Life going unnoticed seems to be so easy for me now days. Its like life just passes me by and all i can see is what i had and what i want once more but yet i cant have it. What does it take to move on ... or even get my life back that i once had before all went to the shit hole? its just so difficult.

So ... yes i went to chico and humboldt this last weekend and i made my decision and i decided to go to Chico. IM SO EXCITED. i cant wait to leave and live there. its soooo pretty and im actually gonna be on my own. although as it says "on my own" im gonna miss all my friends from here but no matter what im gonna keep in touch since im usually the ( Read more... )

So today i went to SDSU for this thing with A.Ch.A and it was a lot of fun. We got free gifts. And i called my friend and she told me about her night out and then i got home and my friend asked me to go to a party with her ... and you can all find out what im doing tonight ... NOTHING. Absolutely NOTHING. My parents said NO. they wont allow me to ( Read more... )

the rules in my house are freaking ridiculous. I cant lend out clothes ... how lame is that. i mean how many of you have personally leant out a dress or clothes to a friend? i mean honestly. I get in trouble now because i did how do my parents get these rules. They are so dumb. ERG im just not in the mood today ( Read more... )

Ok so today i went to the chico presentation ... that was pretty awesome. I had a lot of fun talking to the people afterwards ... there were some pretty hot guys there i must say .. i think they were altering my decision of WANTING to go there even more... lol j/k. It got me pumped up to go ... so who knows till the 19th when i go to humboldt and ( Read more... )

I sent out yet another package. It was full of nice stuff. it had a hat a shirt a card and a picture. I really hope the one who recieves it will like it. I spent a lot of money on it. I think post office ladies should be a little nicer. I dont usually send out packages and the ladie that helped me wasnt very nice. She was like "just write it" i ( Read more... )

Wow its been a long time since i have been on this thing. But its not like many people read them anymore anyways. But life has been itself lately. NOTHING GOOD HAS COME OUT OF IT. I feel like my life has no purpose but then when i do something nice i feel like i do but that im just going to be broughten down with something else. So im stuck. And ( Read more... )

seriously who cares anymore? life is just coming down to 1.) dying or 2.) wasting time making peoples lifes miserable or 3.) wishing you had something that you will never have again ( Read more... )

i dont know what i am any more. Im hurt, confused, depressed, happy, ready to break through my own barriers, sick of being a push over, tired of being heart broken, lonely, sad. i just cant make up my mind. out of all of these emotions i think i am hurt, lonely, and tired of being heart broken the most. i just cant take it anymore. i want it to be ( Read more... )

Lifes a pain in the ass. i mean i can pretty much deal with whatever life has to throw at me but lately i can't. i can't deal with the distance i cant deal with us being over. i can't deal with economics, i can't deal with people having a problem with the way i have been taking care of my OWN problems. i can't even deal with the fact that im going ( Read more... )