One of the difficult things about being depressed is you want to make the effort to talk to people and feel connected. You want to reach out to someone to say "hi how are you" But you know its going to go "hi how are you" "good. how are you?" "fucking terrible ( Read more... )

Sometimes i think i havnt tried hard enough to find love. But how many times am i supposed to try. Why should finding love feel like making an argument. Youd think real love is self evident. Why do i have to argue. Its not magic, i know that. But i dont want love to be like car shopping. And im the used car salesman: "this love is as good as new, ( Read more... )

One of "those dreams" where I felt like iv had a lot, but im not sure if thats just part of the dream ( Read more... )

my lovers dont love me.

Theres a thing about sports media around here. When a player leaves town, for whatever reason whether it be trade or free agency, the local media tends to come out with a few "hit pieces." Stuff they never wouldv published with the player in town... a sort of way to get fans on the side of the team and justify the decision ( Read more... )

do sea ships dream of space ships ( Read more... )

what can i do if you dont want me?
who should i want for the chance of being wanted back?
Im done with unrequited. I dont want to be jaded about this, but how can i flirt and pretend with someone else when all i can see is this.

A decision. Thats all love ever was. Not a magic potion.. the reward of a cruel fairy tale, a trick of the moon, or a rail-road built by gods. Emotions get us high, a favorite past time of ours. We somehow forget that under every rollercoaster a decision was made to get on ( Read more... )

I told her how i felt again. She said "why? im a mess" I think maybe id say the same thing if somebody was interested in me.

I dont know what to do.

that youre just slowly making someone you care about not like you anymore ( Read more... )