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sunsplash

Once again, Time Marches on...

Feb 13, 2008 14:17

My days are getting better. I still find it hard to believe that Buster is gone. He was such a big presence in the house, both literally and figuratively. I keep reliving his final moments. How heavy his head was and the fact that the same hands I am typing with are the ones that were holding him ( Read more... )

sadness, sad, buster, death, dogs

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mokie12 February 13 2008, 20:05:49 UTC

Thanks for sharing it. I can't imagine how hard it was for you to be there with him... but I didn't see you not being in there with him.

I've shared many a memory of Buster with you and even though you aren't in town anymore, it was always conforting to hear his bark when I called you. He was always fun to spend time with when I watched your house. I could always count on him to check on me or to make me feel protected when I was scared.

I'm happy you were there with him in the end. I'm sure he knew you were there and it made his passing more comfortable for the both of you.

*hugs*

I'm here for you if you need me!

sunsplash February 13 2008, 21:27:44 UTC

Letting me talk about him last night really helped. I appreciate you lending an ear to yet ANOTHER teary conversation. Heh.

mokie12 February 13 2008, 23:27:23 UTC

Umm... it's my job! Duh! Remember when I called you at 3 AM when R had crashed the truck? Remember when you came outside at 1 AM to hose R's vomit off the Jetta after his work's Christmas party? Why does every late night call involve poo head?

It's what friends do, silly!

steforama February 13 2008, 20:14:22 UTC

It sounds like his last day was a great one for him :)

I still miss our dog from when I was younger and I dread the inevitable day for both of our cats.

sunsplash February 13 2008, 21:36:06 UTC

Can you look back and smile about the dog memories, though? I just really hope that happens eventually. I don't want all my thoughts of him to be sad...

steforama February 13 2008, 21:57:58 UTC

Oh definitely. Thinking about her death makes me sad, but everything else is a good, happy memory.

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sunsplash February 13 2008, 21:36:40 UTC

I have NO idea how Joe does it. NONE.

mimimimi_word February 13 2008, 20:55:30 UTC

I'm so sorry. I'm so glad you were with him. They are our family members. I have 2 dogs and 2 cats. 1 dog and 1 cat are very close to me. My doggy, Trevor (Springer Spaniel)follows me to each room, waits outside the bathroom, etc. He's young-ish at 7, but isn't the healthiest dog...so I have had the thoughts of when he dies. I will be a quaking glob of goo in the corner.

Mourn him for as long as you need to...don't rush yourself

sunsplash February 13 2008, 21:33:16 UTC

We think Kia is about 7. She's put on some weight since we got her 4 years ago. She's a lot more comfortable with us than she was with her previous family. I think she's put on something like 30 pounds since we got her. She was skittish and used to being alone all the time. I don't think she ate much, plus her previous owner always walked her.

I didn't have that option. Buster had a torn ACL so he couldn't do walks very well, then when the cancer attacked a different bone, it was definitely a no-go.

I am working on playing with her more and getting her active outside. She's just a different dog, and not one that we've had since puppydom. It is interesting getting to know her all over again. She's really playful, but Buster was a barker, which scared her into stopping playing everytime.

I will miss a real tug of war battle. He won most of the time. I didn't even 'let' him win!!

oduschone February 13 2008, 21:53:57 UTC

I don't think you're silly at all, and you're not "droning". Something important - life changing - happened to you. Of course you miss him!! While I've never really "loved" a dog - I kinda liked Murph, but only kinda - I know what you're going through is very difficult, and I hope you know that I am here for you... any time.