it's been a really long time since i've been on here and im not really sure why i am posting now. Alot has changed in my life, everything has changed in my life and man is it great. I enjoy existing. Denis and I went to Grapevine and Tulsa this weekend. It was realyl relaxing a glorious vacation of the cheapest and shortest nature. I was only ( Read more... )

it's a certain type of seclusion that rips my stomach and burns my soul ( Read more... )

this is a note to anyone who goes to retail store or goes to eat out. If you treat the people who serve you poorly, you have a special place in hell reserved for you. If you go out to eat unless your waitress is a brainless moron who does nothing right and is rude to you, you tip her 20 %, nothing less is acceptable, and when its a 29$ tap dont ( Read more... )

wouldn't it be easy if life was like a dry erase board. You could simply write down what happened and when the time came where that memory was so excruciating, just poof, you could erase it. I guess you wouldnt learn very much and you might not grow but sometimes i need the eraser more than i need growth ( Read more... )

i can't help myself from smiling and it seems lately that i am in perpetual motion except when im sleeping which i don't get much of because im getting jacked in the face by one of the reasons thats making me smile ( Read more... )

so this is summer....not all that great but nice kinda ( Read more... )

i feel trapped in this awkward state of limbo, i'm not really going anywhere, i feel that i am falling into the wretchedness of being content. I promised myself long ago that this wouldn't happen because this feeling of security is something that i doubt i will ever desire

i think that people are just dense ( Read more... )

i dont believe anyone anymore
theres a steel plate over my heart
and this time it doesnt want to be broken off
its hard to no what to believe when you are swimming in a sea of lies
its better to keep everyone at arm length
til they take the time to cut off your arm

As the black sky hung all around my body it reminded me that i was alive, rain drops pierced my skin and i was umcomfortably cold but, by God i was alive. I have reigned 19 years on this earth, and sometimes my existence becomes so muddled with meaningless shit that I forget how soft rain feels and how bodies melt together when they are stacked on ( Read more... )