I'm so afraid. I don't want Jared to be worried and follow me to the afterlife should anything go wrong. well, he'll stick by me and that's all that matters. I love him so much, but lately I've just been so upset I'm not sure why. Well, I love you Jared. remember, forever means forever.

My purpose is failing. I'm failing my friends. I've tried and failed, tried and failed, and I just can't seem to succeed. It's like I'm taking a blade to my wrist every time I fail, and the slits only get bigger and deeper will every fail that happens. I'm tired of getting hurt from this. It's a suicide waiting to happen and i can't stand it. I don ( Read more... )

Okay my old account decided to be gay and so I started a new one and deleted my old one of youngdreamer. Anyways, being spoiled by my boyfriend's family isn't bad I must say. Though I think that I could grow used to it. I love him very much and when I'm excepted into the family from marriage I will officially feel like I'm home. Jared I love you ( Read more... )