i'm in a horrible mood.

i'm never going to have another boyfriend again.

i'm talking to brian on the phone... it's one of those rare occasions where he is giving me good advice. i love him.

he got me a bottle of rum for my birthday.
<3

if i didn't have friends i'd probably kill myself.

i can't stand living in my house anymore. everyday i get into a fight with someone. i got into a fight with tj the other night cause he was bothering my mom...and he told me i was a "waste of life" and that i should go to the psychologist. i was just like "wow you wanna come with me? you're fucking insane" he thinks hes fucking high and mighty ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to the city with kristine. i thought it was gonna be a crappy day cause i woke up at 9 and it looked like it was gonna rain. but we caught the 2:00 train... and it was so nice outside. it was perfect. not too hot, not too cold. we went to her dads apartment. then to st. marks place. she got a new bat and i got a new bellybutton ( Read more... )

this whole week has sucked. everyday i feel horrible. but this week was the worst. friday i ended up in dianes office for 3 periods hysterically crying. i wish i was just a normal person. anxiety is completely normal. but the level of anxiety i have is ridiculous. imagine you're driving and you see a dog in the middle of the road so you swerve in ( Read more... )

"Memory can change the shape of a room; it can change the color of a car. And memories can be distorted. They're just an interpretation, they're not a record, and they're irrelevant if you have the facts ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday John Lennon.
rest in peace<3
October 9th, 1940 - December 8th, 1980

truly amazing.

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soooo.. i've been at pams for the past couple weeks. her moms coming home today. on sunday i went to the 311/unwritten law/papa roach concert with kristina, matt, pete, jay, and kristine. 311 is amazing live. we smoked... 6 blunts. fun times. got searched on the way in and we had to hide the pot in our pants. they had females searching. i was like ( Read more... )

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soooo.. yesterday i snapped out of my bad mood. finally went to pams. then we went to anthonys and chilled with chris..smoked a blunt and helped him fix up his room and shit. that girl alaina is fucking pissing me off. she like...lives there now. grr. anyways, we left kinda early.. it was like 1:30. we hung around pams house and decided to stop by ( Read more... )