I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken it's place.

Some days just blow.

I want so badly to believe That there is truth And love is real And I want life in every word To the extent that it's absurd.
Today was a beautiful day, for so many reasons. I wonder how Matty is feeling at this very moment. I wish that psychic twin shit would kick in. I wish it were mid-June. I wish I could hop in my car and head for the pacific ( Read more... )

We must stare into a crystal ball and only see the past And in the caverns of tomorrow with our flashlights and our love We must plunge, we must plunge, we must plunge Millions of thoughts and feelings. More tomorrow. I miss my brother.

There is a patient at our facility named Ardis Hunter, and she has unknowingly conjured a soft spot in my soul. My best guess is that she is in her mid-80's. She's fairly new; she hasn't been there much more than a week. Every time I see her, sympathy and compassion tug at my heartstrings. She is confused and utterly lost in this place. Every day ( Read more... )

I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here
Here with me

It has been both a refreshing and depressing month thus far.
The majority of my time between obligations is spent driving. Driving leaves bountiful room for thinking. And thinking makes room for remorse.
The second my brother and I get ( Read more... )

"I learn and re-learn that silence doesn't protect me. An unexpressed life is very painful to myself and those I love. "
-Sabrina Ward Harrison, the epitome of THE woman us bitches all strive to be. Contrary to popular belief, it's not Angelina or Paris. At the end of the day, all we truly want is to achieve this level of self-awareness  and this ( Read more... )

"With a little more deliberation in the choice of their pursuits, all men would perhaps become essentially students and observers, for certainly their nature and destiny are interesting to all alike. In accumulating property for ourselves or our posterity, in founding a family or a state, or acquiring fame even, we are mortal; but in dealing with ( Read more... )

Mom and I stocked up on Two-Buck-Chuck from Trader Joes. We must have gone through 4 bottles of white wine in the last 24 hours. I'm watching some bootleg version of Pineapple Express, gathering school supplies, exchanging knock-knock jokes with my brother  2,500 miles away via text message, and working hard on not seeing double. Everything is ( Read more... )

And airports see it all the time
When someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home,
In hand, a single rose.

Matthew is gone again. I haven't thought about what this means yet. I don't really know where he's going when he's finished up in Georgia. Everything's sort of a blur because of what happened in November with ( Read more... )

So I'll file away all my dreams
Though I still believe in everything.

I think I like my job. And I think I don't like my job

There's about 40 elderly residents, and there's usually at least 15 that roam the halls to pass the time, because there is just so much of it. And it's never enough.

Some are completely  aware and just need assistance. Some are ( Read more... )