Who cares anymore?
seriously who cares anymore? life is just coming down to 1.) dying or 2.) wasting time making peoples lifes miserable or 3.) wishing you had something that you will never have again.
isnt life just wonderful. i think i am going with 1. then again 3 because i wish i was gone. i wish that everything would be ok again. i wish that i could make things right and be back with the one person that i loved. i wish that i could make him happy again. i wish i could .... freakin a i wish i could do everything just to have him back.
you know how you dont leave on a bad note but then you mess things up when theyre gone and you regret it soooooooooooo much. yeah i did that. what the hell? im freaking dumb. i cant believe that i did that to the one person that meant something in my life. i dont know if i can take it anymore. im just in too much pain. i have tried so many things to get him off my mind and it just doesnt work.
Just to try to look at things in a some what positive way .... i think today was definately the day that i had the most fun since the love of my life left. i finally was able to go out and be myself again. i was able to express myself and laugh all day. all thanks to a wonderful friend. woo woo
oh and yesterday was awesome as well. i think i am finally getting into being able to get out and see the light again.
before i stayed home wishing i could be .......
isnt life just wonderful. i think i am going with 1. then again 3 because i wish i was gone. i wish that everything would be ok again. i wish that i could make things right and be back with the one person that i loved. i wish that i could make him happy again. i wish i could .... freakin a i wish i could do everything just to have him back.
you know how you dont leave on a bad note but then you mess things up when theyre gone and you regret it soooooooooooo much. yeah i did that. what the hell? im freaking dumb. i cant believe that i did that to the one person that meant something in my life. i dont know if i can take it anymore. im just in too much pain. i have tried so many things to get him off my mind and it just doesnt work.
Just to try to look at things in a some what positive way .... i think today was definately the day that i had the most fun since the love of my life left. i finally was able to go out and be myself again. i was able to express myself and laugh all day. all thanks to a wonderful friend. woo woo
oh and yesterday was awesome as well. i think i am finally getting into being able to get out and see the light again.
before i stayed home wishing i could be .......