i'm in a weird mood.
i can't stand living in my house anymore. everyday i get into a fight with someone. i got into a fight with tj the other night cause he was bothering my mom...and he told me i was a "waste of life" and that i should go to the psychologist. i was just like "wow you wanna come with me? you're fucking insane" he thinks hes fucking high and mighty because he has his associates degree and a job. it took him 4 years to get that degree (it's only supposed to take 2) and he fucking works in jcpenneys. i can't wait til i get older and become more successful than he is and just be like FUCK YOU BITCH. he pisses me off. a few days ago my mom had a memory lapse..and it scared the shit out of me. my dad was like "what time is it?" and she couldnt answer him. she couldnt speak. and she couldnt remember the number for her job..or anyones names. and she couldnt write. i got so overwhelmed i just threw up. and then i went to school hysterically crying. i can't take this. i don't understand why i have to swallow so much shit in my life. i know everyone has their problems. but there are just way too many in my life right now.
but i have reasons to be happy...
i like someone.
and i think they like me back.
but then again, i'm not sure. i don't want to get my hopes up... cause i always do that, and then things never work out.
but i kissed him and he kissed me back.
i'm scared of relationships.
what if he just wants to hook up?
i like this song..
people like you and me
will never know the easy way
i scream into the wind
and laugh as the words slap me in the face
i would gladly trade a lifetime
of convenience for an honest day or two
it's just not the same when you're staring into a perfect golden sunset and thinking about how you sold your soul to send the rain away
it's been so long since i've stood on my two feet
i'd really rather lay here and pretend but people like you and me never get that peace
it comes from denying that everything is so screwed up, it's so screwed up i stand on a building and throw up my arms to the sky
i swallow my pride and admit that it's not always best to understand the reason why
it's just not the same when you wake up in the morning with a smile on your face
when you know you lied yourself to sleep to make it better.
mineral is good.
but i have reasons to be happy...
i like someone.
and i think they like me back.
but then again, i'm not sure. i don't want to get my hopes up... cause i always do that, and then things never work out.
but i kissed him and he kissed me back.
i'm scared of relationships.
what if he just wants to hook up?
i like this song..
people like you and me
will never know the easy way
i scream into the wind
and laugh as the words slap me in the face
i would gladly trade a lifetime
of convenience for an honest day or two
it's just not the same when you're staring into a perfect golden sunset and thinking about how you sold your soul to send the rain away
it's been so long since i've stood on my two feet
i'd really rather lay here and pretend but people like you and me never get that peace
it comes from denying that everything is so screwed up, it's so screwed up i stand on a building and throw up my arms to the sky
i swallow my pride and admit that it's not always best to understand the reason why
it's just not the same when you wake up in the morning with a smile on your face
when you know you lied yourself to sleep to make it better.
mineral is good.