I feel alienated and unwelcome, apparently I have overwhelmed every venting source I have and yet I still feel awful. I hate coming home to a place I am made to feel like I don't belong in. I am degraded, judged, drug into everything, blamed for everything on a daily basis, and thats just my home life, my job currently is about as bad. I feel like ( Read more... )

I can't miss you if were never there
Your eyes cant pierce me if I never see them
You can't break my heart if you don't exist to me anymore
You can't make me cry if I don't listen to you
I can make it without you.....

Well I am sick of the same bs, I am changing it up, Breaking out, to all my friends in Illinois, I love you so so so very much, and I miss you, To my friends in St. Louis, bitches, you know how much this girl loves you! You get reminded on a regular basis, to everyone else, come visit so we can share the friend love, I can never have enough people ( Read more... )

"that i would be great if i was no longer queen ( Read more... )

It's simple, I want love without boundaries, without consequence, without judgement, I just want to be loved.....thats it.

I hate you, hate you, hate you for what you've done to me! I hate you for all the times you made me feel happy, for all the times you made me smile, I hate you for making me think you understood me. I hate that I got attached to something I knew wasn't going to make it, we were never meant to make it. I just want to cry and break things and scream ( Read more... )

I want to look in your eyes and drown, I want to know you're arms are around me, I want to feel you whisper I love you on my lips, and to feel your hands on my skin, your kisses on my neck, your words in my ears. I want this daydream to make me feel real, and if I hold onto you tight enough maybe I will be able to feel your love for me. If I close ( Read more... )

I want to do something awful, crazy, unexpected.....I feel like being in this winter hibernation is killing me. Either that or my awful self esteem is. I am super homesick, i miss my friends in Illinois, shit i miss my friends here because I never get to see them. I need to get out and do something, meet new people, and stop letting so many people ( Read more... )

I like writing in this, I think its because I know only a few people read it or know it exists, so all of my craziness can be documented somewhere without the whole world reading and judging it. So I had this dream, I can't get it out of my head, so I am sharing it. I woke up, dazed, in a neighborhood of smaller houses, it was pitch black like ( Read more... )

I can't sleep...again. Informercials never cease to amaze me in their ridiculousness. I would love to go on and brag about life, but I suppose I can leave the few small highlights til the end so at least this seems a little more positive. I used to be so positive and fun loving, and I still am but reviewing my blogs it just seems like my life is ( Read more... )