonus of the Doctor to kiss it all better. This is powerful and beautifully written - I think there is truth here and although the truth can be painful, sometimes it needs to be said out loud.

*divahugs*

[tardismate]

Thank you love - it was a really hard thing to write, and brought me to tears on more than one occasion. Truth be told, it was a catharsis of sorts, based upon my own experiences of domestic abuse, and an amalgamation of some of the tales I heard during some group counselling I had afterwards.

I'm still not convinced that I should have posted it, but I felt that the tale needed to be told, one way or another. It has taken me years to get to this point, to feel able to address it, even if it is through the medium of fanfic.

[doctorsdiva]

You are brave and powerful and sometimes it does need saying!

*divahugs you hard*

[tardismate]

*hugs back just as hard*

[tardismate]

Thank you love *hugs*

It was a huge step to take, and I have to admit to being really scared to post it. I am so glad I did - just putting these things on paper helped, but by making it public, I found a sort of release, as if a weight has left my shoulders. ( bit of a cliche, maybe, but thats exactly what it feels like.)

[tardismate]

Thanks love...I promise I will never write anything so dark again, but this tale had to be told.

Now that it has, I can look forward, not back.

[mkejenkins]

Oh sweetie.....

You've read my work...you know where I'm coming from with this...

This is...wonderful. Sooooo incredibly beautiful...eloquent...moving...

Words fail me. You've handled the subject matter brilliantly. No apologies for this. You'll be amazed at how much it will help others. When I wrote the dedication to WTtD I was (and still am) astonished at how telling my story helped others.

Well done.

[tardismate]

*wipes eyes*

Thanks hon - from you, this comment means everything. *hugs*

You helped me when you wrote WTtD...now it's my turn to maybe make a difference to someone.

Every little helps, right?

[mkejenkins]

*passes tissues*

*hugs*

Exactly hon.

Now...would it be greedy to ask for the ficlet where Nine goes to meet Jimmy? *cackles evilly*

[tardismate]

Funny you should ask for that...*chuckles darkly*

I'm rather enjoying writing that one...funny that, isn't it? *tries - and fails- to look suitably innocent*

[seeing_history]

I rather like what you did with this after I sent it back to you. I'm really glad you think it helped.

[tardismate]

I'm really glad you think it helped.

Helped??? Your comments and suggestions make it go from okay to just perfect!!!

I'm so glad you liked what I did - your input was phenomenal, and exactly what it, and I, needed. Thank you hun *huggles*

I'm working on the next in the series - you for that one too? I promise it's nowhere near as dark...

[seeing_history]

I am up for anything and all you care to send me.