A lot can happen in such a short space of time. Ive come on here to write down the issues I am having so Andy and I can have a proper conversation about what we both want. He doesnt think of the future like I do. I need an outlook, I need think of something positive because the place I am in in the present is shit. So thinking of something good ( Read more... )

Once again delay in a response to here. Haven't been at my house or laptop in weeks, either been in Cornwall or at Richards. It's odd. Dont really know how to take it all. My mood swings are horrible I hate it. I keep pushing everyone away and I am sick and fed up of it but I don't know how to stop it. I wish I ould but once again I am just a ( Read more... )

Welcome back is all I can say. Been an odd time, lots happened. Fell back into the ruck of being a dick again, self harming got severly worse as Uni went on, resulted in 2 suicide attempts, such a screw up. Had some good times, more bad times. Met a guy, Simon. We've recently split, met someone else, Rich. Very complicated situation but when do I ( Read more... )

O dear... Havent written in here in a couple of months! Nicht gut
Split with James. Ages ago. Been a slag since probs got a couple of STIs seeing as me n ross never used a condom which was fun! thank god me and dan did haha, get some more!
need to diet. now at uni so can, but been here for fucking ages and aint even started! gotsa soon or i will die!
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 It hurts so much

and i cant stop bleeding

but i need to feel his pain

i need to make myself realise how much ive hurt him

and im shaking

i just wanna fucking go

leave

get out of my life

i really dont care

there are 2 things im living for, and well, its hurting......... but

i just cant be arsed

i cnt cut anymore, well i can but i risk loosing someone i really do like

all i do is eat

so i feel shit

i just wanna go. leave everything

for good

New fast. I couldnt keep to my old one for some strange reason. But now i am BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i cant afford to buy food woop woop! lol, and i can like not eat until TUESDAY! woop which is when the college partyis lol. SO thats thursday friday saturday sunday monday and tuesday, 6 full days and like 6 full nights. so yesh tuesdsy nite is ( Read more... )

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