take it one step at a time

[imnot_likeyou]

He wanted to be sure.

He couldn’t do that to any of them, but especially Dean or Jo. They didn’t deserve to have him say he was done and have it be like the previous time with Ruby. That was cruel and unusual punishment of the worst kind, and he needed to be sure that he was done. And considering he didn’t reach this point the last time around

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[huntersdaughter]

Sleep hadn't been easy the past few weeks. The bed that normally felt too small for two people, given Sam's height, felt more than just empty without Sam beside her. What sleep she could manage would be light, with her waking up every few hours, a bit unsure of her surroundings. As she rolled onto her stomach, she took in a deep breath through her nose. Stretching in bed, using her shoulders to push her back up a bit, and pull everything a bit more taut. Her stretch worked down her body, to her toes as she moved onto her side. Propping her head up on her hand she glanced around the darkness of the room, until her eye caught the fact that Sam's bag had been moved. She had been the one to bring him clothing, and she always put things back a certain way. This was not that way, and if something had happened... they should've woken her

[huntersdaughter]

Jo shrugged her shoulders as she tried to recall, "You got me, I just know he makes a face when Dean drinks his last beer."

Drying off while Sam watched her didn't bother her too much, there might've been a slight flush to her cheeks, but she didn't actually mind. However she hadn't expected to take a shower when she walked into the bathroom, so her clothing was still in the bedroom. Holding the towel in place across her chest she smirked, "I didn't expect to shower. My clothing isn't in here, I thought something had happened to you."

Leaning over toward him she leaned down kissing him, "I'm glad that it was this and not something else."

[imnot_likeyou]

He grinned as he kissed her back, his hands coming up to rest on her hips lightly as he kept her close. "Nobody's up -- should be able to make it back to the room okay."

[huntersdaughter]

Nodding into the kiss a bit she stood up before bending to pick up her clothing. "I'm not touching the clothes that need to be burned," she teased.

The bathroom was a short walk from their bedroom, and she actually liked the chill of the air outside the steamy bathroom on her skin. Moving through the hall she made it to the bedroom and moved toward the dresser where some of her clothing was kept. It had been instinct as of late to just wear one of his shirts, which was why she had done laundry recently. Now though she tugged a tank top on, along with underwear before picking her jeans from the pile she'd brought in from the bathroom.

Once she was dressed she hung the towel on the hook on the back of the door, and made a beeline for Sam. Wrapping her arms around him she just held onto him, her damp hair pressing to his shirt, as she just stood there leaning against him.

[imnot_likeyou]

Sam had collected his own clothes and tossed them in the corner where the rest of the laundry had been. By the time Jo was dressed, he had been moving to sit down at the end of the bed, but she caught him around the waist and he didn't stop her. His arms slid around her shoulders, pulling her in closer as his lips came to rest on top of her head. He was more than comfortable where they were. In fact, he would probably be pretty happy just staying like that all day, if he had the choice. He just didn't know if she would see it that way.

[huntersdaughter]

Shutting her eyes she breathed him in deeply, felt the steady beat of his heart, no longer labored by things that were pushing him too hard. She knew that it was always going to be a part of him, that there would always be a bit of the past lingering in him, but she was fine knowing that it wasn't going to lead his actions anymore.

Without pulling back, or away from him at all, she rested her cheek to his chest, "Are you hungry?"

[imnot_likeyou]

"Little bit," he said with a nod. "Can't remember the last time I had a full meal." And by full meal he meant more than a bowl of cereal or soup. He could actually really go for a cheeseburger, but he wasn't going to phrase that to her quite yet. He didn't want to run out somewhere else until he had a chance to talk to Dean and let him know he was okay.

[huntersdaughter]

"I can make you something," Jo offered, though not exactly ready to move away from him. She just buried her head against his chest, nuzzling closer to him and taking in deep steady breaths. "Or we can climb into bed and take a nap. I mean it's totally up to you."

[imnot_likeyou]

Sam considered that for a moment, before starting to back towards the bed again. The more he balanced it out, the more and more appealing that nap was starting to sound. "I think a nap sounds really good right about now, actually."

[huntersdaughter]

Her footing stumbled only slightly as he started toward the bed, and it didn't take much more from Sam than a confirmation that the bed was the direction they were headed. Pulling away from him, with a bit of hesitation, Jo moved to sit on the bed, stripping her jeans off. Mostly it was because she couldn't actually sleep in her jeans, and the other part was that she wanted to be as close to Sam as humanly possible.

Moving over she shifted onto her side, watching Sam as she got settled onto her side of the bed, "I can't believe I was up and showered before six. It's a good thing we're going back to bed, because I haven't been up this early in a long time."

[imnot_likeyou]

"My sleep schedule's totally screwed up," Sam shook his head, kicking out of his jeans and sliding back into bed next to her, sliding his arm around her waist as she went. "It'll take some work to get me back to normal -- or whatever we do that passes for normal."

[huntersdaughter]

Nodding, she curled up beside him, "I don't think any of us are on the usual late night schedule these days anyway. We'll work back to normal eventually."

The truth was that she had no clue really what they were going to do now. Things had sort of slipped out of their hands, and it wasn't like they could just ignore what had happened. He was out there somewhere, and if the demon activity being quiet was any sign, it wasn't a good one.

Though rather than focus on that, Jo focused on the way she fit next to Sam, on the way she felt with his arm around her. It was comforting and it was something she had for herself at the moment.

Inhaling deep, and exhaling slowly she leaned up and kissed Sam softly, biting her bottom lip a bit as she pulled back, "Don't scare me like that again, because it's really unfair that I can't kick your ass when you get like that."

[imnot_likeyou]

"I won't," he said, leaning forward and resting his forehead against hers, and pulling her closer. "I'm sorry, Jo. God, I'm so sorry."

He couldn't promise. Because he didn't know if he was strong enough, but he wanted to be better for her if for no one else. She didn't deserve to have to go through that with him again, especially after all of the things he'd seen.

"Thank you for not leaving," he murmured softly.

[huntersdaughter]

Jo nodded against his forehead, tilting slightly to brush a kiss to his mouth before settling back in bed beside him.

"I'm not going anywhere Sam, they had to carry me out of here to take me to the bar because I wasn't going to leave you," she smirked a bit at that, mostly able to laugh a bit more about it than she had that night, or the following morning.

"You're stuck with me Sam."

[imnot_likeyou]

He grinned a bit at that before his head tilted up and he dropped a kiss to the top of her head.

"I wouldn't have it any other way. Trust me."

[huntersdaughter]

"Good," she replied as she let out a short breath, smiling a bit as she shifted to roll onto her other side, letting her back rest to Sam's chest. She fit there with him, and she wasn't going to go anywhere, at least not until she'd slept for a bit with Sam actually in the same room, the same bed as her.