My cat has kidney failure and she is dying. Thinking about her not being here is incredibly difficult. My earliest memory is when we got her. I've never lost a pet before and I don't know how to do this. I keep finding myself crying and it is no fun at all. Why can't she live forever, this isn't fun.

My thesis teacher told me to read a book to get ideas about how to write my thesis. Reading it, I'm doubting whether I can actually write this paper - I don't know if I can get through it. I think it might be too personal, too soon. I want to write this as a way of freeing myself - but I don't know if I'm ready - I'm doubting that I'm "cured". I ( Read more... )

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind ( Read more... )

I've been so lonely in France with all of the recent drama, all I have wanted was a hug from my parents and I was going to get it tomorrow.

And then a volcano erupted a million miles away and now they aren't coming to France at all. Either is my aunt so my trip to Prague has also been canceled.

I want to go home. I want a friend here.

Today when I logged onto livejournal it prompted me with this question ( Read more... )

I love France, but I miss having my friends around.

Sometimes studying abroad feels very lonely.

One week.

Way to many emotions to even begin describing.

Today I decided to look at all of my old photos on facebook ( Read more... )

You light the skies up above me ( Read more... )

Fuck my life. I'm done.
It's horrible to know you are all alone without any chance of anything getting better.
I'm tired of feeling like this, I'm tired of the pain.
All I want is for someone to call and ask if i'm ok, because i'm not and i need a friend.