i haven't updated in awhile. the end of summer was awesome, almost made up for the whole shitty summer i had. best times
♥
school started and its so bland, but everyone knows school sucks. good first weekend of school though.
so much shit happened the past couple of weeks, but it's too much too type.

It's just the lines, they get so blurry
Between what is once, and now required
And I don't know on which side his heart falls
But I know where mine is buried
And it's so far from any wanting
Yeah, it needs this to keep beating
It won't go on without it

everything is a fucking mess. steve broke up with me the other night, so i've obviously been a wreck, then a person who hurt me so many times, and who i stopped associating with becuase of all the pain she caused me, goes cuases me even MORE pain, just goes to show you what kind of person she is. just tell me...what have i done to you? you need ( Read more... )

pretty shitty day. i was sick with a sore thorat and shit, so i left work at like 10 came home and slept for 4 hours and woke up with a mad fever. it sucks, i feel like shit. i am going to bed with the hope of feeling better tomorrow.

so all my lovin' go's ( Read more... )

the past week has been completely miserable. alot of shit has been going on. i was able to resolve some things, so that's good. everything seemed so clear, and now im not satisfied with anything. i'm not happy with the relationship i am in, and i never thought it would be like this, at least not this soon. i just feel like everything good has ( Read more... )

tonight was the worst fucking night. like i don't even want to wake up ever, seriously. i have the worst feeling inside of me, like i have nothing left for me. i feel like giving up on on something that meant so much to me. and now im at that stage where i don't know what to do, try or give up. and i am definately leaning towards giving up ( Read more... )

past couple days have been good times. wednesday was steve's birthday, so we hung out and he got his license which is awesome. And he's my lovely boyfriend as of wednesday which is amazing. and i haven't been this happy in soooo long ♥ thursday i hung out with corey and we saw fahrenheit 911. most influential movie/documentary i have ever seen ( Read more... )

I just found out that a really close family friend, Harry, just died last night. I usually handle death well. I don't dwell on it becuase I know people need to move on, and I always try to think about the good things. But when my mom told me he died, I broke down in tears, uncontrolable tears. I haven't seen him in two years, and that's the ( Read more... )

Good times this weekend, got to see my beautiful ♥

I've gotten to the point where I realized that I don't need anyone. And it's a great state of mind to be in. People go in and out of your life, good and bad, but in the end the only person who is constantly there 100% is yourself. So even if I reach a point where I don't have anyone, I'd be ( Read more... )

I am finally not grounded anymore and this week went by so slow ( Read more... )