After the biggest fight she and Leonard had ever had, Dani went back home to cry alone in her room. It wasn't long before her mother came in questioning her
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Leonard was angry too - at both her, and himself. He knew he should have been far more rational about things. He knew really that she wouldn't flirt with someone else. She barely flirted with him; she was shy, and he knew that wasn't her style. But it just looked that way. And it hit the wrong nerve
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She exhaled a relieved breath. At least they had sorted that out. But as for the rest, she wasn't sure how to fix that. "I don't know either. I guess... it just feels like you are. I... I'll try to believe you when you say you aren't." She nibbled on her fingernail, just as nervous as he was.
"I don't wanna lose you, but I feel like there's something wrong with me, and I dunno how to fix it."
She rubbed at her forehead, considering this. "You think so?" She could see what he was getting at. She had no confidence in herself because she had low self esteem. But that wasn't something she could just miraculously get over.
"Make more friends, for one. Uh... maybe join a club or something?" he asked her curiously. He didn't really have any other ideas. He himself wasn't brimming with confidence. He only really had confidence in himself and what he could do with his education and career.
The thought of joining a club terrified her. Maybe she could do it if he was in the club with her... but no, she couldn't rely on him like that, as much as she might want to.
"I think... a club would be a little too much. But... I made a friend yesterday, and I didn't think it was bad at all. I could make more."
"Yeah.. yeah," friends with the guy that touched her arm like that. Great. "I'm sure you can. An' you know, more friends you have, the more your confidence will grow."
"Yeah." She could never see herself having a large number, but a few good friends would help her. Taking a deep breath first, she whispered, "I love you."
He was silent for a moment, a few tears sliding down his cheek. He loved her too, so much. "I love you too. I-- was so scared that you were dumpin' me."
She could hear in his voice just how upset he was, and that set her off crying again. "I'm sorry! It's all my fault. I-I gave up. Because I felt helpless. I'm really, really sorry."
"You-- it's okay. We-- we're not breakin' up, so it's okay," he replied, trying his best to calm her, to mask how he himself felt. Right now he was torn between not wanting to talk, to just curl up in bed, and to go to her to hold her.
"Are, are you ok?" She sniffled and blew her nose again. She never should have sent him that message. She had worried him and upset him. She was a terrible girlfriend.
"Yeah... yeah of course, I'm okay," he replied, trying to cover. Trying to not upset her any further. He was tired; not surprising considering his lack of sleep the night before.
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"I don't wanna lose you, but I feel like there's something wrong with me, and I dunno how to fix it."
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"What should I do?"
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"I think... a club would be a little too much. But... I made a friend yesterday, and I didn't think it was bad at all. I could make more."
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"Ok, I was worried. You sounded upset."
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