Despite the past two weeks of pure paranoia and heartache, the tears and waking up at 3AM missing him when he's so far away, of feeling so inadequate and pathetic, of wanting him and silently willing him to want me back, despite the coldness and change and hurt he made me feel, I know it'll take a little more than awhile for me to pick myself and ( Read more... )

The mindless cycle of crash dieting, working till 11 then studying till 2 or 3 in the morning then waking up for school at 7 was draining but not mind occupying. The Os are in a scary 20ish days, Im drained and fed up. So what's next? What's new?

The flame licks your finger, but it doesnt hurt. Its a nice warm feeling and you feel the heat creeping through your finger, then your palm, arms to the neck and a burst of goosebumps down your spine. Warms the toes even. Then you sit there, mesmerised, hand still in the flame and all of a sudden, just like that, you get burnt ( Read more... )

The fact that sounds of fictional characters are being shot with loud cussing everywhere isnt really helping.

Some nights I dont know whether its a blessing or not, having someone you think loves you but wont say so.

1. Stock redbull, tea, coffee and yogurt.
2. Study, study, study. 
3. Work + actually saving the money.
4. Get fuck over with Os.
5. Awesome fawesome birthday. 
6. Acidflare.
7. $$$
8. Bangkok.
9. Hxc shopping trips (days)
10. ^^ (nights) 
11. Get back results.
12. Play fucking immature games/make up for shit.
13. Shove 13pts/< in fuckfaces.
14. Celebrate ( Read more... )

Oh wow. I dont know why Im so shocked even until now. It doesnt bloody click and it doesnt make any fucking sense.

Fuck "service to the school" and CCAs. And that smelly teacher who really should be fucked up the ass upside down.

I know the subtle difference between being liking a guy's company and leading him on into thinking there's something more. I wish it was that easy. We're on different pages. There're too many pages. Fml, what happened to all the normal beings in the world.

111 days, I finally done and I think Im alright. (:

I dont need a boyfriend, I've awesome friends and too much work to do.  I think Im somewhat happy today.

Its 5:25PM but tears are streaming down my cheeks, I will crawl into bed cos I have no idea where the fuck everyone is and  I am back to square one. Mother fucking hell. Mother. Fucking. Hell.

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