Last week Sunday, I got back and was a total wreck. For the most part, I was able to keep my composure because I was distracted by other things and didn’t have the chance to become upset. I hid my emotions, hid my heartbreak and hid my tears. But it didn’t mean she wasn’t on my mind. Most of it has been small memories of my time with her instead of ( Read more... )

I was sitting on the plane Sunday morning, trying not to burst into tears. It was hard to keep my composure thinking of what had just happened over 24 hours. As I began to type some of this, I can't help but think that my pain is nothing compared to what's going back in Texas. I was going through security and I was shaking so bad because I was so ( Read more... )

Who knew one simple text message would force me back to Houston.

Wednesday, I went into work at 8 and headed out at 2 only to come home to having to pack my own stuff and getting Nicole ready to move; and prepare ourselves for the big drive to North Carolina on Thursday. I spent most of the afternoon helping load the truck, moving furniture and all that crap. After helping out a little bit, I grabbed some things ( Read more... )

Tuesday morning, I arrived at work twenty minutes early with the biggest smile on my face. Everyone wondered why and I couldn't even begin to tell them. Although I had barely gotten any sleep Monday night into Tuesday morning, that didn’t matter because of where I was and who I was with. I wasn't tired one bit (until later on tonight). I’m a little ( Read more... )

If at the end of this, you think I'm crazy, then think it. But no one can possibly understand how intense and how real my feelings and my thoughts are right now. All week, I've been stressing and thinking about Andy. It's been difficult. He's been on my mind like crazy. No matter what I do, I can't stop thinking about him and I know what my problem ( Read more... )

You keep me wondering why...and all I do is sigh...

I have a massive problem and I don't know what to do about it ( Read more... )

Let me tell you: that I had one of the best weekends EVER!!!!!!!

Now, this ranks up there. This has to rank #2 under "Best Weekends" ever which falls right under #1--my 21st birthday. Yes! It was that fuckin' awesome. It hit me today while I was rushing to work that I underestimated just how spectacular and phenomenal my weekend really was. And ( Read more... )

The other night, I was heading to the gym when I passed by someone I worked with on the Judicial Hearing Board and he was like, “Hey, was your father here this weekend?” and I was like, “Uh, no, why?” and he was like, “I saw this older guy, he looked just like you…thought it might have been your Dad,” and I just smiled and shrugged. Inside, I felt ( Read more... )

Although I’m pretty young, I can say for sure that I’m ½ and ½ on wanting kids. I enjoy kids for the most part. I have five nephews and one niece. My ex-boyfriend has a 6-year old who I love and adore as if he were my own. And I know that if anything ever happened to any of them, I’d be devastated. I’m deeply disturbed by all the news revolving ( Read more... )