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Shhhhh
I know I haven't been on here much, but it's because I'm so busy it's frightening. This semester is ALMOST over and I know I'll be on here during my break. I have really good grades, but the curriculum this semester has been very intense and takes up so much time. Still working two jobs and doing hair on the side.
And now?
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Update
I was stupid to think fall semester would be easier than the summer.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
I can't talk right now, but just know that I'm alive. Overwhelmed more than I thought was physically and emotionally possible, but alive.
Hello. I love you all. Ttys.
--Summer
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How was your summer?
So. It's the end of July. I can almost take one big deep breath, but not until Sunday.
It has been a very hard two months...
So, time to get you guys current.
10 things that happened in the last 2 months
1. I got STRAIGHT A'S! Yes. All my pain, suffering, crying, time away from family and friends, and I achieved straight A's.
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Here comes the sun and I say, it's alright...
Hey, everyone!
Okay, first, I'd like to apologize for all the negativity that I've been posting. This HAVE been really brutal. Oh, how they sure have...
But there is light at the end of the tunnel and I'm inching so close!
So, stick with me, my loves, and I PROMISE:
A. That I will get LJ caught up. I'm so behind, and haven't been reading anything on ( Read more... ) -
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Sometimes, if I listen to the right music, it takes me to a very dark frame of mind and I find myself trapped in dark memories. It's strange that now that I am years removed from those dark places, being in them for a moment mentally is oddly comforting. Like a warm, depressing blanket, I want to wrap myself up in it and wallow in my moment.
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Low
Just having a moment of low self-esteem. Or a weeks worth. Really low. The worst part is, I'm so freaking busy, I don't have any time alone to work through my feelings. I kind of feel like crying, but I don't want to get Ivy upset for no reason. She's very sensitive to that.
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June Update
June is shaping up to be a lot of work in more ways than one.
Here's what's happened:
* Summer semester is at the halfway point. I have a 92% in Business Communication, which is partially correct as some of my homework hasn't been graded yet. It should go back up to a 95%. Is it sad that I haven't read the textbook, but I pass the tests and do the ( Read more... ) -
Update
Still alive. This week could not get more rocky and there's still half left. I keep telling myself that when I graduate in May, all of this will have been a blip on the map of my life, but May seems so far away.
It's hard to focus on what will be when you feel so trapped in what's happening now. :/
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