I keep having these intense dreams that make me question everything I've done the last two years. I know that what we did was the right thing, but it doesn't stop me from missing the good that I still see. Its frustrating to be happier and lonelier at the same time. Actually, I think the most frustrating part of this is that its been almost two ( Read more... )

Had a really good time this weekend minus all the work drama. Getting your friend fired is never a good feeling, even if you think its for the best. I wish she would see it as a sign that she needs help, but as Ive witnessed so many times before, she will not. It will be one more thing that the world and her friends have conspired against her, the ( Read more... )

Ive been meaning to write in here but it seems anytime I try to put words down they are never really what I want to say ( Read more... )

 Sometimes reality is too damn vivid.

I wanted to go to the zoo today, but its raining. I was hoping it would be nice like yesterday.

My paper journal is no where to be found. It has to be here somewhere seeing as how it never leaves my room. I have a few more places to look. This is what I get for cleaning my room. I cant find anything.

It should ( Read more... )

 I am now a quarter of a century old... How strange.

My birthday night confused me, I don't understand the thought behind coming to hang out with the family.. I dunno. this is not the place to be thinking about such things.

Finished 2 really good books but found them both to be depressing and need to move on to something light hearted and funny. ( Read more... )

I hate when people are sneaky. Perhaps a longer phone call when he's back in the state... Why do I even care? I dunno.

I sign up for classes on Monday, I'm pretty excited to get back to school. Even more excited to get closer to being done.

Hopefully next week I'll be up to visit KP since I haven't seen her in way too long and I need someone I can ( Read more... )

I am refusing to throw a tantrum today. 
I will have a pleasant day I will smile and damnit, I will have a good time. 
Now I just need to find something to do.

You make my head spin in a not pleasant way.  

Sometimes I wish Maeve was right. Everything points to her being wrong and its very disappointing. Mainly because I started to let myself believe that there was the possibility of it being true, while knowing better in the process ( Read more... )

Bumbling through life.
Oh hurry up. 
I prefer later to be sooner.

I found a box of books I hadn't read yet. I'm pretty stoked at my growing collection of piles of paper.  Where to start is the question of the day.

I registered to go back to school. While I'm not enthralled with the idea of schoolwork, I actually am looking forward to getting my brain ( Read more... )

Every time I'm around you I keep waiting for something.

Sideways glances yield nothing and end with the want of demanding a reaction. I hold my tongue instead.

Spoken words are never quite what I am waiting for so I twist them to mean anything but what you are saying.

I lay awake for hours spouting conversations that never happened- never will ( Read more... )