I'm happy that break is coming up real soon. i'm sick of people and their problems. All in all, just a few more days and then tyler, rich, and i are gunna be boardin it up at boyne mountain! It should be pretty interesting with them trying to teach me how to snow board down those huge hills ( Read more... )

i'm getting my tickets today for my flight and i think i am leaving either the 26th or the 27th and then coming back the 3rd. i'm looking forward to it. Brittany and Lindy are planning for me and i can't wait to stay with them. Then hopefully they will help me make my final decision, which really needs to be made.

that day just needs to get here.

So i look in your direction
but you pay me no attention.
do you?

and you know how much i need you.
but you never even see me.

i'll always be waiting for you.

And i still have not met the requirements.
of the perfect song.
on the perfect drive.
to make me feel infinite.

And i know that things get worse before they get better, but this is a worse that feels too big.

What I am to you is not real.
What I am to you you do not need.
What I am to you is not what you mean to me.

so i felt like i was over it but i guess i'm back to being under. i don't know how i'm suppose to react or feel to this. hmm.. i really want to go down to purdue one of these weekends. i need a break. it seems like nothing can come soon enough for me. am i that impatient ( Read more... )

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN IT'D NEVER LAST.

i am going to baltimore for christmas and i wouldn't be very upset if i could never return to this place. i've been doing some thinking. i don't know what it is but there is this urge i have inside me. i just need to be there. i'm tired and i want to go home. that's my home. who knows. who knows. ahh ( Read more... )

So the wake was hard. I don't know if I'm ever going to get use to this change. I never wanted it to in the first place but... i guess all things come to an end. The part i can't get out of my head is how much i would of rather seen someone else take that. You didn't deserve it.