that little opener there was some lyrics i thought of last night. Alright, i know i hardly ever post on this any more and the only times i do is when i've got something to bitch about. I'm usually fairly happy, but wow.. i'm not right now. There is a number of things bothering me. First and foremost the udder unstabilitly in my relationship. ( Read more... )

I haven't done this thing for a bit. Things are going ok on my end. not great, but ok. My knees still really hurt and i can't run, jump, skate, or do anything athletic. Urgh. The doctor said that the only thing i can do is wait fo it to fix itself. i guess everything else is fine. I don't work on friday which kicks so much ass. I'm getting Derr-unk ( Read more... )

So many thing are completelt inevitable right now, and it's the worst things possible. I see another dark period in my life about to start. It's coming on like a storm. Not a light one either. I see very dark times in this here head of mine. I never pictured any of this to happen. I never thought i would be the disaster holding you down. Maybe ( Read more... )

Thats all that I see. I can invision it right in fromt of me. My whole life crashing in on itself. And i can't wait for that to happen. Maybe then i'll realize what i'm here for. SOme of you will take this in different ways then others, but i assure everyone it is because on no one specific. It's all just me. I hate myself, i always have and always ( Read more... )

hey, i haven't posted in a bit. not much to say though. I'm workin hard at the encore. God damn that job is hectic. My back hurts. I should be really tire, but i'm not and i want to have something to do. meh, oh well. So liz withdrew from IU and is moving back to indy. We're still going to be together, but i fear things. well, i'm not going to ( Read more... )

wow i had a big wory this morning. i though i was going to "join the framing business." that for any mall rat heads. I though liz was leaving me from a conversation we had. truely i was scared. i was really hard on myself this morning and now i feel weird for being that way. i hope no one read the post that i have now changed.

Has anyone had a near death experience? Well i had one today, and didn't know it at first. I totaled my car today. I hit some sand ran off the road and into a tree. Head on. Luckely i got slowed down enough to be ok. MY knees are a little fucked up. i don't know how muc thought. The last place i wanted to go was a hospital. The tree i hit had a ( Read more... )

Why? Why did it have to snow last night. I thought we were through this shit. oh well, i think i"ll take some picture of it. Well, i have a busy next few hours. I have to go to my moms place, take some picture, take them to photo solutions and make it to class by 3:30. I hope i can do it. Wish me luck

"Two bags of grass, seventy-five pellets of mescaline, five sheets of high-powered blotter acid, a salt shaker half-full of cocaine and a whole galaxy of multicolored uppers, downers, screamers, laughers. ...A quart of tequila, a quart of rum, a case of Budweiser, a pint of raw ether and two dozen amyls ( Read more... )

I looked at this and it was completely true. ALmost everything in my month was right about me. so i guess everyone should try it ( Read more... )